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newtus · Oct 28, 2015 at 08:54 AM

morning. im groggy from the ambien. as usual but it wears off. doesnt bother me too much. at least it helps me sleep.

its chilly outside!
in my room too.

Oct 28, 2015 at 09:40 AM

Good morning!

Here it's freezing outside XD

Happened again. Caffeine pills. I've learned my lession, Gonna take one pill as it says on the bottle and make coffee. I might not even take the pill and just sleep after school.

I'm a bit behind in my English course because of the compulsions completely wasting days of my time. (Manic or something yesterday. I thought that it was getting worse and would have to be hospitalized. Talking to myself, singing, highly energetic and tired but paranoid and delusional mind reading feelings idek. It's gone. Probably caffeine induced but surely it has to be living in this damn basement making me lose my mind..).

Pdoc and psychologist appointment and injection tomorrow. Never been so excited for an injection xP. Might see If I can take it every 2 weeks instead of 3.

I've been smoking used cigarettes which is pathetic because all I like is the hit which is what a crack head would say. 5 minutes... But I found some full ones in the garage..

Taking Concerta prescribed though ^^ because I actually need it much more now than recreational... I am very dependent medically but better than being addicted recreationally.

I plan to research politics heavy because I want to as well as history if I can stand that. Look at my old math book from Ireland because it's way easier to understand.

Last week I had no symptoms (Which is absolutely amazing) but now I need the injection.

If they don't increase the Concerta then I might as well admit that I'm hearing voices and getting paranoid for my own safety in terms of what I should be honest about but honestly I think three Concertas would help instead of two because I think I'm strong minded enough to allow it to distract myself and not get stressed like the past two days.

- Government ties is really why the government lies. Read it yourself instead of asking the government why cuz the cause of death will cause the propaganda to die...

Atypical_Disaster · Oct 28, 2015 at 11:56 AM

Life is excellent for me lately. I woke up at 4:00 this morning and just got up for good. It's been lovely, I have the house to myself today and I love the quietness of it all.

Loial · Oct 28, 2015 at 12:57 PM

Yay, just got my new pair of Levi's 751s delivered... struck lucky online & got literally the last pair in stock on a half price offer...

Should nicely replace my two current pairs of jeans which have both inexplicably worn holes in the same place on the front near the crotch... I dunno, maybe I have to "reposition myself" too often...

(strange thing is it's never happened before...)

Oct 28, 2015 at 01:05 PM

work is so slow today. i've basically been playing 7 degrees of kevin bacon on tvtropes all afternoon zzzzzzzz

roboanxia · Oct 28, 2015 at 01:17 PM

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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster

Life is excellent for me lately. I woke up at 4:00 this morning and just got up for good. It's been lovely, I have the house to myself today and I love the quietness of it all.

I've been rising around 9-10 since I've been on Tegretol. Why must I sleep for 12 hours??? Doesn't that mean it's making me depressed? Just last night I slept for 13.5 hours. Oh well. It's not up to me.

junkDNA · Oct 28, 2015 at 01:32 PM

hey guys a sparrow (i think) just flew into my deck doors.. now its on the deck just sitting there and panting. i think its dying. idk what to do, toby is very interested in it although he prob just wants to eat it. its just sad.

Loial · Oct 28, 2015 at 01:45 PM

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Originally Posted by junkDNA

hey guys a sparrow (i think) just flew into my deck doors.. now its on the deck just sitting there and panting. i think its dying. idk what to do, toby is very interested in it although he prob just wants to eat it. its just sad.

Actually, it might recover & fly off within 10 minutes or so... we've had the same happen with various birds at my parents' house. Hard to say though. I think it's best just to leave it to its own devices.

The birds which most commonly fly into our windows are Wood Pigeons, doesn't half make a racket when they do... we were always worried one day the window would break.

junkDNA · Oct 28, 2015 at 01:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Loial

Actually, it might recover & fly off within 10 minutes or so... we've had the same happen with various birds at my parents' house. Hard to say though. I think it's best just to leave it to its own devices.

The birds which most commonly fly into our windows are Wood Pigeons, doesn't half make a racket when they do... we were always worried one day the window would break.

hey loial, thanks. yeah i just walked over there again and its gone now. must have flown away like u said. hope its ok!

Angelique67 · Oct 28, 2015 at 02:38 PM

I'm really suffering from boredom lately. I guess my mind is slower and less active and curious and that might be due to the meds. I don't like being so dull. I used to have a lot of curiosity and was often looking things up online. But I hardly do that at all lately. I guess just in these past few weeks or maybe a couple of months. But I was on more or less the same meds before.

justmeandmyhead · Oct 28, 2015 at 03:04 PM

Took my sleeping tablets last night and actually had a great night sleep. Obviously I need them atm. Had a really good time talking with my friend today. I haven't laughed so much in a long time. We were talking for like 6 hours. Doing all I can to not give in to the depression and to keep going. Haven't heard from my cpn yet. Depot due on friday.

newtus · Oct 28, 2015 at 04:43 PM

got a new phone! iphone 6s plus!

