The voices tell me I am being murdered, they want me to be sick and if I don't listen to them than they are going to kill me.
I have conversations with the voices I hear. Sometimes they are me talking to myself and other times I am talking to others. They always lead me to conclusions and realizations. Sometimes I am insulted, other times they are telling me things and I believe them or else I have to kill myself.
I am being watched or monitored because they think I'm a bad person and they hurt me to try to make me angry to "bring me out". They hurt me every day, everywhere I go by poisoning me in my sleep, when I'm in the bathroom, while I'm driving or even when I'm out running errands or just going for a walk around my neighborhood. They make it hard to think clearly and do things, and make my body ache, bloat and bleed all over.
It's hard to fully experience my emotions, I feel so numb all the time now and I don't know how I feel half the time, all I feel is sick. I am confused but in so much pain all over and fear something that I can't see but I know is there. I have to listen to the voices or else suffer until I die. I can't think clearly anymore and I am so sick I am in constant despair.
|