[Illvoices]

so i just started Computer Programmings and i needed to write something down from the textbook, as i wrote i noticed that my handwriting was getting sloppy and my hands kept writing on its own. i was doodling and i wanted to know if this has happened to anyone before?

[Skeezyks]

Hello Illvoices: No, I have not had this problem. When I was last on antidepressant medication, I developed some jerkiness in my hand & arm movements. If you're on psych med's perhaps they're contributing to the problem you describe. You might want to talk with your doctors about it.

[ray68]

Hmm. . . Kind of. I tend to scribble more out of frustration than anything when my mind stops working. I get racing thoughts so my writing tries to keep up and fails(gets super sloppy and illegible) , haha. But then other times my mind just kind of seizes and I can't think so I take it out on the paper. ��

[avlady]

i get to the point when my brain freezes when i'm too tired. also i played piano for years and my handwriting changed from it.

[neodoering]

Originally Posted by Illvoices

so i just started Computer Programmings and i needed to write something down from the textbook, as i wrote i noticed that my handwriting was getting sloppy and my hands kept writing on its own. i was doodling and i wanted to know if this has happened to anyone before?

Well, Illvoices, I used to keep a sort of journal (on paper) when I was untreated and really raving, and I went back a few years later and read it over. The entries were utterly mad. Discussion of real rainstorms while I was living on a mountaintop in a tent, then straight on into how cars were passing me messages that my parents were plotting against me, then a discussion of how much a can of soup cost, and an entry about how the voices were trying to convince me to run out on the freeway and kill myself... The effect was so creepy and so horrible that I burned the journal. Now of course I wish I hadn't, because I could include some of that material in the memoir I'm writing.

So in that way my writing used to be hijacked by mental illness and especially psychosis. It was the same when I wrote emails to my family and friends. Delusions, hallucination, and paranoia all worked their way into what I wrote.

Doodling doesn't seem too bad, so far as symptoms go. Ugly stuff, or just random flowers and little fuzzy animals?