[A18793715]

I had an appointment with my pdoc today. It was online so I told her everything on my mind, what medicine changes I wanted to talk about and stuff. But when I told her about my shadow, she said that I needed acute care right now. But I don't get it. It's just like every other day. Just new ****. She said if I don't go, she won't be able to help me or continue prescribing because I'm being noncompliant to her wishes. She didn't force me in but she told me to email her tomorrow and tell her my decision. I wouldn't go back to my old hospital. But the new one, they have cameras viewing the entrance to every single room. That scares me but I can't drive to another city for another place.

I don't want to go. I don't even know why she's forcing this on me. If I want to keep her as a doctor, I have to go. I don't want to lose her but I really don't want to go to the hospital just because there's someone new behind me.

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[CANDC]

I am sorry you have such mixed feelings about hospitalization. It can actually be a help to get meds stable again and help you feel whole.

Are you taking your meds? If you are taking your meds regularly and are still having these symptoms, you could ask your psychiatrist for new meds or seek out another psychiatrist. How debilitating is this "shadow". Does it make you unable to cope with life or do irrational things like run?

Often the reason for a hospitalization is the person is a threat to themselves or others. If that is not the case there are out patient programs that may help.

You could go inpatient and they could revamp your meds and try to get you stable again. The new hospital has cameras to the entrance to see if you attempt to leave the room. This is not a spying system but a monitoring system to make sure you do not leave the room at unauthorized time like during the night.

Maybe your doctor knows you and here concern is justified. It really depends a lot on how you can cope with life at present.

[Sinking Feeling]

Sorry to hear your delima your in. But what about your shadows prompted your pdoc to make such a recommendation?

[Yoda]

would intensive outpatient be an option?

[A18793715]

She said outpatient care isn't an option for me right now and that I need acute care.

I have no idea what I said that makes her make me go

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[Eris]

Originally Posted by A18793715

I had an appointment with my pdoc today. It was online so I told her everything on my mind, what medicine changes I wanted to talk about and stuff. But when I told her about my shadow, she said that I needed acute care right now. But I don't get it. It's just like every other day. Just new ****. She said if I don't go, she won't be able to help me or continue prescribing because I'm being noncompliant to her wishes. She didn't force me in but she told me to email her tomorrow and tell her my decision. I wouldn't go back to my old hospital. But the new one, they have cameras viewing the entrance to every single room. That scares me but I can't drive to another city for another place.

I don't want to go. I don't even know why she's forcing this on me. If I want to keep her as a doctor, I have to go. I don't want to lose her but I really don't want to go to the hospital just because there's someone new behind me.

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That's awful. Are you sick? What's going on? Stage 4?

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by A18793715

She said outpatient care isn't an option for me right now and that I need acute care.

I have no idea what I said that makes her make me go

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Were you talking about hurting yourself or others? That's the usual reason....

[A18793715]

Nope. I just told her about my new shadow and that I've just been stressed out. But that's like every other visit. She finally said I should try clozaril.

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[insilence]

what med are you on now? risperdal made my hallucinations worse, clozapine gave me more control and reduced the crazy. once i saw a shadow figure hoverboarding down the street, and heard them talking sometimes in certain places.

[A18793715]

I'm back to seroquel at 800mg. She just stays behind me. She's only talked once. I don't understand why I have to go today.

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[The_little_didgee]

Originally Posted by A18793715

I'm back to seroquel at 800mg. She just stays behind me. She's only talked once. I don't understand why I have to go today.

I have had this feeling before when I was severely depressed. It was a being waiting to pull my soul out of my body. I never reported it so I don't know if it is a valid reason for hospital admission or not.

I'm really surprised your psychiatrist wants to admit you solely for this reason and without seeing you. Mine would never suggest hospital admission without assessing me in person.

What else is going on? Are you suicidal or self-harming?

[A18793715]

Nothing else is going on. Just normal as usual. That's what I don't get.

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[The_little_didgee]

Originally Posted by A18793715

Nothing else is going on. Just normal as usual. That's what I don't get.

What is normal as usual?

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by A18793715

Nope. I just told her about my new shadow and that I've just been stressed out. But that's like every other visit. She finally said I should try clozaril.

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This is why she wants you in the hospital a lot of docs only start it in the hospital due to the number of blood tests needed and how closely you should be monitored.

[A18793715]

I don't want to be on clozaril.

My everyday life. Just how my life is every day. I hear voices 24/7 but she's never tried to put me in the hospital for that. The only other time she made me go was when I was suicidal.

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I think SomtimesP is right, anyone I know who's been on clozapine started it as an inpatient because of the high risk of... err... well... death. I wouldn't blame you for not wanting to go on it.