[RedEagle]

Has anyone else with thought disorder had experiences where it seems like everyone can tell exactly what you're thinking all the time and there's no barrier between your innermost feelings, thoughts and attitudes and other people? I literally experience people speaking my thoughts and attitudes all day long. It's very strange and frightening.

[junkDNA]

i have the opposite problem. sometimes i feel like i can hear what others are thinking. its usually paranoid stuff like they dont like me, want to hurt me, etc

[Bells129]

Yes I feel like my thoughts are being listened to by the devil or something evil, and sometimes my thoughts are laughed at by them. I don't get this as much as I used to, since I started taking decent medication it's got better. But it's still horrible when it happens.

[TheatreKid]

Sometimes I feel like people around me can hear my thoughts. It's usually when I'm thinking something inappropriate or something that I wouldn't want them to know. But they don't actually speak my thoughts. That would be frightening, I'm sorry you're experiencing that.

[jeppys]

I'm paralyzed because of this. I don't want to see people anymore. it really ramped up the other day early in the morning. it is not pleasant to feel like your mind is connected to everyone elses and there are no boundaries of private thought. I was sitting having coffee with friends wanting to die and I heard a bike bell ringing behind me across the street. I ignored it but it kept on, patiently I might add. I finally turned around because I felt like they were trying to get my attention and it was a little girl and her mother. the girl was staring right at me and I felt like giving her a little wave to say hello or thank you and she waved back like a cute innocent child would and kept going. what made her do that? what made me turn to look at her? how did she know that I needed a beautiful moment like that at that exact time? something is happening and I don't understand it. real world experiences tell me that everyone knows what I'm thinking. while it can be beautiful it is also very scary and I don't know how to exist under these circumstances.

[katnic2817]

That sounds exactly like what has been happening to me for quite some time now. I don't know exactly when it started but I know I didn't always have the problem. Actually a few years back like 2008 for a while I was having different problems like I thought I could hear people talking out loud about me when there was no one around and I would hear running commentary on my behavior by people I have known throughout my life saying things like "now she's doing this" or I would hear my ex a lot saying "did you just now figure that out?" something he said when we were together when I didn't know something. Before that I had anxiety and depression issues for years. I just don't get it because I have read so much information over the last several years about schizophrenia and psychosis. I have been told I don't have schizophrenia by a couple different doctors. I don't take medication and function pretty normal but I don't like to go out at certain times because I feel like I'm being made fun of because of my thoughts. Even though I know it's impossible (or I keep reading it is, lol) I still haven't been able to convince myself that it isn't. It's basically the only problem I have anymore. I don't want to work because of it especially since most of the work I've done is in factories and I just can't stand the loud machines and people talking going on at once because I keep hearing them saying things I'm thinking. Sometimes I get repetitive thoughts too that are embarrassing like my mind will repeat she's ugly over and over and I'll start hearing people saying it out loud and I can't stand it so I just want to escape. I don't know what to do. I'm going to a therapist for the first time in a few years tomorrow so I'm hoping it will help me. I just don't want to spend the rest of my life inside hiding which would be impossible anyway. It sucks not being able to go out and be comfortable like everyone should be able to. I need to work because I have kids and need money obviously and I think my bf thinks I just don't want to work. I have told him all about this and he didn't have much to say but he doesn't know what it's like to constantly feel like that around people because he talks to anyone and everyone and just doesn't get it. I think he just thinks I'm a little crazy. I guess it probably has helped me some that no one I am regularly around like my kids, bf, mom, and family has ever mentioned hearing my thoughts. It still feels and sounds real though even if it isn't. I think a lot of the problem with this is being afraid of it. It was something I read a few weeks ago. It's like the fact that I'm scared of people being able to hear my thoughts makes it keep happening because I'm trying to control it and I can't control it. I'd like to just get to a place where I accept it and that it's not going to go away I guess because I don't think it is for me and so I'm gonna have to deal with it. Well, I just really wanted to reply to your post because it sounded so much like what I've been dealing with and all the discussion boards I've gone through I haven't found many people who feel this way all the time. Hopefully reading some of my experience helps you or someone else. Hope things get better for you.