Roll Call 153

I never got to sleep. I feel like crap and my head hurts like theres a clamp around it.

Can you take the day off ?

Went out to breakfast then to the pharmacy

I might ask for it. But its ultimately up to my boss.

My boss let me have the day off. I told her I'd make it up somewhere down the schedule.

I feel like crap.

This is the first time in a long time where I laid in bed the whole time and didnt sleep. Sometimes I goto sleep, sometimes I just get up, but I've been in bed all night. My thoughts going and going. I came up with some pretty clever ideas that I've pretty much lost now.

I hope I dont have vaping illness. I'm starting to get anxiety.

I'm not well at all. I just sent this to door.

"Hell is earth. Its earth. We do all this **** just so we can extend our lives. Only to really all die at the same time. Around 65-90. ****ing goto school 1/3 of our lives. Get jobs 2/3 of our lives. And then what for? We are taught to get an education in order to make money to live comfortably, but what for, man? To ****ing be able to cushion the blow of death? So we are basically taught to work and then made to work, so that our death years (65-95) are easier on us. That **** don't make sense. Like. It seems like this world is just idk meant to build God's army for something. But idk what man. We gotta keep fighting the Angel's in heaven so god can keep his throne."

Took another walk, saw a chipmunk. went to the library. Also sat outside in their nice bench area for a little while.

Someone complimented me on my shirt

I'm hoping the weather cools off soon. There's nice picnic benches around my apartment complex and I'd like to start sitting there with a coffee and reading

Since the fish oil is working to some extent I decided to try an algae based omega 3 my friend recommended, it’s plant based without the heavy metals. I also got some b12 because I’m not eating as much meat. So I’m up to 3 supplements a day with the vitamin d.

I don’t really have any food in the house except lean cuisine which I don’t really want. I was supposed to goto the store today but I haven’t made it yet. I could walk up there it’s about a mile, but half the point of going to the store is rotating the car once a week. I even added the store to habitica but I’m fighting it for some reason. The main obstacle to overcome is going out to the car, I’m usually fine once I’m in the car. Still it’s already into a high traffic period, I could go tomorrow or I could walk and get some exercise.

Sounds like you’re having a great day

Sorry you're struggling @newtus

Maybe if you go tomorrow or if you walk today you could treat yourself with something later

Any good takeout food near you?

There’s a ton so it’s not like I’m gonna starve, it more that I had plans to cook an eggplant gnocchi dish and if I wait to late in the week it’s gonna be a problem. I’m really trying to eat healthier too.

I take fish oil, vitamin d and vitamin b12. I'm thinking of taking other b vitamin supplements too.

I was reading of people that are 80 years old with brains of a 20 year old. The way to do this is to take vitamin b supplements, fish oil and vitamin d with exercise.

Edit: oh and reading!

Yes sometimes I treat myself with flowers when I go so that’s a great idea

Looks like one of my psychotic scribbles. But sometimes it can be caused from restlessness and anxiety.

Cool! Good to know

I forgot I had more French toast! Maybe will goto store later this afternoon.

Stalking his profile :/

My mind is racing like crazy. I think it's from coffee. Trying to calm myself down

How much coffee did you drink? It can be really powerful if you’ve been abstaining or drinking decaf.

That's true. A lot. Like 7 cups since this morning. That's probably why because I was primarily drinking decaf for awhile but I ran out and drinking black coffee is a weird nervous habit of mine so I just drank a bunch of regular today. Also I hadn't eaten since 7:30am and it's just after 1:30pm now, I just ate so maybe that will help. I'm drinking water