Roll Call 149

newtus · Jun 22, 2019 at 05:51 PM

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Good thing you have a bunch of mods.

I can't vape anymore. It keeps splashing up into my mouth and makes me cough like hell. I'm smoking for a while.

I dont anymore. I been giving them all to my fiance. I think I sold one. Gave the other my fiance. I only had 3 and was using one of em.

falcon09 · Jun 22, 2019 at 06:03 PM

Having a bit of a bad day.

Lots of voices, paranoia too. Took a PRN Haldol

Erti · Jun 22, 2019 at 06:11 PM

Possible trigger:

I want to die. I have enough propranolol tablets that'll do me in... but stopping myself right now... no plan on doing it... dog is by my side right now. They know I'm sad. Even they can't cure this sadness.

newtus · Jun 22, 2019 at 06:25 PM

It's about to rain

sadveiledbride · Jun 22, 2019 at 06:36 PM

Not much happening today, just had dinner. I haven't hallucinated in a while and I'm wondering when it comes back and how to be prepared. Maybe it's time for a hospitalization again, or to find a pdoc to get on meds.

newtus · Jun 22, 2019 at 07:28 PM

I'm starting to feel weird and uncomfortable. Idk why.

Blue_Bird · Jun 22, 2019 at 07:29 PM

I'm going to see about stopping the seroquel. I'm too tired all the time and sleeping too much

Desoxyn · Jun 22, 2019 at 09:52 PM

Colours. Colours fading.
Light. Darkness.
Happiness. Depression.
Life. Death.
Moving. Still.
Warmness. Coldness.
Love. Hate.

What is all this stuff? Why must it be reality? Why???

Desoxyn · Jun 22, 2019 at 09:58 PM

God. Devil.
Demons. Angels.
Water. Fire.

My mom is going to the hospital because she can hardly breathe. She has a cold but it seems fishy to me.

Desoxyn · Jun 22, 2019 at 10:02 PM

I believe something bad is going to happen. I possess powers. I'm imagining my existence. Someone is controlling my actions and thoughts and spying on me. I'm in a simulation.

If I think too much about what happens, it happens. They want me to have cancer if I make a bargain with them.

But it's all meaningless. It just gets to me I guess.

Desoxyn · Jun 22, 2019 at 10:15 PM

Just stressed about my new job

Desoxyn · Jun 22, 2019 at 11:06 PM

Packed my wallet, smokes, phone and a pill bottle full of ativans (In case I panic), a vyvanse (In case I get tired), a beta blocker (In case my heart beats fast) and a seroquel (In case I lose it).

I will not give up ever. I'm in this to test my mental health and the money.. or whatever it is that humans want by DOING THINGS for a boss instead of hunter gathering..

Erti · Jun 23, 2019 at 12:00 AM

You work 3rd shift now Tweaks?

Blue_Bird · Jun 23, 2019 at 02:52 AM

I've been asleep for a majority of the past 48 hours

junkDNA · Jun 23, 2019 at 04:31 AM

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Originally Posted by Desoxyn

I wish I had ESTP entrepreneur personality. Doer. To become a millionaire.

But I am INFP. Dreamer and deep thinker. To make music.

The "IP" is basically ADD and "EP" is ADHD.

I always get INTJ i.think its accurate for me but the MBTI is just for fun really

newtus · Jun 23, 2019 at 06:46 AM

Morning

Having coffee and took my meds

Blue_Bird · Jun 23, 2019 at 07:42 AM

I need to get some coffee, I can't believe I slept as long as I did. Basically Friday night through now

newtus · Jun 23, 2019 at 07:46 AM

I dont feel well. My stomach hurts a bit. It's either the coffee or the mix of coffee and meds in my stomach.

newtus · Jun 23, 2019 at 08:29 AM

I feel fine now. Tired a bit still. I should've ate with my geodon but I'm not hungry.

I might get started on The Bell Jar by sylvia plath today. I also gotta give away some Amazon codes for my book I racked up.

Desoxyn · Jun 23, 2019 at 08:35 AM

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Originally Posted by Erti

You work 3rd shift now Tweaks?

Yes! 3rd shift! =P

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falcon09 Grand Magnate Member Since Feb 2015 Location: United States Posts: 3,018 9 1,867 hugs given	Jun 22, 2019 at 06:03 PM #522 Having a bit of a bad day. Lots of voices, paranoia too. Took a PRN Haldol
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Erti Princess Tutu Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Nowhere Posts: 7,912 12 2,894 hugs given	Jun 22, 2019 at 06:11 PM #523 Possible trigger: I want to die. I have enough propranolol tablets that'll do me in... but stopping myself right now... no plan on doing it... dog is by my side right now. They know I'm sad. Even they can't cure this sadness.
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jun 22, 2019 at 06:25 PM #524 It's about to rain __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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sadveiledbride Veteran Member Member Since Sep 2018 Location: ??? Posts: 738 5 830 hugs given	Jun 22, 2019 at 06:36 PM #525 Not much happening today, just had dinner. I haven't hallucinated in a while and I'm wondering when it comes back and how to be prepared. Maybe it's time for a hospitalization again, or to find a pdoc to get on meds.
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jun 22, 2019 at 07:28 PM #526 I'm starting to feel weird and uncomfortable. Idk why. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,743 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jun 22, 2019 at 07:29 PM #527 I'm going to see about stopping the seroquel. I'm too tired all the time and sleeping too much __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Jun 22, 2019 at 09:52 PM #528 Colours. Colours fading. Light. Darkness. Happiness. Depression. Life. Death. Moving. Still. Warmness. Coldness. Love. Hate. What is all this stuff? Why must it be reality? Why???
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Jun 22, 2019 at 09:58 PM #529 God. Devil. Demons. Angels. Water. Fire. My mom is going to the hospital because she can hardly breathe. She has a cold but it seems fishy to me.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Jun 22, 2019 at 10:02 PM #530 I believe something bad is going to happen. I possess powers. I'm imagining my existence. Someone is controlling my actions and thoughts and spying on me. I'm in a simulation. If I think too much about what happens, it happens. They want me to have cancer if I make a bargain with them. But it's all meaningless. It just gets to me I guess.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,987 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Jun 22, 2019 at 10:15 PM #531 Just stressed about my new job
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Erti Princess Tutu Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Nowhere Posts: 7,912 12 2,894 hugs given	Jun 23, 2019 at 12:00 AM #533 You work 3rd shift now Tweaks?
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,743 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jun 23, 2019 at 02:52 AM #534 I've been asleep for a majority of the past 48 hours __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jun 23, 2019 at 06:46 AM #536 Morning Having coffee and took my meds __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,743 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Jun 23, 2019 at 07:42 AM #537 I need to get some coffee, I can't believe I slept as long as I did. Basically Friday night through now __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Jun 23, 2019 at 07:46 AM #538 I dont feel well. My stomach hurts a bit. It's either the coffee or the mix of coffee and meds in my stomach. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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