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newtus · Jul 27, 2018 at 10:29 AM

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The only way this will change will be with new laws....Start a movement or join one, put it on your blog etc.

No. Its not that big of a deal to me to change it. Maybe im not expressing myself right, but my goal is to not be on disability forever. Only while im trying to get on my feet...

newtus · Jul 27, 2018 at 10:33 AM

Im not mad at you. Maybe my parents. Or maybe im just too blind to know how sick i am.

newtus · Jul 27, 2018 at 10:37 AM

I just choked on my vape real bad

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 27, 2018 at 10:39 AM

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No. Its not that big of a deal to me to change it. Maybe im not expressing myself right, but my goal is to not be on disability forever. Only while im trying to get on my feet...

Here is the thing....in Texas if you work at the minimum wage for full time your take home pay after taxes comes out to $1000 a month...it is literally $1016 a month for 40 hours a week for 4 weeks in a month. From what I recall you already make that much. Why trade working for getting the check? I can see supplementing the check but if you work full time long enough or get married you’ll lose it outright and only be making what you were getting with the check in the first place. I guess I’m not understanding the logic of your goals without some sort of school? I know I push school because it’s what worked for me but there may be other options.

newtus · Jul 27, 2018 at 10:42 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Here is the thing....in Texas if you work at the minimum wage for full time your take home pay after taxes comes out to $1000 a month...it is literally $1016 a month for 40 hours a week for 4 weeks in a month. From what I recall you already make that much. Why trade working for getting the check? I can see supplementing the check but if you work full time long enough or get married you’ll lose it outright and only be making what you were getting with the check in the first place. I guess I’m not understanding the logic of your goals without some sort of school? I know I push school because it’s what worked for me but there may be other options.

Yea i get that. Kinda knew that already, as the bf gets that much i think. Little over 1000.

I wanna be normal and live a normal life

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 27, 2018 at 10:50 AM

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Yea i get that. Kinda knew that already, as the bf gets that much i think. Little over 1000.

I wanna be normal and live a normal life

So far my bipolar is making me slow and having issues reading or doing anything at the speed of a normal person....I suspect I won’t be able to keep the job I started yesterday I’m not fast enough. The fact that I’m working doesn’t make me normal....I’m at a disadvantage and trying to survive in an increasingly competitive world. Why not wait until you’ve worked full time to decide if you can make it? I mean I woke up like 3 times last night worried about work...it plays with my mind. I just don’t want you to face the same struggle and then realize you can’t go back....

newtus · Jul 27, 2018 at 10:56 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

So far my bipolar is making me slow and having issues reading or doing anything at the speed of a normal person....I suspect I won’t be able to keep the job I started yesterday I’m not fast enough. The fact that I’m working doesn’t make me normal....I’m at a disadvantage and trying to survive in an increasingly competitive world. Why not wait until you’ve worked full time to decide if you can make it? I mean I woke up like 3 times last night worried about work...it plays with my mind. I just don’t want you to face the same struggle and then realize you can’t go back....

I get it.

I didnt fully think of it like that. That last sentence. I was planning on working part time anyway and still getting my check. If i could.

But like school, i cant afford that on this budget. The bf does say if i lose my disability maybe i shouldnt work. But I literally cant live on 12k a year. Personally, i DONT even really want to work. I just need money. Yea working brings in friends BUT i need the money more than anything if i plan to move out etc.

With that said, how am i supposed to make income without getting reviewed or at least it taken away?

What you just said to me is what had my mind going in circles over working vs not working for 2 years.

cogladaid · Jul 27, 2018 at 11:00 AM

Found out my sis is finally getting a rec to a shrink for depression. She’s very pro science but anti-anti-depressants for herself. She tried a couple and gave up on all meds except her ADHD meds. Maybe finally someone can get through to her and get her on some meds for her other sht.

newtus · Jul 27, 2018 at 11:08 AM

Ok sp.

I looked it up.

So i read a little about a marriage for commitment purposes/lowkey.

cogladaid · Jul 27, 2018 at 11:11 AM

I’m not as hyper now. Racing thoughts have subsided. I don’t think I’m god or anything so there’s that.

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 27, 2018 at 11:15 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I get it.

I didnt fully think of it like that. That last sentence. I was planning on working part time anyway and still getting my check. If i could.

