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childofchaos831 · Jul 02, 2019 at 05:48 AM

7 hrs is pretty good. I hadn't been sleeping very well the last few nights in the hospital as it was. It'll probably take a few days to get back to a normal schedule. Hopefully, at least.

ofthevalley · Jul 02, 2019 at 07:09 AM

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Originally Posted by Findingreason

Hey everyone. How are things going?

So I am recovering from a severe bacterial infection of Haemophilus influenzae. The infection is gone now, but I was in hospital for 4 days on IV antibiotics plus fluids, as well as in a quarantined room. I was severely dehydrated and had lost 20 pounds. I was throwing up and unable to hold food, meds, or water down. If we had waited much longer getting me in the hospital it was possible I may not have made it out alive. Still waiting to see if I had an infection in my bloodstream from this. It's scary looking back.

Now I am dealing with Reactive Thrombocytosis as a result of the infection. A temporary, but concerning high levels of platelets in my bloodstream, leaving me at risk of blood clots. I talk to a doctor Friday about that, but if I show signs of clots I will go to A&E immediately.

I am just thankful to be alive after all this. It's been a crazy two weeks of acute infection and 4 weeks of ill health.

Holy moly! Tough ride this summer

I’m so glad you’re feeling better.
Watch for any signs there’s a problem and get right back there if there is.

childofchaos831 · Jul 02, 2019 at 07:15 AM

I had turkey salad, crackers, and ice cream for breakfast. Breakfast of champions!

Findingreason · Jul 02, 2019 at 07:23 AM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

Holy moly! Tough ride this summer

I’m so glad you’re feeling better.
Watch for any signs there’s a problem and get right back there if there is.

Thank you!

I will definitely get my behind back there if I have more problems. I hope I do not but I am kind of on alert after this last 4 weeks, lol.

I'm also concerned I had permanent hearing loss. My left ear is not hearing correctly and my ears have already "popped open" a few days ago. Ear canals clear of wax, eardrum intact, and no fluid behind the drum. I did a hearing test online and my hearing range went from a max of 16KHz down to 13KHz. I will keep an ear out (pun intended) for it over the next month and if it does not get better I will contact my doctor.

Blue_Bird · Jul 02, 2019 at 07:23 AM

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Originally Posted by childofchaos831

I had turkey salad, crackers, and ice cream for breakfast. Breakfast of champions!

I had ice cream too!

childofchaos831 · Jul 02, 2019 at 07:28 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I had ice cream too!

Lol! Cool!

ofthevalley · Jul 02, 2019 at 07:58 AM

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Originally Posted by Findingreason

Thank you!

I will definitely get my behind back there if I have more problems. I hope I do not but I am kind of on alert after this last 4 weeks, lol.

I'm also concerned I had permanent hearing loss. My left ear is not hearing correctly and my ears have already "popped open" a few days ago. Ear canals clear of wax, eardrum intact, and no fluid behind the drum. I did a hearing test online and my hearing range went from a max of 16KHz down to 13KHz. I will keep an ear out (pun intended) for it over the next month and if it does not get better I will contact my doctor.

Jesus!
Yes don’t let that go on too long.

ofthevalley · Jul 02, 2019 at 08:01 AM

Last night I ate so much!
2 rolls with garlic oil
Shrimp Mozambique w/garlic toast
Tips in bourbon sauce
Garlic mashed potatoes
Grilled asparagus
Fried ice cream
Uhhh...4 margaritas and 1 baileys and coffee

Blue_Bird · Jul 02, 2019 at 08:36 AM

Well, I went to 3 stores today and got most of my shopping done for the next week, got 10,000 steps in already and it's only 9:30 in the morning

Blue_Bird · Jul 02, 2019 at 08:36 AM

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Originally Posted by ofthevalley

Last night I ate so much!
2 rolls with garlic oil
Shrimp Mozambique w/garlic toast
Tips in bourbon sauce
Garlic mashed potatoes
Grilled asparagus
Fried ice cream
Uhhh...4 margaritas and 1 baileys and coffee

Baileys and coffee is the best

ofthevalley · Jul 02, 2019 at 08:44 AM

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Baileys and coffee is the best

Omg yes! I love it.
It’s the perfect way to end an evening...deep fried ice cream helps too lol
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Blue_Bird · Jul 02, 2019 at 09:22 AM

That looks amazing, I've never had fried ice cream before, or fried snickers, frying anything makes it even better

lol

ofthevalley · Jul 02, 2019 at 09:33 AM

Having an anxiety ridden day.
Doing the whole sitting at the desk too anxious to log in thing.
I hate hate hate anxiety. It freaking takes over my life when it acts up. I took Ativan for the first time in months with no response

I think I’m getting overly emotionally involved in all this drama with Gram and my **** *** family members. It’s keeping me up at night...it’s why I had so much to drink yesterday.
I can’t let this turn into something like my niece/sister fiasco.
I don’t think I can survive another bout of that kind of emotionally draining toxic family destruction.

falcon09 · Jul 02, 2019 at 09:34 AM

I sent in my lithium pharmacy refill request last night at midnight and when I woke up this morning it was already ready.

I'm liking my new pharmacy lol.

Unfortunately I'm feeling quite sick, stomach ache and diarrhea. I called partial hospital and told them I wouldn't make it today.

ofthevalley · Jul 02, 2019 at 09:36 AM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

That looks amazing, I've never had fried ice cream before, or fried snickers, frying anything makes it even better

lol

It is also super easy to make and inexpensive.
I’ve had one deep fried snickers. I threw it out. It was like a billion degrees out at a fair and the grease was overwhelming lol. I’d try it again though

ofthevalley · Jul 02, 2019 at 09:37 AM

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Originally Posted by falcon09

I sent in my lithium pharmacy refill request last night at midnight and when I woke up this morning it was already ready.

I'm liking my new pharmacy lol.

Unfortunately I'm feeling quite sick, stomach ache and diarrhea. I called partial hospital and told them I wouldn't make it today.

Hope you feel better soon.
Rest and chicken soup

Blue_Bird · Jul 02, 2019 at 09:42 AM

So tired, only got 4 hours of sleep last night

newtus · Jul 02, 2019 at 09:57 AM

Morning

Gonna do my usual routine

Sometimes psychotic · Jul 02, 2019 at 10:08 AM

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I honestly think I'm about to hit another depressive phase if I already havent.

It seems like I cant handle little stressors, let alone big ones. And I am sick to my stomach trying to figure out what to do now with my life.

I really just want to give up. I really really do. I'm almost just wanting to go back to my dads and just sleep my life away, I almost dont care anymore. I dont even want to talk to my dad right now and that's not good. I feel like I'm in a very deep hole and dont know how to get out. My chest hurts from smoking so many cigs today.

I'm sorry I'm a downer. I really dont think I can work full time with my energy level and medication. So sp said it's no use to get a degree if I cant ever work full time. Idk why my energy is so bad. Idk if I'm physically sick or my meds or both. Or what. I sleep so much but I'm always tired. I'm never ever rested and yet I deal with insomnia. My whole life my sleep schedule has never been the same for more than a week.

I really just give up. I honestly do.

Can I clarify.? Not my goal to crush your dreams, just don’t want you getting into more debt for something that won’t pay off. You need to calculate what you can make working part time in social media marketing and see whether you can pay off the $14,000 in loans you’ll need to take out to finish the degree. I am personally concerned that if you can’t work part time stocking in a grocery store that you’ll end up with all that debt that is like a year of your current income....school debt is different, it doesn’t go away ever and they can just take it from you if you don’t pay, out of wages or tax refunds I think. Student loan debt is crippling. What I suggested was taking lower cost online classes that get certificates rather than degrees. I’m not sure social media marketing requires a degree right now, there are few places that even offer one. What they care about is number of followers and engagement. I did not say give up on your dreams so much as take a less expensive path. Do cheap to free learning in places like Lynda and coursera and the other set of courses I gave you. Look for more, you know how to google for YouTube etc.

I feel like you want to do school to prove something to someone rather than for the practical reason of getting a job. You could graduate from Harvard and your mom would still have issues with you, that’s not going to resolve with a degree.

Also to further clarify if you can get to the point where you can work, school will once again be a reasonable option. So my suggestion was talk to dad and fiancé about school and get a second opinion regarding the debt and your working ability. You don’t have to listen to me but I personally feel you have better cheaper options than school.

Blue_Bird · Jul 02, 2019 at 10:34 AM

Hearing things from lack of sleep the past few days, hope I can get some rest tonight

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childofchaos831 Elder Member Since Nov 2016 Location: Texas Posts: 5,037 7 15 hugs given	Jul 02, 2019 at 05:48 AM #941 7 hrs is pretty good. I hadn't been sleeping very well the last few nights in the hospital as it was. It'll probably take a few days to get back to a normal schedule. Hopefully, at least. __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain
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