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newtus · Apr 28, 2019 at 09:21 AM

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Newtus I think a job would help you too......something to give you a sense of accomplishment, suck up some of your time and also help out the bf and break your financial crisis. For retail jobs there isn’t a ton of responsibility, the hardest part is showing up every day on time. If you can’t do that then you may be wasting your time with school too. Better to find out now than before you waste a lot of money on classes, especially if it’s loans. Personally I’d start applying today. I think you may have gotten into a negative thinking spiral where you’re telling yourself you can’t do things without even trying. You should discuss that possibility with your T. You may also have too big of expectations for a first job. We’ve all worked retail, that’s where you start even if you’re eventually going to be a ceo. You have to prove you can show up on time and follow basic rules before anyone else will take a chance on you.

Yes. I even have concerns for work at home jobs. I feel like i cant do anything because im so depressed and anxious. I just dont know if i will be showing up on time everyday. I remember my first job in high school. It was retail. I did it for two weeks. I absolutely hated it. I told them i was quitting to focus on my high school diploma but i just didnt want to work.

Maybe im a lazy sack of shyt idk

Sometimes psychotic · Apr 28, 2019 at 09:26 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Yes. I even have concerns for work at home jobs. I feel like i cant do anything because im so depressed and anxious. I just dont know if i will be showing up on time everyday. I remember my first job in high school. It was retail. I did it for two weeks. I absolutely hated it. I told them i was quitting to focus on my high school diploma but i just didnt want to work.

Maybe im a lazy sack of shyt idk

If anything your anxiety will help you show up on time. The depression will make things harder but in no way impossible. However if you believe you can’t then you never will.

newtus · Apr 28, 2019 at 09:30 AM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

If anything your anxiety will help you show up on time. The depression will make things harder but in no way impossible. However if you believe you can’t then you never will.

I suppose you are right. I agree about the anxiety thing too. Im scared of managers/bosses etc. which is why i always showed up to my last job. But i couldnt take it anymore after 2 weeks.

junkDNA · Apr 28, 2019 at 10:26 AM

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I suppose you are right. I agree about the anxiety thing too. Im scared of managers/bosses etc. which is why i always showed up to my last job. But i couldnt take it anymore after 2 weeks.

when I started working again I worked 15 hours a week. I've said it a lot but having a job has been the biggest part of my recovery. it's amazing to look back on myself 10 years ago.. I was in your same situation.... and felt like I'd never be about to work. I was also pretty scared of my managers but it gets easier with time. I joke around with mine now. everything new has a period of unomfortableness and awkwardness

newtus · Apr 28, 2019 at 09:31 AM

Thanks guys

I needed that reassurance. I think a job would be good too but i do definitely need new medicine. This zoloft is horrible, doesnt work anymore.

Sometimes psychotic · Apr 28, 2019 at 10:01 AM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Thanks guys

I needed that reassurance. I think a job would be good too but i do definitely need new medicine. This zoloft is horrible, doesnt work anymore.

If you goto hospital get a med overhaul.....I’d swap out the haldol for geodon first and see if that stabilizes your mood.....I’m only on 1 AP so it can work for mood too.

newtus · Apr 28, 2019 at 10:04 AM

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If you goto hospital get a med overhaul.....I’d swap out the haldol for geodon first and see if that stabilizes your mood.....I’m only on 1 AP so it can work for mood too.

I probably wont goto the hospital. Im close to needing it but after talking to you guys and you guys reassuring me, im ok right now.

If i went to the hospital i couldnt choose my meds anyway. But my doctor seems ok with me choosing my meds. See, if i have to move back to my dads, i will have to go back to that clinic i hate. I have a private psych now and private therapist.

ofthevalley · Apr 28, 2019 at 10:21 AM

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I probably wont goto the hospital. Im close to needing it but after talking to you guys and you guys reassuring me, im ok right now.

If i went to the hospital i couldnt choose my meds anyway. But my doctor seems ok with me choosing my meds. See, if i have to move back to my dads, i will have to go back to that clinic i hate. I have a private psych now and private therapist.

