[Sarah116]

I am sooooooooooooooo upset!!! I have been so tempted to cut I can't think straight and the fill in the blanks Autistic support teachers sent me to the MRC FOR THE 6TH TIME! I asked my Mom about a higher dose of Zyprexa and she said no. I only have 11 left so I am going to run out soon anyway. I have gained like four pounds! GRRRRRRR! I logged on from school it worked, we are watching a movie now, better go. They're whispering and hissing and fighting behind me. I tried to open my locker and the aliens treid to stab my fingers, they kept trying to hurt my thoughts, and hearing my thoughts! I only have 11 left I will probably see the Psychiatrist soon. They Family doctor gave me samples. I am not sure because my Mom called and only the Psychologist is there. The holidays are going to be exciting though!
Lots to look forward to as always!
Sarah

[January]

(((((((((( Sarah )))))))))))))

I do hope you feel better soon.

Hugs,

Jan

[Sarah116]

Okay so in Math class my thoughts werea mess, it seemed impossible to even think straight. I did nothing and got nothing done, so my teacher sent me to see the principal whom I did not talk to said "Sarah this has been happening a lot I am not playing games go to the MRC for the rest of the day!" So I went there and soon the assistant principal camedown whom I did not talk to either and said I wanted to die and hurt myself because I did! Soshe called my Dad who came to school and they had this meeting and this Crisis Mental Health worker lady came down who I did not talk too. I missed part of Math class, PE, Science, Tech Ed, Art, Lunch and part of SS. we sat in a room in the office talking. I said "i don't know" to about everything then I would be told to go out in the waiting area of the office and try to finish my Math then I would be told to come back. The assitant principal gave mea small soft teddy bear and other small toys and games trying to get me to calmdown and talk. I finally broke out the truth. I said " The Aliens are spying on me and it is so scary and the Ghosts and the voices and everything is so scary and I can't think and and and..." Finally the talked some more and suggested I go home with my Dad and gave me some SS and the rest of my Math. (I did the SS and and almost done with the Math). When we left my Dad said "Sarah, We are going to get an appointment to see the Psychiatrist, he can find the right meds for you if you talk." I am going there soon even before the family Doctor highly suggested it. So that was today. It was a big and interesting, scary one.

[January]

((((((((((( Sarah )))))))))))

I'm so proud of you for telling the truth about what is bothering you. That was a giant step toward feeling better.

Please tell the Pdoc everything. Don't hold a thing back.

Please let us know how things go.

Hugs,

Jan