Hi I'm sorry to be doing this on here writing about this crap I don't know it's all ****ed my head is melted my thoughts are gone into nothing i don't know anything racing everywhere just dead

I wrote about stuff here http://forums.psychcentral.com/schiz...monitored.html

thats my story but things have just gotten mad my boyfriend has left for a "break" the noises are loud im shaking i dont know what to do! I'm thinking about doing something that your not allowed mention something to stop the ****ing noises and the incessent screaming of my ****ing life here on this demented hole. Im sitting here in the dark so they dont see me quiet so they don't hear me just typing away to nothing empt thoughts going through waves of ****. what do I do what should i do.

I've stopped taking that injection I don't know whats in it, it could be anything to keep me controlled dumbed down like an animal in a field with no consciousness no control no future. I'm thinking of confronting them head on demanding answers why why why me for **** sake. I cant do this anymore I feel eyes watching me constantly judging and anticipating recording evry sound every movement every reaction. Following me putting me down laughing at me taunting me putting these dreams into my head only to take them away and burn them. Nothing is real, this is all a dream and I need to wake up to stop this I feel sick something bigger than this is not real! im supposed to be something else!

I need help!

[Sometimes psychotic]

For me the people stopped watching once I took the meds on a regular basis....

[newtus]

a prn may help you

[Sometimes psychotic]

http://recoveryfromschizophrenia.org...oices-list.doc

Sometimes doing things on this list will help sometimes it has no effect....it's different for everyone...

[Sometimes psychotic]

Eleanor Longden: The voices in my head | Talk Video | TED.com

You might also want it check out this video of someone who dealt with the voices...

[costello]

Sorry you're having a hard time, chickenfoot.

Thanks guys, I calmed down a little and got a few hours sleep after. I'm going to approach my doctors head on about this, ask them why they're doing this to me! Does anyone have any ideas how I could approach this situation?

[costello]

Originally Posted by chickenfoot

Thanks guys, I calmed down a little and got a few hours sleep after. I'm going to approach my doctors head on about this, ask them why they're doing this to me! Does anyone have any ideas how I could approach this situation?

I suspect the doctors aren't really doing anything. It's stopping the medication suddenly that caused your problems last night. Anyway if you go ask the doctors point blank why they're poisoning you, they'll deny it and say it's a symptom of your illness that you think that.

If I were you, I'd go get the shot, then work with a doctor to wean off slowly instead of quitting abruptly like you did.

I'm afraid to go outside cuz snipers will be out there to take me out and I'm afraid to go to school when it starts cuz they brainwash us there. I vet constant flyovers by helicopters monitoring me this has been worse since i supposedly becme manic a few days ago!!

Originally Posted by chickenfoot

Thanks guys, I calmed down a little and got a few hours sleep after. I'm going to approach my doctors head on about this, ask them why they're doing this to me! Does anyone have any ideas how I could approach this situation?

I second what Costello said. I'm really sorry ur struggling so badly.

[likewater]

When I had a psychotic break, it really helped me to sleep. Maybe ask if you can get something to help you sleep and there is nothing wrong with voicing your concerns about the current meds. Like Costello said the worst that can happen is the Doctor will say that your meds are safe and the best for your illness and not toxic or poisonous. I'm honest with my doctors. If I don't trust them, I tell them.
Sometimes we work it out and sometimes we agree to disagree. I wish you everything good. May angels surround you, Chickenfoot. I'm sorry you are going through such a difficult time.

[KUREHA]

Hope you're feeling a bit better

I didn't get mine today for the same reason.