[OliverB]

Entities, creatures, voices, people, whatever....

Originally Posted by Nocter

Entities, creatures, voices, people, whatever....

What do you study in college?

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by Materly

What do you study in college?

What does this has to do with my entities? Are you trying to find who I am?

[raspberrytorte]

I have entities. Well, one in particular that bothers me.

They're not special.

College , living independently , are just indicators that you are functioning. I can not tell who you are from knowing what you study. Also why are you worried that you could become homeless , if you start taking meds?

To protect your living situation, you are better off having a cooperative , compliant history with mental health services. But you think differently.

[OliverB]

Originally Posted by Materly

College , living independently , are just indicators that you are functioning. I can not tell who you are from knowing what you study. Also why are you worried that you could become homeless , if you start taking meds?

To protect your living situation, you are better off having a cooperative , compliant history with mental health services. But you think differently.

I had to run away from a dysfunctional family, I live independently because I don't have another option and no, we don't have homes for people with MI, only with physical disabilities, there 'home' psychiatric hospital for people who are extremely severe to the point they can't talk or do anything, so much more severe than any of us because we are writing here. There are not homes for people with MI who are mild or moderately disable.

Here we have 4 grupos of disabilty.

from 0 to 32 points you are not considered disable
from 33 to 65 points you are considered midly disable -you can live by your own but need external help, you can work normaly or with few help-. Peopple with asperger syndrome usually are here.
from 66 to 74 points you are considered moderately disable -you can't live by your own all the time, you can't work on normal places, you can only do specific types of work or with a lot of help, like occupational work-. People with classic autism usually are here.
from 75 to 100 points you are considered severly disable, you need someone with you all the time, you can't do any type of work even from home, even with many accomodations. -For example people with cerebral palsy and severe mental retardation or catatonic schizophrenia-.

Most of people with metal illness are between 33 and 65, few between 66 and 74.

I am considered to be moderately disable since I have 68 points and need someone to help me to cook, remember me to bath, etc but I don't have any since I don't have a family. So I may be 10 days without showering, not eating for days, not having clothes, etc. Until this last weeks I have been felling bettter and I shower at least once each two days and I try to eat better even if I still can't. So no, I am not functioning well and it's the main reason why a month ago I was give 68 points on disability. I have to go to a day hospital... one of psychiatrist said my case is special because I was considered deeply gifted as a child, another one considered I could do it without meds. The one I have now wants me to take them but no as a priority. The psycholigist I had a year ago when I was IP wanted to IP in a long term place, but that would have been the end of my life since I have nobody that would support me once I would have been out and the money I am giving for disability is not enough to live, thats why I need college.

I am at college because it was the only way I was given enough money to live. and I have always like studying, even if now my concentration is poor and last year I did really bad. I lived in an abusive family, extremely abusive, my only friends were books. I barely talk to people, I read texts when my concentration allows me. It's not easy to go to lessons, it's to stressfull, I have to take clonazepam to go. Fortunatly even if my concentration is poor for me it's so easy to learn I understand everything even if my mind is there less than hhalf of time.

I was worried about going homeless if I take meds because they worse my concentration and sedate me, so I wouldn't be able to continue college as I wans't able to go to high school when I took them when I was 15. also they didn't help at all and just caused me side effects. I have my first psychosis experience when I was around 9 and I saw a spiders everywhere and tried to remove them away from my body because they were climbing. By then I began to socially isolated and etc.... I was more or less normal, maybe a bit shy and fearful, until I was 9. So my psychotic thing is really deep in my brain.

You know, when I was 14-15 my negative symptoms were so severe they thought I had high functioning autism undiagnosed, then they saw the affective and possitive part of psychosis and thought I could have bipolar and psychosis....

The fact I don't have the typical paranoid schizophrenia that begins when you are 20 and you believe the FBI is following you doesn't mean I have it easy

Originally Posted by Nocter

I had to run away from a dysfunctional family, I live independently because I don't have another option and no, we don't have homes for people with MI, only with physical disabilities, there 'home' psychiatric hospital for people who are extremely severe to the point they can't talk or do anything, so much more severe than any of us because we are writing here. There are not homes for people with MI who are mild or moderately disable.

Here we have 4 grupos of disabilty.

from 0 to 32 points you are not considered disable
from 33 to 65 points you are considered midly disable -you can live by your own but need external help, you can work normaly or with few help-. Peopple with asperger syndrome usually are here.
from 66 to 74 points you are considered moderately disable -you can't live by your own all the time, you can't work on normal places, you can only do specific types of work or with a lot of help, like occupational work-. People with classic autism usually are here.
from 75 to 100 points you are considered severly disable, you need someone with you all the time, you can't do any type of work even from home, even with many accomodations. -For example people with cerebral palsy and severe mental retardation or catatonic schizophrenia-.

Most of people with metal illness are between 33 and 65, few between 66 and 74.

I am considered to be moderately disable since I have 68 points and need someone to help me to cook, remember me to bath, etc but I don't have any since I don't have a family. So I may be 10 days without showering, not eating for days, not having clothes, etc. Until this last weeks I have been felling bettter and I shower at least once each two days and I try to eat better even if I still can't. So no, I am not functioning well and it's the main reason why a month ago I was give 68 points on disability. I have to go to a day hospital... one of psychiatrist said my case is special because I was considered deeply gifted as a child, another one considered I could do it without meds. The one I have now wants me to take them but no as a priority. The psycholigist I had a year ago when I was IP wanted to IP in a long term place, but that would have been the end of my life since I have nobody that would support me once I would have been out and the money I am giving for disability is not enough to live, thats why I need college.

I am at college because it was the only way I was given enough money to live. and I have always like studying, even if now my concentration is poor and last year I did really bad. I lived in an abusive family, extremely abusive, my only friends were books. I barely talk to people, I read texts when my concentration allows me. It's not easy to go to lessons, it's to stressfull, I have to take clonazepam to go. Fortunatly even if my concentration is poor for me it's so easy to learn I understand everything even if my mind is there less than hhalf of time.

I was worried about going homeless if I take meds because they worse my concentration and sedate me, so I wouldn't be able to continue college as I wans't able to go to high school when I took them when I was 15. also they didn't help at all and just caused me side effects. I have my first psychosis experience when I was around 9 and I saw a spiders everywhere and tried to remove them away from my body because they were climbing. By then I began to socially isolated and etc.... I was more or less normal, maybe a bit shy and fearful, until I was 9.

You know, when I was 14-15 my negative symptoms were so severe they thought I had high functioning autism undiagnosed, then they saw the affective and possitive part of psychosis and thought I could have bipolar and psychosis....

The fact I don't have the typical paranoid schizophrenia that begins when you are 20 and you believe the FBI is following you doesn't mean I have it easy

where I come from if I didn't take appropriate meds for an illness I had or not regularly attend doctors and mental health services and I had no requirement to be inpatient, the following would typically happen, my pdoc would write in my notes that I was either being non compliant or have no requirement for mental health services or could question if my diagnosis was correct or accurate. Which all would go on my permanent record. The pdoc would then have the power to discharge me from Mental Health Service , back to the care of my doctor. I however am not or never have being classed as disabled in the eyes of the state , I took unemployment benefit as opposed to disability , which has caused me problems down the years, but taking disability has definite ramifications. So I cannot afford to mess around, the state will not help me.

[OliverB]

I don't mess around, my psychiatrist don't think its totally necessary I take meds while I don't hurt myself or others, that's his policy.