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Blue_Bird · May 05, 2019 at 01:11 PM

Watching that Ted Bundy movie on Netflix, creepy

newtus · May 05, 2019 at 01:12 PM

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Anyone here use pinterest?

Yes I do

falcon09 · May 05, 2019 at 01:17 PM

Home from church, had a good time

Blue_Bird · May 05, 2019 at 01:37 PM

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Yes I do

This is mine CellaRose (Cella917) on Pinterest

newtus · May 05, 2019 at 01:53 PM

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This is mine CellaRose (Cella917) on Pinterest

I just added you!

Desoxyn · May 05, 2019 at 02:50 PM

Doing well right now. Going to go to coffee connections and talk to my community outreach worker on Monday and see about getting a part time job somewhere.

Possible trigger:

Flushed my coke. Proud of myself for that. I'm on the step to the right direction

Possible withdrawal of benzos soon. If I can't do it, I'll use medical assistance.

I'm really sick of panic attacks.. I don't take the time that I'm not panicking for granted anymore. It's like sometimes I feel like I'm going completely insane.

Not in a good place but I'm trying to get my life together. Getting a job, going to school.. Doing something.. I just feel scared and I sabotage myself all the time.. I have bad coping mechanisms.

I'll call my therapists office on Monday too and make an appointment with my addictions counsellor. I just have small setbacks..

Blue_Bird · May 05, 2019 at 02:50 PM

Only had 2 regular coffees today, other 2 were decaf. I think that's an improvement from 8 or more regular cups a day

Angelique67 · May 05, 2019 at 04:14 PM

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Here's a pic of my nails I did earlier

Pretty! I still haven't done mine. The last color I did was an orange by Sephora. I loved it but it stained my nails so I'll have to use base coat next time I use it. That was maybe last summer.

Angelique67 · May 05, 2019 at 04:32 PM

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Thinking of buying some ice cream tomorrow, last day of the sale at the ice cream/coffee/convenience shop. Trying to decide which flavor to go with, star gazer (malt flavored ice cream with pieces of milky way candy bars and caramel swirls, or chocolate peanut butter cup

What a decision! Tonight I'm in the mood for the milky way ice cream. I went through a major pb ice cream affair in 2016. If it's what you're in the mood for, it's incredible. Too bad I can't get it lol.

Angelique67 · May 05, 2019 at 04:38 PM

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I want to go to a zoo, haven't been to one since I was a kid. I think the closest one is in Brooklyn though

I never found the one in Brooklyn. The last time I went to the zoo was with my best friend in Chicago. She was trying to quit smoking that day so she might not have had a good time.

Blue_Bird · May 05, 2019 at 04:50 PM

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What a decision! Tonight I'm in the mood for the milky way ice cream. I went through a major pb ice cream affair in 2016. If it's what you're in the mood for, it's incredible. Too bad I can't get it lol.

I ended up buying it this morning

Angelique67 · May 05, 2019 at 04:50 PM

Time goes so fast here. All the days blur. But I don't have much time left anymore. The past 20 years sped by. In 20 years I'll be 80. But I don't think I'll make it. My lungs are so overcome with emphysema that I can barely move when I don't get my inhaler. So I have to be prepared to go.

ofthevalley · May 05, 2019 at 05:14 PM

Hey guys!
Had a good day. Went out shopping with my husband the kids. The boys got all their summer stuff and I got my daughter all those crappy things that are no fun to pay for...like bras lol. Took freaking forever for my husband to decide between dark gray and medium gray...
Now I’m just doing doing laundry and hanging out.

May 05, 2019 at 05:43 PM

I feel so empty now that my book, part one, is completed. That was my existential solution for so long, and now, I'm giving a heavy sigh because I still want to tweak something. I started to work on part 2, and wow, it's bad so far lol. Also, I made a mistake and used a work of kant's in a translation that isn't in the public domain so im going to have to do that completely over. Also, I have to write a second preface for part 2 which Im at an impasse at.
out of the 15 chapters in part two, probably about 10 of them I have a pretty good start. I just have to work on David Hume, Francis Bacon, Descartes, Kant and Darwin. That's a lot really though. Plus I have over chapters with story and plot that I already started.

I miss working on part 1 though...

Blue_Bird · May 05, 2019 at 06:56 PM

I'm so agitated tonight

newtus · May 05, 2019 at 07:35 PM

Took a pic of the baby birds next to my upstairs neighbors door. Roll Call 147

Blue_Bird · May 05, 2019 at 07:46 PM

Maybe the agitation is from caffeine withdrawal?

ofthevalley · May 05, 2019 at 08:44 PM

Washed all my bedding today including pillows.
Felt so nice to crawl into a soft, warm, yummy smelling bed. My husband has the stove going so it’s really nice in here tonight. Wish it were Saturday so I could hang out.
I have my physical tomorrow morning. Joy.
Nothing else going on.
I’m pretty tired...my eyes are heavy. Hoping to sleep well.
Night!

Desoxyn · May 05, 2019 at 10:52 PM

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Maybe the agitation is from caffeine withdrawal?

Fatigue is another dreaded symptom of caffeine withdrawal. Caffeine improves energy and reduces drowsiness by blocking adenosine receptors. Adenosine is a neurotransmitter that can cause fatigue in some circumstances. Once caffeine is eliminated, many people feel tired and fatigued.

Caffeine withdrawal can occur in anyone who regularly consumes caffeine and then abruptly discontinues its use. Common symptoms include headache, fatigue, low energy, irritability, anxiety, poor concentration, depressed mood and tremors, which can last anywhere from two to nine days.

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Desoxyn · May 05, 2019 at 10:55 PM

I'm drunk and high. My mom is drunk and high. My sister is high on her bf and cares less if my mom is drunk and high and would care less if she knows I'm drunk and high. My moms bf is drunk and is taking care of her while she is drunk and high.

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,865 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	May 05, 2019 at 01:11 PM #421 Watching that Ted Bundy movie on Netflix, creepy __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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falcon09 Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2015 Location: United States Posts: 3,021 9 1,869 hugs given	May 05, 2019 at 01:17 PM #423 Home from church, had a good time
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,865 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	May 05, 2019 at 02:50 PM #427 Only had 2 regular coffees today, other 2 were decaf. I think that's an improvement from 8 or more regular cups a day __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Angelique67 Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2014 Location: USA Posts: 22,124 (SuperPoster!) 9	May 05, 2019 at 04:50 PM #432 Time goes so fast here. All the days blur. But I don't have much time left anymore. The past 20 years sped by. In 20 years I'll be 80. But I don't think I'll make it. My lungs are so overcome with emphysema that I can barely move when I don't get my inhaler. So I have to be prepared to go.
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,865 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	May 05, 2019 at 06:56 PM #435 I'm so agitated tonight __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 14 867 hugs given	May 05, 2019 at 07:35 PM #436 Took a pic of the baby birds next to my upstairs neighbors door. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,865 (SuperPoster!) 11 14.4k hugs given	May 05, 2019 at 07:46 PM #437 Maybe the agitation is from caffeine withdrawal? __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 13,020 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,927 hugs given	May 05, 2019 at 10:55 PM #440 I'm drunk and high. My mom is drunk and high. My sister is high on her bf and cares less if my mom is drunk and high and would care less if she knows I'm drunk and high. My moms bf is drunk and is taking care of her while she is drunk and high.
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