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I don’t know any suggestions would help
Do you think this is really schizophrenic or spirit What should I do Who can I seek for help Please hurry B life could be at stake -------------------------------- Hello all My name is Joey Let’s get to know who I am then my beautiful girlfriend B who I’ve nicknamed B for beautiful. He is my story try to stick with me, this is not a feel sorry for me story at all I need help and guidance from people who have experienced something close. I’m 38 years on earth, kinda a low or down feeling kinda guy, don’t like to express feeling or maybe don’t know how, I’ve been married have 2 kids divorced and now madly in love with B. Upon the birth of my first child, I contacted my mother (she had a broken back and scoliosis of the spine do to stepping in a hole when I was a child, all of my life she was on pain medicine and almost bed ridden) to let her know she was a grandma, which made her life from then on much more happier then it was before,
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My wife and I at the time were both alcoholics And her death fuel that fire more. One of my so called friends was release from prison and show up at my house, he was a drug dealer and let’s just say my sexdrive is nonexistent, which in turn I decided to start using crystal meth to up the sex drive, I was working late hours and I do believe he was having sex with my wife.
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The wife and I used it for months until I believe she was a borderline schizophrenic She would hear voices and hallucinations from sleep deprivation but didn’t realize it was not reality and believed I was having sex with these so called voices which where men voices so she believed I was gay, months past and us being separated she tried to kill her self and the hospital saved her life and she was admitted into a larned facility or half way house. She was released to her parents and I was back to doing meth, that’s where B comes in. the wife and I divorced B and I started talking and B left her fiancé who they had a child as well, all in this 2 week span right before Christmas of 2016, B was getting her stuff packed to come live with me, the ex wife started being abusive toward our kids state people got involved and the kids were taken from us put into foster care for a day and my brother took on the role until I could prove to the dcf that I was a fit parent. B moved in a week after the kids where taken from my home she is a very brave women, she and I fought dcf for a year she is probably the only reason I’m alive to this day. As of the last 4 years of being with B it seems history has repeated it self! Alcohol moved in quickly and verbal argument were daily at the last of the for years in October She wanted me to change into a better person who could express dealing and just be nice. I wasn’t having it and told her to **** off, I’m a complete idiot, we would talk most every night but she had moved out and lives 20 minutes away from where I do, upon Christmas she sleeps with another man keeps it a secret and at that time I ordered bathsalt again, B isn’t really a down kinda person she’s more uppiddy and happy about life, well more than I am, being on bathsalt I had already ordered presents for her and her daughter but come Christmas I could get my self to leave the house do to bathsalt consumptions. About Jan 5 or so I went to B’s house with the present had a late Christmas but it was fun, I started getting meth and every weekend go over to B’s and have a night of wonderful sex. So I introduced her to bathsalt and it’s was the best high she has had. Three months of it then meth became easier to get but kinda was taking a toll on B, where it consumed her life and we were fighting over and over. Opon the last purchase of meth I got an ounce, gave B some and it went down hill fast This was last month June of 2019 using everyday for 3 months now and she starts to become paranoid about me doing not things of reality Like poisoning her through the ac units Um thinking I am streaming our lives on the internet for sexually sites Um so many things I can not list them all But none of them true I have fallen madly in love with her to the point of not knowing how to handle it. She is hearing voices and they are very rude to her and she thinks it’s me doing it, she believes I’ve implanted some kinda amplifier or something of the such into her ear canal I haven’t A week before July 4 th she calls the police to have them arrest these voices for harassment They police ask if drugs are involved and she says yes but that’s not it. 2 days after I’m at her house reading her the definition of psychosis from Wikipedia and she isn’t having it, somehow right the. The cop shows up and she wants me out of there the cop questions me and tells me to get my **** together and leave. The next day she contacts me from a psychiatric hospital asking me what is going on, she was so afraid and I had no idea it had happened. Dcf put her daughter in placement of her parents. B wanted me to see her that day in the hospital so after work I drove 2 hours to visit her for an hour and a half. She was so happy to see me we went into her room and sat on Her bed hugging and kissing for 30 minutes she became arroused and we fooled around a little as much as we could the next day she was release to her father and was told she was a paranoid schizophrenic. July 4 I saw her for an hour but she searched me before I could come in her house and asked me a lot of questions which I passed and she cold feel safe with me. Some how her meds got screwed up and she wasn’t able to get them until the day after July 4 Back to her trusting me in her house on the 4 th she went to the bathroom and was screaming at the voices I ask if she was ok and she said she had something to tell me but I would want to kill my self once she did. I asked her once she came out what it was she wanted to tell me and she said I know it’s not you but someone has wired the house with camera and voice recorder s and the put the camera in the toilet to watch her well you know And it was streaming it to some bar so they could