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Grand Poohbah
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Stress is bringing voices again, and bugs, those bugs under my skin. I am calm. I was overwhelmed, I took a benzo and now I am calm. I am seeing an attorney in an hour. My head is full of stuff, I am organizing it to do not look crazy.
I dont think I am crazy (I wish the thing inside me stopped screaming). Lolz. I do not act on anything, just feel it. I remember my last psychiateist saying "You are perfectly ok". Yah, I dont act weirdo even if I am weirdo. I have PTSD and some sort of neurodivergence, neurodivergence that could be diagnosed as schyzotypal, psychosis nos, or whatever the psychatrist wants to diagnose me with. I am overwhelmed again. Too many feelings: Hype and tired while wanting to cry and end everything, no! Its funny, its funny inside. Some laugh. I am tired. Its fun. I am sorry. __________________ Crazy, inside and aside Meds: bye bye meds CPTSD and some sort of depression and weird perceptions "Outwardly: dumbly, I shamble about, a thing that could never have been known as human, a
thing whose shape is so alien a travesty that humanity becomes more obscene for the vague resemblance." I have no mouth and I must scream -Harlan Ellison- |
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So you’ve written bye bye meds in your signature....for me meds were the only thing that worked long term for voices....singing worked short term as did any sort of complex mental manipulation like picturing 3D images moving like radar screens or coins spinning.
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Grand Poohbah
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I guess I just have therapy left. __________________ Crazy, inside and aside Meds: bye bye meds CPTSD and some sort of depression and weird perceptions "Outwardly: dumbly, I shamble about, a thing that could never have been known as human, a
thing whose shape is so alien a travesty that humanity becomes more obscene for the vague resemblance." I have no mouth and I must scream -Harlan Ellison- |
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Sorry you're feeling so bad, OliverB. Lately, this week, I've begun feeling or having bad negative symptoms. Like feeling like I'll never be able to get out of bed again. When I have positive symptoms I look like it. Everything shows on me. Hugs to you.
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