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Old May 09, 2016, 05:30 PM
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My last appointment is in less than 24 hours. It's online. I don't know how I'll feel or react. I've been pretending like tomorrow isn't really going to happen and all the sudden, it's less than 24 hours and I'm freaking out. What would I say?

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Old May 09, 2016, 07:23 PM
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must be hard .. i lost my old pdoc. he told me he lost objectivity. i had seen him for 8 yrs. we still text sometimes. he is a good man. but i think he got in over his head

can you just tell her how leaving makes u feel? and tell her what youve appreciated?

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Old May 09, 2016, 07:40 PM
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I've freaked out on her many times because I've known for 3 months now. She's moving onto teaching. This isn't the first time she said she's quitting though. That's why kills me. Her license doesn't actually expire until next year. So I told her I kinda found that out and so she told me it's her DEA license that is going to expire. But I have no way to find that out since DEA numbers are private and since I haven't seen her in person in years now, I can look at a paper script to find the number. Part of me swears she's lying to get rid of me because she doesn't know what else to do because no antipsychotic work and I think she's just tired of me.

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Old May 10, 2016, 12:44 PM
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One hour and 16 minutes.. I'm terrified.

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Old May 10, 2016, 05:26 PM
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She never got online and hasn't replied to my email.

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Old May 10, 2016, 05:27 PM
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One hour and 16 minutes.. I'm terrified.

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Hey there. How did your appointment go?
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Old May 10, 2016, 06:26 PM
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Hey there. How did your appointment go?


She never came online. So. I didn't have one.
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Old May 10, 2016, 06:27 PM
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She never came online. So. I didn't have one.
Maybe she'll reschedule? :/
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Old May 10, 2016, 06:59 PM
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Maybe she'll reschedule? :/


I have high doubts. Part of me knew she was going to do this.
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Old May 10, 2016, 07:19 PM
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I have high doubts. Part of me knew she was going to do this.
Is it easier if she doesn't respond? I'm sorry, it sounds like there was no closure. Not that there's really ever been any in my experience either.
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Old May 10, 2016, 08:33 PM
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I'm sorry she flaked
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Old May 10, 2016, 08:58 PM
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I don't know how to feel. My breaking point was seriously a fast food order slightly wrong. It was what I wanted exactly but I wanted it on toast, but a bun. And that set me off and I've been trying to calm down since. I don't know if I want to talk to her again. I bet anything she'll email me saying she was busy or sick or at the doctor. That's always her excuse.

It feels like I'm being broken up with and abandoned. I'm alone now. She was my pdoc and T. She knows more about me than even anyone I've dated, and my longer relationship was almost 6 and a half years.

I'm just sitting here drinking and trying to finish some art homework in time so I can try to pass. If I fail this semester, I can't get finical aid until I pay myself and pass their standards.

It's so much piling up.

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Old May 10, 2016, 09:51 PM
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That's ********. I'm sorry she has abandoned tou

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Old May 10, 2016, 09:51 PM
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Old May 10, 2016, 10:09 PM
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I had a feeling she would do this. I don't want another pdoc. I've been constantly looking for therapist but I can't trust anyone but her. And now she's gone.

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Old May 10, 2016, 10:09 PM
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Is it bad that I kinda want to go to the hospital, not only for my sanity and safety, but because I know they can help me with mental health resources?

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Old May 10, 2016, 10:40 PM
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Somehow I always thought she would be there.

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Old May 10, 2016, 10:40 PM
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She's maybe in her early 30's. So. I figured she wouldn't be quitting for a very long time.

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Old May 11, 2016, 05:53 AM
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She's maybe in her early 30's. So. I figured she wouldn't be quitting for a very long time.

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I'm really sorry she left you like this. I think if you feel you could benefit from inpatient, you should go in. I'm not sure what your hospital is like, though. It seems like everyone has a different kind of experience in their hospital. Have you ever been IP before? If you knew what to expect it would be easier.
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Old May 11, 2016, 10:42 AM
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I've been IP more times than I can count anymore. My first time was 10 years ago.

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