watch. We looked for camera but nothing she said their hidden well but she can hear them. I kinda pissed her off by saying that I didn’t think there was such a thing going and she asked me to leave. She won’t answer my calls Says I’m harassing her daily and thinks I’m over at her house most nights messing with her like knocking on windows and of the such We are both clean of drugs as of now, today, But she says she hates me for everything that has happened to her she thinks I got her daughter pulled from her Let’s go back a month, her house kinda has a smell of sewer gas, very present on humid nights and it’s rained a lot here, she thought it was the smell of natural gas piped to her water heater and thought it was leaking or I was purposely leaking it to blow the house up, I work at a place with confined spaces and work has hand held gas detection monitors I took one over and ran it through her house with no signal of gas, a couple days later she thought she was going to die that night and wanted to take me to heaven with her so I came over and around 3 or so in the morning she kept hearing sounds from the attic, which the voices told her there was a meth lab up there. I said let’s go see I’m not afraid of anything and was ready to stop all this The only way to get up into the attic was a small cut out square door way about 4 feet from the floor in the bathroom Which had a deadbolt on it. Ok stay with me here... I know I was probably 2 or 3 nights up on meth but was kinda used to it I put my hand on the deadbolt fixed to open it and kinda felt odd, I open the door and she ran Out so I went after her and we went back in to the bathroom with the attic door open the only light was from my cellphone but the bathroom light was on. I step up putting my head into the doorway and all the sudden felt this weird overwhelming rushes of fear which made my vision flash black ness to I think my heart beat It almost knocked me to my knees I’m 6 ft 2 220 pounds I looked back at her and she says what was it and I didn’t know what to say to her She really wanted to get out of there fast but I insisted on looking up there there was a light switch there on the wall I turned it on and it was to the attic and peeked my head in there again and looked upto a nice wooden stair case and all the sudden I saw the vent pipe of the sewer was cut off and vented into the attic I could smell methane bad then the overwhelming rushes of fear started hitting me over and over to where I almost threw up I was shaking badly and my eyelids would not stop blinking I rushed to shut that door and bolt it back locked. As I am typing this on my phone the hairs on my neck are standing out It’s almost midnight and I haven’t talked to B today, I’ve called but no answer I went to a friends today and his wife is kinda a um spirit ghost ahh person, I’m not so much She sent me a link about schizophrenic paranormal I would share the link but not right now I want who ever reads my life story to think it’s legit cause it is And not think I’m pushing a site Depression has overwhelmingly put me in a bad place of mind It s very hard for me to keep it together right now. I guess I’m not sure what I’m asking of this forum but I know I love B very much and everyday I get pushed further and further away from her cause she is so much believeing that I am the cause of everything, If anyone would like to say anything to me please do I need need all the advice I can get. Thanks I’m goi g to call B now goodnight. Last edited by CANDC; Jul 09, 2019 at 05:42 PM.. Reason: Adding trigger icons |
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Hello Joey: Thank you for bringing your concern here to PC. I noticed this is your first post. So... welcome to Psych Central.
I'm sorry I don't think I would know what to tell you about all of this. It sounds very complicated. Perhaps there will be other members, here on PC, who will have some suggestions they can offer. What occurs to me is simply that you can't control what another person does or change them. I know you wrote you love B very much. But no matter how much you may love her, you can't make her do what she needs to do to heal. She has to do that for herself. Here are links to 5 articles, from Psych Central's archives, that (hopefully) may be of some help in putting this situation into perspective: You Can Only Change Yourself Stop Trying to Change People Who Don't Want to Change | Happily Imperfect How to Persuade Your Loved One to Seek Professional Help How to Help Someone with Mental Illness Who Does Not Want Help | What is TMS? How To Help The Addict Who Doesn't Want Help I hope you find PC to be of benefit. __________________ "I may be older but I am not wise / I'm still a child's grown-up disguise / and I never can tell you what you want to know / You will find out as you go." (from: "A Nightengale's Lullaby" - Julie Last) |
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My advice is to don't do illegal drugs or bath salts or hang out with people that do. All those drugs are really just a form of psychosis and may very well take you down that rabbit hole, especially if one is predisposed to schizophrenia or psychosis. People need good healthy sleep where they can have dreams in order to stay mentally healthy.
It sounds like you need to fix that sewer pipe vent in B's attic. Share that paranormal link with me. I aint afraid of no ghost. |
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I agree with Shoe.
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Have you both tried to kick the drugs? Meth and Bath Salts are really heavy mind altering drugs, I can't imagine being on both at the same time.
I'd recommend you each try entering detox first. Separately. Then finding a support group where you can both go together and try working this out. Joey, God forbid you and B don't work but drugs seem to be the root of both your relationship issue's. If you really Love B, you have to decide what you love more. Drugs or B's Love. Love is way better in the long run. Drugs only ever end in bad situations. Good luck with your journey. Good luck hope it works itself out between B and yourself. |
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