Roll Call 145

I don't think anyone hates you I know I definitely don't

My vape is perfect today. I filled with Orange Dream again and my coil is perfect. But it's cold, like 35°f out. I'm so tired in the mornings. Probably will nap soon.

I dont hate you

Ugh i signed up for amazon flex to deliver packages for amazon.

It took them 3-4 days to approve my DL. By then they already had people signed up and now they arent looking for more people at the moment now.

Sucks.

I’m stuck in my head. Last night I kept looking at the mirror because I felt I couldn’t trust it. Like it wasn’t my reflection. My reflection was stolen. And now I feel there are messages in music.

I know it’s not real. It’s not real. But it just gets to me. It’s poking through and it’s distressing.

And I realized I won’t have enough seroquel to last me until my next doctor’s appointment. So no matter what I have to see the doctor sooner than I expected.

Nobody hates you. We love you.

The post office called.

They said they are closing the case on my lost package because its just hasnt been found. I told them i called the company for a replacement.

My days been weird. I feel disconnected from my surroundings.

I took Zeus out for a night time walk. I might only walk him at night from now on because he's dog aggressive and there's not much dogs out. It's so much easier walking him when it's dark.

Back from the hospital, some kind of virus/flu

My mind is full of ****. I'm chain smoking.

Just got denied another job. At u-haul.

I hate my mom judging me on everything.

She said “wow you have no money tho”. When i said we pay for sling tv. Which is like cable. It has mtv, vh1, cnn, etc. but its streaming and no contract.

How much is Sling a month? Can I get it on my amazon stick?

Things are going well for my book except that I can only work on it on the weekends. It is what it is. I just need two more weekends I think, then im going to get a proof copy to make sure things are tight format wise. Then I'm going to delete all my storm and stress chapter quotes on my blog and redo them and release quotes from my book every other day to make hopefully find some traction on social media. Both taking photos of highlighted quotes of the actual book, and section highlights, I'll probably alternate them each day.

It depends on your plan. The plans start at 25 dollars a month. And yes you can get it on amazon stick.

Let me know, ill start promoting it!

My original dead line is sometime in may, which is totally doable.

If i die, will yall goto my funeral?

Okay so

Bf says why cant i stop being depressed

He said im not paying my end of the bills and he always comes home to me depressed

Idk what to do anymore

So I feel like an idiot. I never thought my eating disorder would hurt me that much and land me in the ER. I have to work on this seriously now. I was fooling myself and in denial I guess

Hope I didn't trigger anyone

This relationship just isnt going well

I'm literally wearing a beanie, hoodie and winter gloves, in my apartment because my body temp is so screwed up