[scar12346]

I'm so creeped out. The things that sometimes go along my brain should not be things that a 16 year old.. God no one should have those thoughts.. I keep going back to the time of when I fainted and how.. I felt

*Trigger warning*
nice it felt to be a goner. The thought itself of being near dead was amazing
*End trigger*

Sometimes when I'm psychotic, which doesn't happen as much, but when it does everything goes bad, I really want people to feel that way and more things that I would prefer not write on the internet..
How come something that is supposed to help you, causes both suicidal and homicidal thoughts..
And the worst part is, if my pdocs find out, I would need to spend time with my insane psychologist that thinks that I am a reborn serial killer.. oh god...

[OliverB]

They can cause it. Can you
ask your pdoc
another
antypsychotic that doesnt't cause you homicidal thoughts?

But... It's also possible to have homicidal thoughts while psychotic with maniac symptoms without being truly manic. -Something like irritated and depressed-,

[scar12346]

Originally Posted by Nocter

They can cause it. Can you
ask your pdoc
another
antypsychotic that doesnt't cause you homicidal thoughts?

But... It's also possible to have homicidal thoughts while psychotic with maniac symptoms without being truly manic. -Something like irritated and depressed-,

That was the only anti-psychotic I can be on until I am 18.
It does happen more when I am angry while psychotic, maybe should work on that

[88Butterfly88]

I've heard they can yes. I always took drugs not recommended for minors when I was a teenager. If your case is extreme maybe it's something to consider?

[scar12346]

Originally Posted by 88Butterfly88

I've heard they can yes. I always took drugs not recommended for minors when I was a teenager. If your case is extreme maybe it's something to consider?

It's not an option in here. You get what you can or worse. I'm one of the little who can get prescribed Explemed..
The thoughts are not that extreme, kind of like with the voices. Sure they were there, I just didn't bother listening to them. So I guess I am good for now.

[kazza34]

well u know,ive had homicidal thoughts even before anti psychotics,so not sure if they cause them,i know they can cause suicidal thoughts.its ok to have homicidal thoughts as long as you dont act on them

[Takeshi]

Ditto to the above post, homi thoughts are kinda intellectually understandable to myself. Your pdoc definitely needs to know imho, he/she's your health care provider after all, he/she is as much responsible as the thoughts change that maybe you're having, intended/unintended effects can not be addressed without your feedback. Please take care.