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Oct 28, 2015 at 05:06 PM

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What happened to moving in with your sister in Cali?

I need to get my meds right before I leave. Now my psychiatrist wants to try Wellbutrin again. sigh. I'm convinced that this is the best it's going to get with Effexor as my unipolar depression. Wellbutrin has no effect sexual performance. It increases dopamine a bit and norepeinphren. reuptake inhibitor.

I tried it once and I was suicidal. So I'm going to waste a month to see if it works for me. Id also like to lose the 40lbs that Effexor might have caused. I doubt it's the Effexor though. I bet it's the Lamictal which is suppose to be "weight neutral". If it's the Lamictal, then I give up and stay on it and the Effexor.

I'm really getting tired being a lab rat. fml

Oct 28, 2015 at 05:15 PM

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Originally Posted by Door2015

Abyssinianish, and thought of you. Good luck on the job hunt!

Ody, where in Florida does your grandma live? You should come visit. We've got beer and OJ, and palm trees. Sadly, there is no overabundance of flamingoes. I had that dream ripped away from me when I moved here.

Oh, my grandmother is coming here from Florida to Michigan. She will be arriving in June with her husbands ashes. This way he'll be with the rest of his family and she reserved a spot next to him. I love my grandmother. I'm going to call her tomorrow morning and see how she is doing...

My mom is going to give the speech but... If she gives any sign of hesitation then I would be honored to create one.

How's the fancy Floridian doing? I love Florida... I love California more though... But I'd love to share a 6pack with you!

Angelique67 · Oct 28, 2015 at 05:24 PM

It's raining heavily. I love hearing the rain and wind when I'm inside.

Sometimes psychotic · Oct 28, 2015 at 05:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

It's raining heavily. I love hearing the rain and wind when I'm inside.

So do I

newtus · Oct 28, 2015 at 05:44 PM

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Originally Posted by Angelique67

It's raining heavily. I love hearing the rain and wind when I'm inside.

me too! i feel protected by god

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Oct 28, 2015 at 05:46 PM

it's raining here too
perfect day for resting my mind, so my mom would say

Oct 28, 2015 at 05:51 PM

i'm feeling so anxious it's making me sick

Oct 28, 2015 at 06:23 PM

so i guess i really am boring becuase nobody ever talks to me just because they think i am cool
its only ever because they want something from me

wow sorry ot kill the thread everyone, i'm just feeling super upset right now
i get sick of people pretending to like me and then stop talking to me once thy get what they want from me

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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 14 867 hugs given	Oct 28, 2015 at 08:54 AM #961 morning. im groggy from the ambien. as usual but it wears off. doesnt bother me too much. at least it helps me sleep. its chilly outside! in my room too. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Atypical_Disaster Elder Member Since Mar 2011 Location: Nowhere noteworthy. Posts: 7,145 13 7,354 hugs given	Oct 28, 2015 at 11:56 AM #963 Life is excellent for me lately. I woke up at 4:00 this morning and just got up for good. It's been lovely, I have the house to myself today and I love the quietness of it all.

Anonymous200440 Guest Posts: n/a	Oct 28, 2015 at 01:05 PM #965 work is so slow today. i've basically been playing 7 degrees of kevin bacon on tvtropes all afternoon zzzzzzzz

junkDNA Comfy Sedation Member Since Sep 2012 Location: the woods Posts: 19,304 (SuperPoster!) 12 8,152 hugs given	Oct 28, 2015 at 01:32 PM #967 hey guys a sparrow (i think) just flew into my deck doors.. now its on the deck just sitting there and panting. i think its dying. idk what to do, toby is very interested in it although he prob just wants to eat it. its just sad. __________________

justmeandmyhead Magnate Member Since May 2013 Location: UK Posts: 2,663 11 28 hugs given	Oct 28, 2015 at 03:04 PM #971 Took my sleeping tablets last night and actually had a great night sleep. Obviously I need them atm. Had a really good time talking with my friend today. I haven't laughed so much in a long time. We were talking for like 6 hours. Doing all I can to not give in to the depression and to keep going. Haven't heard from my cpn yet. Depot due on friday.

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 14 867 hugs given	Oct 28, 2015 at 04:43 PM #972 got a new phone! iphone 6s plus! Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Angelique67 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2014 Location: USA Posts: 22,124 (SuperPoster!) 10	Oct 28, 2015 at 05:24 PM #975 It's raining heavily. I love hearing the rain and wind when I'm inside.

Anonymous50123 Guest Posts: n/a	Oct 28, 2015 at 05:46 PM #978 it's raining here too perfect day for resting my mind, so my mom would say

Anonymous50123 Guest Posts: n/a	Oct 28, 2015 at 05:51 PM #979 i'm feeling so anxious it's making me sick

Anonymous50123 Guest Posts: n/a	Oct 28, 2015 at 06:23 PM #980 so i guess i really am boring becuase nobody ever talks to me just because they think i am cool its only ever because they want something from me wow sorry ot kill the thread everyone, i'm just feeling super upset right now i get sick of people pretending to like me and then stop talking to me once thy get what they want from me