[den88er]

I feel very uncomfortable because I think my wife and her adult son is planning to do something big against me. I tried telling myself that it is a part of my illness but then I feel it is 100% real and it makes me want to run. I don't want to be a sitting duck. Doesn't have to always be paranoia. It can be for real.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by den88er

I feel very uncomfortable because I think my wife and her adult son is planning to do something big against me. I tried telling myself that it is a part of my illness but then I feel it is 100% real and it makes me want to run. I don't want to be a sitting duck. Doesn't have to always be paranoia. It can be for real.

Your wife and son would be the last ones to want to hurt you...

It wouldn't be a delusion if you didn't believe. Also, to note, you have insight of your illness and battle with this belief. I know you believe this, but what if you're wrong and it is just a delusion? Think about it, what if it's just your mind turning itself against you?

I think it may be time to see a pdoc soon, maybe there's an AP that works better for you.

It's impossible for us to know whether this is really happening, or paranoia. You could try asking somebody who actually knows you, your wife and her son IRL, but they might not be sure either.

Sometimes it's hard to know with these things, and then it comes down to which reality do you prefer? Is it better to tell yourself that it's paranoia, but then you risk being "a sitting duck" as you say, or would you rather pursue this and risk ruining your relationship with both of them over what may be symptoms of an illness?? It's a tough one and I wish you all the best

*Willow*

[cincidak]

I have dealt with paranoia before on many occasions. It always feels justifiable. Talk to your family that you trust and get their opinion, and tell your pdoc your concerns.