[rep97]

So I have a lot of paranoia.. I think the whole world is against me and everyone and everything is trying to torture me.

BUT!!!!

it is not without a cause.. I genuinely feel people get uncomfortable around me.. as in I give off some kinda vibes. And they give me a look or do something subtle to make me know that something is wrong and I should be on alert.

I swear a girl the other day looked at me turned around and walked ahead of me.. ocassionaly looking over her shoulder to the side... then she turned around and looked at me.. I looked back and she was looking at me.. I turn around a second time and she turns around her head and looks at me again..... secs later I look back again for the third time and again she turns her head around and looks at me. And that was it.

This is just one example... there are 100s more.. like when someone is passing by me coming from the opposite direction... they look past me. This happens so many times in a day.

And my pdoc doesn't believe me.. she keeps saying you are a normal person and you are imagining things.. well I am not.

Or when I feel a little happy and excited.. then people give me looks and stares.. until I dissociate and lose myself again and go back to being miserable.

That is why I am paranoid 24/7 and especially around people.

This is really freaky but true.

[solita1]

I can relate to this, I think people on the street who walk towards me then turn back and walk in the opposite direction are doing it to send me a secret message or threat. It could just be that they have forgotten something at home and have turned back., It seems to happen all the time though.

I also think that cars deliberately slow down when they approach me -stare at me then drive off.

I think people break into my apartment to move things around in order to wear me down mentally.