[Desoxyn]

I'm in the psychiatric hospital in a unit for independent living. First I was in acute psychiatric care, then another acute psychiatric care unit, then a concurrent disorder rehab unit and then here over a period of 2-3 years. I was in the hospital before that and in between these 4 hospital admissions. I'm on a stable blood concentration of Abilify now which seems to be the only antipsychotic that I can tolerate without being so tired.

I have a few goals not much I'm 20 so idk what goals I should have and if that's normal for someone my age including..

Going to school again, being able to work again, cooking, paying bills, living independently, having my family witness a change.

I'm going to upgrade my high school courses in my free time here and they are going to give me a Concerta at noon to stay up focused longer (Stimulants don't give me symptoms except too much caffeine).

I worked most of my teenage years sometimes 16 hours a day while going to school very motivated and showering twice a day but only slept a few hours a night for a year and managed to buy myself an apartment instead of blowing all my money impulsively.

I'm just wondering if anyone can maybe give some insight to some goals which would really help because I'm confused.

My dream is to travel the world when I'm older =]

[Luglug]

That fact that you are thinking about it at all is a great start. I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life at 20. About that time is when I started picking up the pieces and getting things in order. Going to school is a good idea. Now you just need to pick what career you want to pursue and see if you can tailor your schooling to help place you in that type of work.

Figuring out what you want to do was the hard part for me. It's not really as easy as, "do what you love". For me it was also important to select a career that I thought would be stable and decently paying. Good luck.

[Loial]

Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Going to school again, being able to work again, cooking, paying bills, living independently, having my family witness a change.

All those seem like great goals to me. I think sometimes it can be easy to get caught up in the notion of having big life goals.

I personally don't really have many goals anymore. I think I used to, back when there seemed endless possibilities but our illnesses and meds change things for sure.

These days I tend to be more hedonistic. I blame too many years using drugs among other things.

I'd say I'm similar in that my goal is just to achieve some level of normality now. My biggest of which is to be completely independent and working.

Just keep moving forwards man.

I believe thinking about your goals is a great goal! We all start somewhere. I took community college until something crystalized for me and I decided to go to the university then once I had an aim. I saved a lot of money that way. I think another good goal is to follow your prescrpitions to a tee. Controlled substances can't be abused. You need concerta and if you abuse it then how are you going to live without it? You know all of this though. I'm surprised you didn't say anything about a special someone in there. I understand though. Sometimes we just need "me" time, espcially in the hosptial.

[Desoxyn]

Idk when I'm off Abilify, I seem to have stronger connections and feelings towards people. I feel like I had too much emotions and I kinda want that back. But that means having symptoms.

Thanks for input all ^^