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The Dopamine Flux
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#741
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Thanks dt! Ill check out the libraries here. I used to listen to stephen west’s philosophize me (or philosophize now?). That usually helped. I need to check out more podcasts! __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#742
Hmmm...not sure I’ll make it until 9:30 tonight. Hubby and daughter are watching “Truck Night in America” . So there’s not too much going on.
Monday I get this stupid thing off. Thank god. It is giving me a sore on the inside of my thumb because the cotton rubbed away so the thumb is just rubbing on plaster. Now that my hand isn’t swollen it shifts all over. Ugh. Almost over. I need to find something to do. __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
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Philosophy Bites is another great one. |
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#744
I hope I don't get another panic attack tonight. I want to move but I can't see the point of doing anything. My creativity is dead. I'm inspired by nothing.
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The Dopamine Flux
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#746
Bf and i, i think, found a good place to move to after this idk.
Its a two story townhome. 1100 sq ft. For 800. At least thats what it says on the site. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#747
So epically glad this week is over.
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Metaphysic
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#749
I must be depressed. But I can't go on an SSRI because they numb my serotonin.
I told my mom that I didn't want to go back to work because I'd be alone with my thoughts. I don't work with people and I work until late at night answering radio calls. I can't be alone with my thoughts. There needs to be people around me or I feel scared. |
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#750
I could try listening to some podcasts but this invega has my mind really numb from the magic. I can't feel the magic of life. Everything is dull and uninteresting. I just want to sleep. I feel like a zombie. I keep thinking about what the soldiers said. I need something else to replace those thoughts. I want to read but it's like my mind is frozen and stuck on pause. Like the wheel isn't turning in my brain. It's just silent and I don't care but something is screaming inside me and that scream is dying out and I can't hear it anymore.
What happened to me? Where is that spark that you people see sometimes? It's gone.. My brain is frozen and nothing is moving. The neurotransmitters disappeared and it looks like a rusting empty playground. I don't know how long this will last but I feel like just fading into being not able to function just enough to get by. My motivation is dead. I don't have the strength to continue on the path I want to go. Last edited by Desoxyn; Mar 29, 2019 at 09:07 PM.. |
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#751
I can stare at a wall all day and literally think about nothing right now
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Is it possible you can ask your Pdoc for something that isn't so numbing but still works? The only thing worse than a great depression is feeling nothing at all. |
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Metaphysic
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#753
I could try and ask. I just feel so hopeless about it because I feel like I know everything about what I can be prescribed because I've tried all classes of drugs which includes medications, research chemicals and street drugs and it seems like chemicals aren't the answer but something else idk
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#754
Slept about 4 hours. It's 12:30am now, I'm thinking I'll stay up since I'm going to brunch during the day, then maybe try to get some more sleep when I come home
__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#755
I'm so confused right now. I want more energy but I also want to relax. I want to feel emotions but not painful ones. I want people to like me but I want to be unnoticed. I don't want to sleep but I don't want to get out of bed in the morning. I want to change the past but then I wouldn't be me. I want to travel the world but I can't be bothered to explore the new town that I moved to. I want to but I don't have the motivation. Maybe if I start small then I can. Idk. I don't want to party. I don't want to be the life of the party either. I want to read but I feel like I don't have time to do it. I feel like I have no time for anything.
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#756
Hey slept for a couple hours... i'm sorry tweaky you're struggling. how can i be of support?
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#759
i feel like my friends will leave me if i told them what is really going on in my head.
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