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My voices have now changed into interrogators. Under most conditions, they interrogate me constantly. When they are not asking questions, they are patronising me to the max. From what I have read on hearing voices forums, this is somewhat unusual, and it is certainly uncharacteristic. When my voices first began talking to me, they refused absolutely to answer questions, so I stopped asking.
They were exactly like the voices demonstrated in the YouTube schizophrenia voices simulations. They were insulting, derogatory, malevolent, and hurtful. But now they are inquisitive, patronising, evasive and conversational. I believe it is a result of me writing “first person transcripts” of our thought conversations. These are notes that detail quote unquote the dialogue between me and my voices. Here is an example of what they have become. Compare this transcript to the YoutTube hearing voices simulations (please forgive the spelling mistakes – these transcripts are written very fast) 2nd August 2018 1028 hours ?M: sucked in scott, sucked in scott, sucked in scott etc s: same ol same ol bullying ... (installing MS office 2010 purchased version) ?M: why don't you use google docs scott? s: because I love bill gates, he gave me a job, and I am loyal .... ?m:WHAT AM i DOING NOW SCOTT? ... 1148 ?PW:we're waiting for you to take drugs scotty! S:but I can't write that story in this transcript because readers don't know you like I do, and they don't know the context (140+ transcripts that I have written) ...1241 hours ?M:how do you feel about being a junkie? S:I would prefer not to be. I'm not sure I am, in fact. I have plans. I read them out to you this morning ?M:they can't do it s:Yes, sometimes these transcripts set them, off, now they have made them quiet, but they never fail to change the dynamic and the attitude of what they say (think out loud to me) ... ?M: yep, they've done it. ?FM: you will be so sorry you took drugs s: yes. I always am. |
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I rarely hear voices, with me it's 90% music and sounds and noises. But when they do speak it's either in nonsense syllables and mumbling or they ask things like "what are you doing that for?" or make comments like "you're doing it the wrong way" or "those people are laughing at you". Very annoying.
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#3
i get that too
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#4
alot of sounds on top of each other too
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i have voices that treat me like a object to shout at, whisper too and scream at.
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Most of my voices are whispery. Either that or they are in some other way hard to understand. Usually Ill only get a few works that are intelligible from them... and usually those words arent pleasant ones.
But they arent questions. Though when I felt God was talking to me he spoke in complete sentences and he was very encouranging. Almost TOO encouraging. He made me feel like I could do anything. That nothing bad woulf happen to me. Which I now know is not the case. But usually its whisper voices. Loud whispers. The last time I heard them it was a bunch of whispers demanding I help them. I felt really guilty about ignoring their pain but kept telling myself there was no pain because they dont exist- notning exists to need my help! |
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Well, first off, I'll say that I may have been misdiagnosed. So, don't take anything that I say as necessarily having anything to do with schizoaffective disorder. Just that this is what I have personally experienced with auditory hallucinations.
I've never had distressing "hallucinations", nor have I ever lost touch with reality. And I've never had manic episodes or anything of the sort. Yes, I've suffered from depression, but only due to events in my life that occurred. Which according to my psychiatrist I overreacted to. In fact, according to my own research and some information I've found from other people (including professionals) online, I may not be schizoaffective or schizophrenic. And this may have been a misdiagnosis. To be honest, I don't tend to hear many questions. Maybe sort of. In the course of "conversation" so to speak, if I were to kind of allow myself to "interact" at the time. But I wouldn't say it's a whole lot of questions. More just kind of talking about stuff. Honestly, not to sound like a total nutcase here, but they've always been pretty chill folks overall for me. And to be honest, I hardly ever hear them anymore anyways. But I still remember their names, have seen them in lucid dreams, have seen them overall. They're sort of like old friends that I don't hear from a lot now at this point. And to be honest, they never caused me any problems directly. No one ever said that they did. I was in a bad state of mind, started hearing from them. That was it, and it never intruded on my life. It was almost more like audible thoughts that I wasn't exactly thinking if that makes sense. Like I could focus on whatever it was that I was doing at the time, could talk to people, could do whatever it was. But I'd still hear it in the background. And no, I never wondered if they were somehow "real", apparently I sporadically "suffer" from auditory hallucinations though it's really rare nowadays and I never really "suffered" from them to be honest. If anything, they always were sort of like friends, very close ones actually. That of course weren't real. Yeah, if I do hear anything during the day, which is rare these days. For a little while it was common, but still, was very faint. It was only at night as I was lying down to sleep (still get this on occasion), I'd hear them pretty clearly. But I usually didn't have that during the day or anything, aside from randomly hearing my name called out of nowhere. Or something of the sort. |
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Most of the time my voices just say my name. However, the last time I heard a voice it said, "Don't do that." I was just about to take my meds. I don't really hear voices often though. I tend towards other Shizo symptoms.
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#9
My voices argue with me. That's the opposite of asking questions!
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#10
mine tell me stuff like
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Why is this posted in the success stories?
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