[scar12346]

I cannot sleep.. Everytime I try I just imagine the million upon million things I might hear.. it's that irrational fear of the dark that gets me.. I just remember the elephant in the room, the little boy, the beggar men under the bed, It, the twins.. just every single delusion that has ever made a noise.. And I know one of them will make a noise and I am terrified to confirm the fact that I am not well.. I know they can't hurt me, I've heard that a lot of times, but I hate hearing them.. what do I do.. it's 1.20 AM, I am dead tired and all I want is to just fall asleep..this is really taking a hit on me.. I just want to sleep in silence and peace..

I'm not sure if you are saying that you are actually hearing these things, or if you are just worried that you might hear these things. Either way, have you thought about trying relaxing/your favourite music through headphones whilst you try to fall asleep? When things are very noisy, that is the only thing that helps me.

I hope you find a way to fall asleep soon.

*Willow*

[Biteplate]

Are you on medication? An antipsychotic might help you calm down and get rid of hallucinations.

[scar12346]

Originally Posted by Biteplate

Are you on medication? An antipsychotic might help you calm down and get rid of hallucinations.

There cannot be antipsychotic prescribed to someone under 18 in here..

Originally Posted by scar12346

There cannot be antipsychotic prescribed to someone under 18 in here..

Medication is only one type of coping mechanism, there are many others so don't worry. What do you currently find helpful? Maybe we can all help you come up with a list of other strategies if you would find that useful?

All the best,

*Willow*

[scar12346]

Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23

Medication is only one type of coping mechanism, there are many others so don't worry. What do you currently find helpful? Maybe we can all help you come up with a list of other strategies if you would find that useful?

All the best,

*Willow*

Well right now I am doing the ostrich technique, If I don't see them, they don't. Not that it's working with the twins because I can feel them staring, but the others started making more and more noise. I don't mind that much the beggar man because if I knock on my bed he would shut up. With the twins, I've learnt that fire scares them the most, but I cannot keep a candle on the whole night, it's not really safe in case It decides to come. I usually double lock my door to keep the little boy outside but he tends to sit at the door and whisper, and knock.. sometime scream, I haven't figured a way to keep him silent, It kinda helps with keeping him outside though. The elephant in the room is probably the most scary because with the others you can kind of get used to it, but the elephant just trumpets out of the nowhere right before I fall asleep and it's really an adrenaline rush, because it is so loud. I've tried with headphones, but the elephant seems to be a noise in my head and not like the others, outside my head.
I find it okay if I hear the beggar man or the twins now and then but when it's completely silent is terrifying. I've tried keeping the window open for outside noise but then the lizard and rat come in and the granny might crawl in as well. Most of the nights I tend to fall sleep while watching youtube, but when I wake up it feels like I haven't slept at all. I've tried with a rain noise app but I tend to imagine, or hear, whispers in the drops.. The only way to keep the little boy silent, because lets face it hearing whispers about a child being stabbed to death is horrible and disturbing, is to let it in.. but he has a tendency to strangle me.
For now I try to get most of my sleep during the day, because I know that Mr Nightmare and Mr Midnight don't hurt as much when I am asleep, and the others are simply gone.

Wow, that sounds like a lot to cope with

Is it worse when you are stressed and upset? I'm just wondering if distraction and relaxation techniques would help you not get so scared about it all, which then might make them quieter?? I find my music just doesn't help to drown them out a bit, but also helps me to remain calm.

I'm also wondering if anyone would prescribe something to help you sleep through it all? Short term drugs like zopiclone and zolpidem aren't really recommended for use longer than 2 weeks as they cause tolerance and dependence and rebound insomnia when you stop them. But some other drugs can help you sleep and are fine long term eg the antidepressants amitriptyline, lofepramine or trazadone. They all can help sleep at much lower doses than would be used for depression eg I took 10-30mg amitriptyline for sleep and the lowest dose for depression is 100mg. Perhaps your Drs might be willing to prescribe something like that if not an antipsychotic??

All the best,

*Willow*

[scar12346]

Originally Posted by WeepingWillow23

Wow, that sounds like a lot to cope with

Is it worse when you are stressed and upset? I'm just wondering if distraction and relaxation techniques would help you not get so scared about it all, which then might make them quieter?? I find my music just doesn't help to drown them out a bit, but also helps me to remain calm.

I'm also wondering if anyone would prescribe something to help you sleep through it all? Short term drugs like zopiclone and zolpidem aren't really recommended for use longer than 2 weeks as they cause tolerance and dependence and rebound insomnia when you stop them. But some other drugs can help you sleep and are fine long term eg the antidepressants amitriptyline, lofepramine or trazadone. They all can help sleep at much lower doses than would be used for depression eg I took 10-30mg amitriptyline for sleep and the lowest dose for depression is 100mg. Perhaps your Drs might be willing to prescribe something like that if not an antipsychotic??

All the best,

*Willow*

I have been through a lot of medicine, but I just get used to them in a matter of days and they stop working, I have noticed that 20mg of melatonin works pretty well, if I am not too bad.
Because my psychosis is mostly part of my Bipolar disorder and it comes in variation through either my mania or depression it is different each time. One night it will be complete silence, the other will be full on chaos, so it really depends. Stress does not affect it at all.I could've gone through the most amazing day ever and the night would still be hell, and the opposite, I might've had a horrible day and I would just fall asleep like a baby because the night is peaceful. I have tried taking anti-anxiety meds before I sleep and that helped to a point as well.

[ofthevalley]

Wow. to you.
Are you seeking any help right now? A therapist or a Pdoc? It sounds like a good therapist and maybe some antipsychotics can help. It sounds exhausting.
That feeling of missing the voices goes away in a lot of cases.

[ofthevalley]

Maybe a good mood stabilizer.