[Thetrueme97]

Hello, Thank you for reading this.
I just have some questions that I would love to have answered. I believe I had schizophrenia for a few years now, but for the longest my mother always told me that there is nothing wrong with you. However, I don't think so. Im 18 years old and it is not normal for me to be needing someone to escort me. But wait, that's not the whole story. When I enter a bathroom alone, I begin to have a pressure in my face and I feel like there is someone watching me. Waiting to stab me in the back and pop out of the stalls. I will feel better when I leave. Its the same when I am in a large hallway or an elevator. Some one is waiting to kill me. but the pressure feels so strong in my face that I have to cover my ears and just stop moving. I feel it coming closer to kill me. In the elevator, I picture my death like the string gonna snap, or the walls crush me or the roof falling on me. I know I have a problem, but I need to talk this out with someone who believes me and doesn't think that I am a chicken. I live in a household where they don't believe in mental disorders or anything of the sort. I am at my about to enter college and I don't want to be afraid to ride an elevator or walk somewhere that causes the pressure to paralyze me. Please, if you can help me understand or just words of advice it is needed.

[Shmooey]

I don't think you are a chicken. I struggle with the same types of things, and I have diagnosed schizoaffective disorder.

My suggestion to you is to seek out your student mental health unit when you go to college, and get an assessment there. That can be a beginning point for you and your family doesn't need to be involved in it at that time. Most colleges have good student health programs. It can be a good resource for you.

Welcome to the forums.