If you only see them once a month or so why not keep them and make the drive?
I drive about 45 minutes to see mine. Used to be over an hour.
If you like them and they are more attentive then I’d stay.

newtus · Apr 28, 2019 at 10:33 AM

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If you only see them once a month or so why not keep them and make the drive?
I drive about 45 minutes to see mine. Used to be over an hour.
If you like them and they are more attentive then I’d stay.

Im not sure if i could. I probably could, but i know some mental health places here you have to live in the area.

ofthevalley · Apr 28, 2019 at 10:23 AM

Oh and I’m glad you’re feeling a little better.

newtus · Apr 28, 2019 at 10:33 AM

Thanks guys!!!

newtus · Apr 28, 2019 at 10:34 AM

I reapplied to ATT.

I still would like to sell phones.

ofthevalley · Apr 28, 2019 at 10:54 AM

How about something like Target? I think they pay like $15/hour and they have an electronics section.
They drug test but from what I’ve heard it’s a decent job. Better than Hellmart.

newtus · Apr 28, 2019 at 10:55 AM

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How about something like Target? I think they pay like $15/hour and they have an electronics section.
They drug test but from what I’ve heard it’s a decent job. Better than Hellmart.

I applied there and got denied. I would hate to work at walmart only because i know people that work there and management treats them like crap.

newtus · Apr 28, 2019 at 10:56 AM

I wish i could make stuff and sell it online.

newtus · Apr 28, 2019 at 11:08 AM

Well i just got denied at att too just now.

And because i wasnt able to pay my car insurance last month, they doubled the payment for may...

ofthevalley · Apr 28, 2019 at 11:10 AM

I worked at Cumberland Farms for a couple years. Do you have them there? It’s a big chain convenience store/gas station.
They usually pay about a $1 above minimum wage (here they pay $14/hr until min goes up to $15)
It’s a fast paced job but it’s not a bad job.

newtus · Apr 28, 2019 at 11:11 AM

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I worked at Cumberland Farms for a couple years. Do you have them there? It’s a big chain convenience store/gas station.
They usually pay about a $1 above minimum wage (here they pay $14/hr until min goes up to $15)
It’s a fast paced job but it’s not a bad job.

No they dont have that here.

ofthevalley · Apr 28, 2019 at 11:25 AM

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No they dont have that here.

FWIW convenience stores will hire without experience. They know it’s typically a first job.

newtus · Apr 28, 2019 at 11:12 AM

I mean is it unreasonable to want to work in at least a wireless retail phone chain IF i have to work in retail.

I wouldnt think it is. Im jw.

But, dam, idk.

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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Apr 28, 2019 at 09:31 AM #5 Thanks guys I needed that reassurance. I think a job would be good too but i do definitely need new medicine. This zoloft is horrible, doesnt work anymore. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Apr 28, 2019 at 10:34 AM #12 I reapplied to ATT. I still would like to sell phones. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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ofthevalley Legendary Member Since Feb 2015 Location: USA Posts: 11,326 (SuperPoster!) 9 499 hugs given	Apr 28, 2019 at 10:54 AM #13 How about something like Target? I think they pay like $15/hour and they have an electronics section. They drug test but from what I’ve heard it’s a decent job. Better than Hellmart. __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Apr 28, 2019 at 10:56 AM #15 I wish i could make stuff and sell it online. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Apr 28, 2019 at 11:08 AM #16 Well i just got denied at att too just now. And because i wasnt able to pay my car insurance last month, they doubled the payment for may... __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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ofthevalley Legendary Member Since Feb 2015 Location: USA Posts: 11,326 (SuperPoster!) 9 499 hugs given	Apr 28, 2019 at 11:10 AM #17 I worked at Cumberland Farms for a couple years. Do you have them there? It’s a big chain convenience store/gas station. They usually pay about a $1 above minimum wage (here they pay $14/hr until min goes up to $15) It’s a fast paced job but it’s not a bad job. __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Apr 28, 2019 at 11:12 AM #20 I mean is it unreasonable to want to work in at least a wireless retail phone chain IF i have to work in retail. I wouldnt think it is. Im jw. But, dam, idk. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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