[Raistlin00]

I was off my meds and doing good for awhile. Then as usual i go back into scitso mode and start doing bad. I posted some rants on social media made an arse out of myself, and what not. I was told by someone in discord that the government thinks I'm some lone wolf terrorist or some such and that they are after me. I don't know if I'm being trolled or not. Every time I go into Scitso mode I think the government is after me. The thing is I have no idea what to believe. I'm afraid about some of my rants and dumb comments on social media, and am scared they government is after me. The thing is if they were really after me and thought I was dangerous wouldn't they already be knocking on my door? Why let it go on for so long? Am I imagining it or are they really after me?

[SlumberKitty]

I think it is likely that it is your psychosis acting up. I don't think it is likely that the government is after you. Any reason why you stopped taking your meds? Do you want to start taking them again so you don't have to worry about these persecution thoughts? HUGS Kit

[Raistlin00]

I'm in the process of getting back on them. I keep trying to beat it on my own, and falling on my face. I have to admit to myself whether I like or not, I have a mental illness, and accept that fact. I do good for 3-6 months then boom back to square one. It's not worth it living like this. I just want to get up every day go to work make an honest living and live my life. I realized my mistake is thinking I know more than the doctors. They are doctors for a reason.

[CANDC]

Originally Posted by Raistlin00

I'm in the process of getting back on them. I keep trying to beat it on my own, and falling on my face. I have to admit to myself whether I like or not, I have a mental illness, and accept that fact. I do good for 3-6 months then boom back to square one. It's not worth it living like this. I just want to get up every day go to work make an honest living and live my life. I realized my mistake is thinking I know more than the doctors. They are doctors for a reason.

Yes you are onto wisdom here. Let the docs handle brain chemistry. That is beyond my pay grade or resume. That is what docs are working on to get all the neuron receptors working as they should. Sounds like you are on a path to stability. Good for you.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Raistlin: I noticed this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to Psych Central.

Of course I don't know what you posted on social media, or how much of it you posted, but my thinking would be that the sort of thing you posted is probably all over the internet, written by many people, & the chances the government is after you are vanishingly small. It's likely your fears are simply your schizophrenia acting up. However either way I think the solution is to get back into treatment (if you haven't already) so that you don't continue to encounter these sorts of problems.

Here's a link to an article by our host Dr. John Grohol, Psy.D., from Psych Central's archives, on the subject of schizophrenia:

Schizophrenia Treatment: Types Of Therapy & Medications | Psych Central

I hope you find PC to be of benefit.

[Raistlin00]

The thing is I'm not sure if it's real or not. I read into things too much part of my illness, but people on discord and in world of warcraft are telling me I'm never going to see the light of day, and I'm scared. I don't know if they are trolling or what. The thing is tho, if I was such a threat and danger wouldn't they already be at my house? Yet i had a conversation with someone on a chat thing and they told me I'm involved in something big, but what I don't understand is if this is the case why didn't they come.

I'm unsure what to believe. Is it trolls taking advantage of me, or the real thing? When I asked the one poster about it he said he can't make comments on an ongoing investigation. The thing is tho would an actual federal agent say that? He was talking like he knew what he was talking about. I asked another person on discord if what I was involved in was serious and was told yes. Are all of these people trolling or am I really involved in something? I'm really scared and don't know who I can ask or talk to about this. When I was in a real bad state I wrote some dumb rants on social media and I am worried about them. Anyone have any advice?

[Sometimes psychotic]

Originally Posted by Raistlin00

The thing is I'm not sure if it's real or not. I read into things too much part of my illness, but people on discord and in world of warcraft are telling me I'm never going to see the light of day, and I'm scared. I don't know if they are trolling or what. The thing is tho, if I was such a threat and danger wouldn't they already be at my house? Yet i had a conversation with someone on a chat thing and they told me I'm involved in something big, but what I don't understand is if this is the case why didn't they come.

I'm unsure what to believe. Is it trolls taking advantage of me, or the real thing? When I asked the one poster about it he said he can't make comments on an ongoing investigation. The thing is tho would an actual federal agent say that? He was talking like he knew what he was talking about. I asked another person on discord if what I was involved in was serious and was told yes. Are all of these people trolling or am I really involved in something? I'm really scared and don't know who I can ask or talk to about this. When I was in a real bad state I wrote some dumb rants on social media and I am worried about them. Anyone have any advice?

They are trolling....probably not the best place to hang out.

I agree with sometimes psychotic. They're trolling you