[evildouble102]

I wish I could understand my hallucinations. I probly can't because u cannot rationalize something that is irrational, right? Waiting in my T's office for my appointment I saw a young black girl maybe 6-8 years old. She was wearing a denim dress with a white round collared white shirt underneath. she had two pigtail type braids with white socks and black dress shoes. She was so real to me. This struck me as strange because in the 4 or 5 years I've experienced mental illnesses I can count the visual hallucinations on either hand; as opposed to the usual for me would be the auditory hallucinations. The only reason I knew she was real was because she was sitting on the couch in the waiting room next to a woman but not too far from me. A drug company rep was talking to a doc and they shook hands and departed; the whole time I was half watching the girl. I looked and then the next minute she was gone. I didn't hear her get up, the lady didn't address her, no one came to get her or anything she just vanished. Does anyone have any inisght on any of this in general?
Danielle