[toxicity_nikki]

I'm writing this at 1 am knowing I won't be able to sleep tonight unless I can make myself stop bullying myself. I was diagnosed about a year ago, only showing a few symptoms. I'm young and was told i would get worse with age. So basically what I'd like to talk about is what happened at work today and yesterday. I wait tables, I've been having problems with my hand eye coordination, meaning I've dropped, bumped into or couldn't even grab things. Sometimes when people talk to me it's get gumbled up and I can't understand, but more often nobody can understand me. Idk what I'm supposed to do, I feel like I'm a failure and when I can catch a grip on things I get stressed the more stressed I am the less I can understand what people are saying to me, I'm just afraid I'll be worse tomorrow I'm afraid I'll wake up and not being to think clearly anymore. How does somebody deal with losing their mind?

[Angelique67]

Take it moment by moment right now. I can relate to how you're feeling. I also have trouble with speech, understanding speech sometimes, and clumsiness. This can get better, depending on the meds or a bunch of other factors. You are not a failure! You're a brave individual facing your life and your dreams and goals. You will be fine. 🙋

[Sometimes psychotic]

I'm not sure why you were told it would get worse with age it often gets better with age....it can get worse or it can get better or it can stay they same there is no guarantee.....the best indicator might be what has happened with other members of your family in the past.

Welcome to PC!

There are no guarantees with any illness. Prognosis is just a guess, not a prophecy. I get the problems with speech and clumsiness too, though I don't have a diagnosis, so I can relate to getting frustrated with myself

*Willow*