[hobo2000]

I am in treatment and I am seeing specialists for drugs and counseling.

I'm not that sick but I still can't get along with my family, meaning if I make one wrong move I'm going to get kicked out and be homeless.

I'm freaking out because I feel out of control of my body, my mind and my relationships with others.

They devalue me because of my looks and weight and anything I do is never good enough- no one cares about me anymore.

I keep hearing these voices saying that they are hurting me and they're going to kill me because they all think I'm bad.

They're going to kill me because they think I'm bad because my parents signed me up to be psychologically experimented on.

I feel like everyone is against me and they're conspiring against me and are trying to break me permanently and they're going to kill me and take my brain when I'm dead.

Everyone is talking about me and everyone knows who I am without saying it because they know what they're doing is wrong.

They hate me instead of what has happened to me and they're trying to turn me into something I'm not.

I can't cope with this anymore, it's too much for one person to handle and I'm afraid.

[Sometimes psychotic]

What medicines are you taking?

Have you tried distraction......for me singing works it requires a lot of verbal concentration on my part but something else may work for you like just listening to music....often the input blocks the output.....