Roll Call 149

falcon09 · Jun 29, 2019 at 06:51 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

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sometimes I feel like a burden on my family.

Yeah I feel like that sometimes too. Especially now that I'm staying with my grandparents full time while I'm not doing well. It's hard to get over that feeling, I haven't managed to do it.

newtus · Jun 29, 2019 at 06:52 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

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sometimes I feel like a burden on my family.

Same. I do too.

Desoxyn · Jun 29, 2019 at 06:59 PM

I only have a few people in my family. They all good loving people. Also loootttss of Mexicans that live in Mexico..

Desoxyn · Jun 29, 2019 at 07:01 PM

I feel so calm. Vyvanse is a tranquilizer.

newtus · Jun 29, 2019 at 07:03 PM

The wire in my bra is starting to poke through the fabric and it's so uncomfortable.

ofthevalley · Jun 29, 2019 at 07:29 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

The wire in my bra is starting to poke through the fabric and it's so uncomfortable.

Hate that.
I’m in mourning myself.
My favoritest bra ever has about seen it’s last day. It’s also been discontinued by the manufacturer. I of course only have the one

. NO wire total support...crazy sounding but true and it slipped on like a tee.
The inside fabric is starting to pill and it makes me itchy. I look a little weird walking around with my hand down my shirt so I don’t think I can wear it anymore.
So bummed out about it.
Ooooh wait...maybe I can find some on EBay!
Going to look

Desoxyn · Jun 29, 2019 at 07:48 PM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

EBay!

That's it! You're going to rehab!

ofthevalley · Jun 29, 2019 at 07:48 PM

BINGO!

Of course they are hideous colors but whatever...bought 6!
I feel better already!!!

ofthevalley · Jun 29, 2019 at 08:26 PM

30 minutes til pie

ofthevalley · Jun 29, 2019 at 09:16 PM

OmG you have to make that pie.
Only ate about 1/2 a piece but wow.
Daughter said best dessert ever.

Desoxyn · Jun 30, 2019 at 03:39 AM

One day most of our delusions will be real and be normal and psychedelics will save the world and help us overthrow the government a little.

Stop the war, deforestation, burning of fossil fuels, dropping bombs, etc.. Mother earth is what we are apart of. Infinite energy - The animals, plants, our hearts.

But I endorse psych's for schiz people's, not. They already have the key. And eventually there will be better 33rd generation antipsychotics that are perfect for us and people will say, "Remember that time that the evil spirits were contacting you? Now we must fight them in the real world of technology to survive".

For surveillance makes everyone act the same. People don't even pass a red light anymore at 3am cuz they know there's a camera watching. Schizophrenia is evolutions byproduct to tell people some sort of random but general skewed truth.

But fear not, as we have known too much of what fear is.

Desoxyn · Jun 30, 2019 at 05:09 AM

Ah fack here I go again

Ignore that nvm

Blue_Bird · Jun 30, 2019 at 06:19 AM

A thunderstorm just started

newtus · Jun 30, 2019 at 06:19 AM

Morning

Having coffee and took my meds

ofthevalley · Jun 30, 2019 at 07:41 AM

Morning! Happy Sunday!!!
I have nothing to do today. Guess I’m just hanging out. It’s beautiful right now but we’re supposed to get storms later. I hope so...I could use a good storm.

Erti · Jun 30, 2019 at 08:19 AM

scared to take meds and scared to not take meds. I'm ****ed either way.

Desoxyn · Jun 30, 2019 at 08:45 AM

The paradox is really ****ing me up today

Desoxyn · Jun 30, 2019 at 08:51 AM

I'm just getting sick of these delusions of grandeur. I know I'm a good person and I don't even want to be. I want to see my life as worthless. Then I can relax. But it's always some stupid game while other people are ****ed and try to **** with me.

I have some type of bipolar. But that's meaningless to me. TO ME. Not anyone else if they have it. I'm just sick of pleasing everyone and talking in certain ways so people seem impressed and not offended and all the boring stuff that people say and being interested in it.

I've really gotten to a point of exhaustion.

I swing both ways in everything. The ****n paradox man.

Desoxyn · Jun 30, 2019 at 09:00 AM

Idk which way I'll turn out in the end. I'm fighting between both nihilistic and optimistic. My brain is literally too painful to handle. I need to leave all the **** in the past and start again, start over new.

I wish I didn't care about anything. I wish there is no afterlife. If I can just say to a God that I hope doesn't exist, to grant me no afterlife and make sure that my family understands and can live on without me. Because it's my choice to live or die. It should be. I would understand if someone I loved wanted to die because life was too painful.

Erti · Jun 30, 2019 at 09:10 AM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

Idk which way I'll turn out in the end. I'm fighting between both nihilistic and optimistic. My brain is literally too painful to handle. I need to leave all the **** in the past and start again, start over new.

I wish I didn't care about anything. I wish there is no afterlife. If I can just say to a God that I hope doesn't exist, to grant me no afterlife and make sure that my family understands and can live on without me. Because it's my choice to live or die. It should be. I would understand if someone I loved wanted to die because life was too painful.

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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Jun 29, 2019 at 06:59 PM #803 I only have a few people in my family. They all good loving people. Also loootttss of Mexicans that live in Mexico..
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jun 29, 2019 at 07:03 PM #805 The wire in my bra is starting to poke through the fabric and it's so uncomfortable. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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ofthevalley Legendary Member Since Feb 2015 Location: USA Posts: 11,326 (SuperPoster!) 9 499 hugs given	Jun 29, 2019 at 07:48 PM #808 BINGO! Of course they are hideous colors but whatever...bought 6! I feel better already!!! __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
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ofthevalley Legendary Member Since Feb 2015 Location: USA Posts: 11,326 (SuperPoster!) 9 499 hugs given	Jun 29, 2019 at 08:26 PM #809 30 minutes til pie __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
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ofthevalley Legendary Member Since Feb 2015 Location: USA Posts: 11,326 (SuperPoster!) 9 499 hugs given	Jun 29, 2019 at 09:16 PM #810 OmG you have to make that pie. Only ate about 1/2 a piece but wow. Daughter said best dessert ever. __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Jun 30, 2019 at 05:09 AM #812 Ah fack here I go again Ignore that nvm
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,743 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jun 30, 2019 at 06:19 AM #813 A thunderstorm just started __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jun 30, 2019 at 06:19 AM #814 Morning Having coffee and took my meds __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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ofthevalley Legendary Member Since Feb 2015 Location: USA Posts: 11,326 (SuperPoster!) 9 499 hugs given	Jun 30, 2019 at 07:41 AM #815 Morning! Happy Sunday!!! I have nothing to do today. Guess I’m just hanging out. It’s beautiful right now but we’re supposed to get storms later. I hope so...I could use a good storm. __________________ Schizoaffective, PTSD, Anxiety
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Erti Princess Tutu Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Nowhere Posts: 7,912 12 2,894 hugs given	Jun 30, 2019 at 08:19 AM #816 scared to take meds and scared to not take meds. I'm ****ed either way.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Jun 30, 2019 at 08:45 AM #817 The paradox is really ****ing me up today
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