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Please don't be put off by what I'm going to write. I'm not a psychologist, but someone with the diagnosis. It starts to make sense eventually and in the end, you realize to yourself "Yes, I know that but I didn't realize it that way" - or, you could relate completely and see that it's pretty easy. Or completely not. That's what I'm trying to achieve here. Not for the people that relate fully, but the ones that don't. So don't try to read too fast you could miss some things. But overall, it's just something to think about in how maybe I would get reactions that I already know to confirm the proof (That's the only thing that I need in psychosis, is for reassurance which most of the time doesn't even work). But I would prefer that you hesitate because I'm comfortable right now in time. Maybe because I took some Zyprexa so it wasn't too much.

So, is it bad that I believe in being psychic? A psychic person wouldn't post this but someone that is psychic in this field of thought can.

I don’t believe in one God or any gods at all. I can be a pantheist if I did believe in god in relation to my thoughts, which believes that everything can be god based on the energy concentrated and difference in energy in space (In a way) in relation to other people that are pantheistic.

That goes for both ways of connection of thought but idk if anyone is tuned to the same radio oh well.. But anyways, the only way for me to have psychosis again is when I am causing bad behaviour or accusing people of things that are "crazy”.

Otherwise I say to the psychologist, it's too late for me. You can't make the schizophrenia any better except with heavy antipsychotics that aren't really even worth it even though psychosis can get worse. (Even though it can with time and an opposite reaction due to what I've said many times before, the paradox). Maybe that outweighs it but not for me and many other people. And it's not even a bad thing as long as I'm not paranoid much etc. It's suffering from being mediated, or suffering from being too psychotic.

I can only use the magic if it makes sense in this reality. At least 50%.

You can’t be in control if you’re out of control. But at the same time not having control can't get me where I need to be in thinking about what I want to do in life.

And that's why the government is trying to control that with medication and banning recreational drugs (Especially psychedelics - But other drugs because of society mainly due to drug overdoses and other living conditions, financial problems, side effects, etc) because of society, fueled by the government, fueled by society, etc to infinity which doesn't exist. Therefore, anything can not exist. - Do you feel my thought pattern now? I shouldn’t say that here or it would be bad so just take it lightly. It’s probably not true in your reality. - *Cools down*..

Ok, so,..

There is specific things in environmental factors, including genetic factor that potentiate the development of psychosis.

One environmental factor is finding proof for any rejection of coincidence. If anyone found enough proof, he/she would go crazy.

That I realize after writing the last paragraph is why the definition of being "insane" is doing something over and over again, expecting a different result. And sure, antipsychotics generally work. But because of what I'm saying, that's why drugs work for only some people and some recreational drugs give people psychosis and some people don't get it. -*Cools down again*..

Thanks for reading.