But like school, i cant afford that on this budget. The bf does say if i lose my disability maybe i shouldnt work. But I literally cant live on 12k a year. Personally, i DONT even really want to work. I just need money. Yea working brings in friends BUT i need the money more than anything if i plan to move out etc.

With that said, how am i supposed to make income without getting reviewed or at least it taken away?

What you just said to me is what had my mind going in circles over working vs not working for 2 years.

My understanding is you can keep the check as long as you don’t work too many hours or get too much pay....I think jdna is the expert at this....

It’s more like supplemental part time stuff. You still get the benefits of work without being totally reliant on it.

newtus · Jul 27, 2018 at 11:18 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

My understanding is you can keep the check as long as you don’t work too many hours or get too much pay....I think jdna is the expert at this....

It’s more like supplemental part time stuff. You still get the benefits of work without being totally reliant on it.

Yes. My job counselor explained it to me as well.

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 27, 2018 at 11:18 AM

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Originally Posted by cogladaid

Found out my sis is finally getting a rec to a shrink for depression. She’s very pro science but anti-anti-depressants for herself. She tried a couple and gave up on all meds except her ADHD meds. Maybe finally someone can get through to her and get her on some meds for her other sht.

I swear all of the females in my family have some sort of mental health thing...I hate the genetics aspect of this garbage. As far as meds I know you know the struggle all too well....

newtus · Jul 27, 2018 at 11:26 AM

Ive had 4 cups of coffee and want more.

But ive had enough

cogladaid · Jul 27, 2018 at 11:36 AM

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I swear all of the females in my family have some sort of mental health thing...I hate the genetics aspect of this garbage. As far as meds I know you know the struggle all too well....

Yeah it just annoys me how she tried like three SSRIs and gave up on medication all together just mopes and complains instead just using her depression as a get out of jail free card.

I know the struggle with meds but I haven’t given up.

newtus · Jul 27, 2018 at 11:36 AM

I feel depressed

cogladaid · Jul 27, 2018 at 11:37 AM

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Ive had 4 cups of coffee and want more.

But ive had enough

I had one cup of coffee this morning and am trying to last just on that and a matcha iced latte. I’m dying.

newtus · Jul 27, 2018 at 11:41 AM

I havent left the house in over a week. I think ive been pretty depressed but am hiding it kinda well.

I honestly dont feel supported by my family much and my friends dont have time for me. Literally the only person that seems to is the bf.

What am i doing wrong?

Just so much on my mind about my future...so so much.

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 27, 2018 at 11:50 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I havent left the house in over a week. I think ive been pretty depressed but am hiding it kinda well.

I honestly dont feel supported by my family much and my friends dont have time for me. Literally the only person that seems to is the bf.

What am i doing wrong?

Just so much on my mind about my future...so so much.

Even my best friend I spend like 2-3 hrs max 1 a week, typically more like 1 a month with...people just don’t have time. I don’t think you’re doing anything wrong. I think in modern society it’s much more common to rely on a bf/gf for most of your social Interaction.

newtus · Jul 27, 2018 at 11:55 AM

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Even my best friend I spend like 2-3 hrs max 1 a week, typically more like 1 a month with...people just don’t have time. I don’t think you’re doing anything wrong. I think in modern society it’s much more common to rely on a bf/gf for most of your social Interaction.

I guess.

I need passive income bad

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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jul 27, 2018 at 10:33 AM #102 Im not mad at you. Maybe my parents. Or maybe im just too blind to know how sick i am. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jul 27, 2018 at 10:37 AM #103 I just choked on my vape real bad __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Jul 27, 2018 at 11:00 AM #108 Found out my sis is finally getting a rec to a shrink for depression. She’s very pro science but anti-anti-depressants for herself. She tried a couple and gave up on all meds except her ADHD meds. Maybe finally someone can get through to her and get her on some meds for her other sht.

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jul 27, 2018 at 11:08 AM #109 Ok sp. I looked it up. So i read a little about a marriage for commitment purposes/lowkey. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Jul 27, 2018 at 11:11 AM #110 I’m not as hyper now. Racing thoughts have subsided. I don’t think I’m god or anything so there’s that.

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jul 27, 2018 at 11:26 AM #114 Ive had 4 cups of coffee and want more. But ive had enough __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jul 27, 2018 at 11:36 AM #116 I feel depressed __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII