[schitzo-girl626]

its funny how i am so afraid of getting into any type of relationship,i have a few people who would like to see me on a regular basis,and i laugh at the idea.my illness has completely taken over,it drives me now.i dont trust my own decisions anymore. .so i know my illness is the one real thing in my life now.i just wonder if ill ever be able to trust anyone again,to be able to feel trust. i think im too far gone now,and it saddens me to the point of wanting to cry.but because of this awful illness i have i wont cry.ill start another day sick and at the end of the day,ill still be sick.and alone.

[Juliaspavlov]

sorry you are going thru this schizo girl...
(((hugsfor yu))))

[deliquesce]

(((schizogirl)))

one of my good friends told me he had schizophrenia after about 4 years of knowing him. it was a big shock, because i thought he was ok. but it did explain why he went absent for long periods, at times.

i hope one day you can find some stability in your illness, and reach out and keep your friends.

[tarabug922]

schitzogirl,

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I know from experience that it does get better. Once you start getting help for your illness you'll see some minor improvements at first. If you start therapy you'll start to notice bigger improvements. That's how I began to trust again, was through major therapy. Like eight years of consistent therapy and hard work on my part. I found psychoanalytic therapy to be the best for me.

I hope you find some light soon.

Love and Hugs,
Tara