Roll Call 148

I iz qualified to talk about the methamphetamines. But I'm in first aid class right now I'll be finished at 5pm..

Ok, I'll be looking forward to your reply.

Morning! Happy Sunday.
I think I’m going to buy a computer today. Not 100% sure. I’m still weighing my options.
Other than that not much going on. Probably just hanging around home.
Anyone have plans?

Finished cleaning and organizing my apartment

I guess for me it would depend on how much time he spends w/the kids and if he’s under the influence when he is.
I don’t know that much about meth except the stories I’ve read/seen. From my understanding people can freak the **** the out and be unpredictable and violent.
IMO if he’s actually using while he’s in the presence of the kids...he should be reported. I do not believe the kids are safe if he’s using. May sound *****y but I watched my nephews and nieces go through hell w/addict parents. I should have taken them and reported their asses. I should have advocated for the kids but I always thought it wasn’t *that* bad and I could and did rescue them as needed. Now that I’m an adult I hate myself for NOT having done that.
Just my shiny 2 pennies...
:hide: it’s why I didn’t respond when I read it yesterday.

From my understanding he's not using in front of the children and It's a ****** situation and I feel upset and annoyed my friend would put her and her son in that situation because she thinks she's "in love".

What kind of computer are you thinking about getting Valley?

Morning

I don't feel good.

My first day taking geodon and I think it's making me nauseous. I ate with it tho.

"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

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Meth is like Adderall except people take larger doses. It's not a spiritual drug say if he was doing shrooms every once in a while in the woods away from his gf's kid. People get violent on meth and I've noticed on meth that I was getting OCD thoughts of killing everyone. Idk if it was psychosis but if it was, god was telling me to do it.

It was hard to wean myself off of it but I managed to do it slowly. Most people take it until they build tolerance and when you stop, you sleep constantly and feel depressed and it's very addictive so all you want is another hit. He won't stop most likely. No one just quits meth on their own. I managed to do it because I have a loving family and support and there was no reason to be reckless.

The people that do meth like it for the fun, productivity, euphoria and reckless "tweaking" behaviour. Meth addicts know what they want. They know what they're getting themselves into. Unless they're like me and is a nice person that just had a problem with addiction to ADHD meds because I have idk narcolepsy and sick of sleeping all the time. It increases adrenaline and can last up to 24 hours after one hit. People lose sleep which can cause impaired judgment. There's no reason to do meth unless you're being reckless and want more out of life than taking care of your gf and her kid. He could just want her for support about the underlying reasons he's doing the meth and sex. Idk why a mother would want to have a meth addict in her life unless.. (Fill in the blank).

She will probably hate you for reporting it but it's for the sake of the child.

It's her fault. It also depends on when he started taking meth. I would understand if she didn't know about the meth addiction before dating him. If I was the ex, I'd 100% definitely want to know and would take the child away and blame the mother. Meth addiction just gets worse not better unless the person does something illegal out of antisocial behaviour to get more meth and gets arrested or gets help from an addictions counsellor which they don't even want help most times.

Still at my grandparents, have my laptop. I feel paranoid when im alone

Studying history and math on Khan Academy

Her: Who did you tell Jess

Me: I didn't tell anyone in real life.

Her: Just wondering

Me: No, I wont tell but if something happens I will feel really guilty.

Her: He is really trying to get off it and I am helping him. He wants it out of his life.

Me: He needs intervention because people just don't get off it by themselves.

Her: I know and I am working on it and getting him the help he needs.

Me: get him an addiction counselor or something. You can't take this on on your own with just you.

Her: I have been looking getting him into rehabilitation

Me: you didn't tell me that.

Her: I know. That's the next step for him. We are going to start that soon. I am just waiting to hear back from one. I am supposed to hear something by Monday

Me: OK good to know. at least you're doing something.

Her: He wants to get the help too. He knows it has to go. And we are working on getting it gone.

Me: ok because you didn't tell me this.

Her: I should have. But just know we are working on getting it gone. I will keep you updated on his recovery

Me: That would be awesome because I worry about you and hunter.

Her: I know you do

Me: and I don't want this be the reason hunter is getting taken away from you. I know you'd be heart broken over that. and if he doesn't do what he's suppose to get out right away because you and hunter don't need that. and if he doesn't do what he's suppose to get out right away because you and hunter don't need that. I trust you do that.

Her: I know jess

Me: I love you

Her: I love you too Jess.

My mom says the same music is on everywhere but the lyrics are different. When I was having music hallucinations the same thing happened to me.

My friend had to deal with my psychosis a lot. I guess he just never said much.

Tomorrow I'm doing laundry. It's supposed to rain, I don't really care, I'd rather walk in the rain than in the heat

I feel like ****.

I’m irrationally pissed off lol. I hate when I get like this. I don’t get mad often but when I do you can bet your *** it’s completely unmerited and likely blown completely out of proportion. It’s like the dumbest things set me off twice a year or something lol.
Blah.

I completed a 15 hour in total 2 day first aid course =]

I will buy an AED defibrillator for my mom =]

Can anyone else just not stand being alone?

It's only been like this lately for me and it's infuriating.

When I am depressed I really struggle w/being alone. I get incredibly anxious and pace around and stuff like that.
When I’m “stable” I don’t mind being alone.

Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety

Just found out on a different forum that my ex cheated on me. At least I'm pretty sure he was talking about me given the date posted (almost four years ago) and the fact he said "my ex is not the most stable person."
I don't care I just find it interesting.