[ladisputelover]

Hi, I'm new. This is my first post.. I'd really appreciate some help though?

I don't know what is wrong with me. I have been seeing a psychiatrist for two years now but I just got a new one and I'm not sure I can tell her everything because of my severe anxiety. For as long as I remember, I have been experiencing visual and auditory hallucinations. When I was younger, I thought everyone experienced hallucinations. But, as the years went by, they steadily became worse and worse. My visual hallucinations aren't nearly as bad as the auditory (I see shadows running in front of me, bugs crawling on walls and sometimes on my skin, and flashing lights as well as seeing more than one of things that are AND aren't there, though my vision is 20/20) but I'm still very scared. The voices continually tell me to harm and kill myself and the only way to shut them up for just a short time is to self harm (something I've struggled with for years). Among the voices, I hear other sounds as well. I hear unintelligible whispers, beeping, sounds of people and animals running towards and away from me, as well as clicks, taps, and other various sounds that aren't heard by other people. I don't know if this is relevant but I am also diagnosed with OCD. Sorry about so much, but I just need advice. Badly. Thank you. Has anyone else dealt with this? I just feel so alone..

[ofthevalley]

Have you spoken to your doctor about the hallucinations?
The only thing that's helped with mine is medication. I'm not able to push them away on my own.
welcome to the group

[Sometimes psychotic]

I agree with of the valley...antipsychotics are the only thing that was really effective although cbt therapy helped me a lot with the anxiety that was triggering some of my hallucinations...

[newtus]

yes i would second the medication thing. medications help so much. you have to know what helps you and what doesnt. the way i sort of do things personally is take some meds and do a lot of therapy and i try to work with people that can help get me through certain issues because i tend to try to tough things out on my own.

i dont recommend that though. medications should be the first go-to thing.

[ladisputelover]

Thanks, you guys. I've been telling my mom some of what's going on and she's going to help me tell my psychiatrist. I'm just so terrified that she won't believe me or whatever hah. My anxiety is so bad so I'm gonna have to bring that up with her as well. Ugh, I'm just so sick of everything lately :sad:

[insilence]

im developing theories that may stifle the voices/sounds.
if you can, get some aloe vera and liquify onions/mild-medium peppers and mix with aloe.
try on safe areas of body.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by insilence

im developing theories that may stifle the voices/sounds.
if you can, get some aloe vera and liquify onions/mild-medium peppers and mix with aloe.
try on safe areas of body.

that does not sound safe

[newtus]

onions and peppers on the body doesnt sound safe.

[insilence]

well probably not, i use all types of stuff on my walls and windows and get temporary relief. i know that the voices are partly external.