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newtus · Feb 07, 2020 at 07:37 PM

I got on disability when I was 21. My outpatient clinic told me to get on. My dad signed me up and I had no idea, but it helped me a lot. I was too sick to even think about that tho. About doing something like signing up for that. I got it in 2 and a half months. I had been hospitalized maybe 15 times prior to getting on.

Job 30 26 · Feb 07, 2020 at 07:42 PM

Thank's for your consul childof chaos

Job 30 26 · Feb 07, 2020 at 07:45 PM

I didn't even think about the Medicaid I'd get. That's my biggest expense.

Blue_Bird · Feb 07, 2020 at 07:49 PM

So restless tonight

childofchaos831 · Feb 07, 2020 at 07:55 PM

Sorry I've been non-existent lately. I've been pretty busy with school and stepping out of PHP into IOP and doc appointments and everything else going on.

School is really taking up a lot of my time.

My speech class is online and it is a lot of work, but I think the workload would be the same in a classroom. I'm just getting overwhelmed with the level of work there.

My other class is a lot of fun. It's Basic Illustration. We just turned in our first project yesterday. I got really good critiques from the other students (yes, we have to critique each other in class before turn in the project...) and I liked how mine turned out too. We were doing basic shapes and values (shading). The next project is single point perspective. We have to draw a city street basically, but we don't have to shade it in at all.

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Sometimes psychotic · Feb 07, 2020 at 08:03 PM

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Yes, but there are many rules and loopholes they don’t tell you about. Which is why most people don’t know. Like when my dad put me on disability. I was put under the Disabled before 21 rule. So I’m considered disabled since I was 17. And you don’t have to get it under 21. You can backdate it, but only after so many years over 21 I believe. Like I think til 25 or so. But don’t quote me on that. But that’s just one possibility.

I know ssdi like the back of my hand only cuz I had to teach myself. I spent a week straight years ago reading about every little thing I could find and think of. Like literally I’d wake up and spend the next 9 hours or more reading up for a week, a few years ago.

Actually when I went to ticket to work, the state person said he was extremely surprised i knew what I knew, and that some things he didn’t know himself but he learned from me. And he knew a lot, so. He was trained on it.

Also you can work on disability. But it’s complaicated. This year you can make up to 920 a month. But the 920 is the cap before they start reviewing ur disability. Then there’s that u can make 1120, they will start reviewing u then. So it’d be a risk. And then there’s the 9 months trial period, where u can make over all that. There’s no cap to what u can make, but after making over the cap for 9 non consecutive or consecutive months, then you’re taken off disability.

But, the nine months have to be within a 72 month period or some number, a very long time, like 6 years I believe. So if u did 8 months of way over the cap and then the 72 months is over, the 9 month trial period restarts from the beginning.

If u get taken off disability you have 3 months to get back on, to where they will approve u immediately. If you’re off for longer than 3 months you can still get approved in an express style, but it may not happen.

The good thing about all that is, if you are kicked off disability, you will still get your insurance, Medicare, for the next 7 years after you’ve been kicked off.

What I meant about work is you’ve got to be incapable of work before you get it not after.....

newtus · Feb 07, 2020 at 08:05 PM

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What I meant about work is you’ve got to be incapable of work before you get it not after.....

Yea I know I was just elaborating for Job. But should’ve put it for him. Soz.

Sometimes psychotic · Feb 07, 2020 at 08:48 PM

So I was reading the disability thing and sent to my sister, apparently there is a program just for stage four cancer and it only takes 30 days to be approved....some days I really appreciate the government.

Desoxyn · Feb 07, 2020 at 09:01 PM

I didn't get called back for applying to that job. I'll have to apply for more jobs. I can make an extra 1072 CAD a month on top of 1685 from disability. All expenses paid, I an make 1500 a month and save.

I want to go to school too but I'm afraid my cognition isn't good. I need to ease myself into it. I need more space like a room where I sleep and another room to do things.

I'll be moving to B.C in 1-2 years and I want to go to school there too and hopefully I'll be more mentally well. I'd have to apply for disability again and I'm not sure how long that will take or if I'll even get accepted. I'd get 1200 CAD a month and can make an extra 1000 CAD by working. I'll have more living space probably.

I should learn how to drive as soon as possible. There's just so many responsibilities that I have and so much that i need to do its overwhelming.

Sometimes psychotic · Feb 07, 2020 at 10:52 PM

Man having trouble sleeping again hopefully this clears up before I see the pdoc at the end of the month....

Desoxyn · Feb 07, 2020 at 11:45 PM

Was learning about investing and smoking some ganj.

I think I'm just gonna stick to learning how to invest for a while. It's quite fun.. I can use my feelings and mathematical brain..

I'm gonna go to sleep at 10PM though... Kinda addicted to the 0.5mg alprazolams but I'll figure a way out to stop once I control my addiction to sleep..

I have an addiction to sleep which is why I sleep 12 hours or more a day. Cuz I'm lazy idk.. I just want to sleep cuz being awake sucks..

I'm going for a walk with my moms friends in the morning. They're nice people.. I need to socialize and tell them what I'm doing..

Desoxyn · Feb 08, 2020 at 12:13 AM

I've been sitting here, waiting to fall asleep and I think to myself, I'm content. And I'm not even on phenibut (Just a maintainence dose). The weed is really helping and daily 5mg olanzepine to prevent psychosis. I havent had psychosis or stress in a few days. Everything is ok. I'm so happy.. now I sleep..

I'm doing all of the things I'm supposed to do to.. I can't or no one can expect anything less..

I meditated for a few minutes and with each new breath in and out, I was able to think about nothing.. There's nothing bothering me. I'm in touch with reality.

Tomorrow I think will be a very good day. I'm excited for tomorrow.

I'm gonna smoke a little weed every day now.

Atypical_Disaster · Feb 08, 2020 at 01:06 AM

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Man having trouble sleeping again hopefully this clears up before I see the pdoc at the end of the month....

You and me both. I’m not bothered by anything in particular, just awake browsing the internet and thinking.

Me thinking tends to deeply frighten people. Heh.

Desoxyn · Feb 08, 2020 at 01:18 AM

Well.. I guess it's too early to sleep.. or could be phenibut withdrawal.

I guess I'll stay up until 3-4am and then try again.

Atypical_Disaster · Feb 08, 2020 at 01:30 AM

Grandiose delusions are one hell of a drug.

I found some of my old writings from a certain time period and WHEW. I have to laugh in a good way at the sheer level of outrageous egocentricity in all of that stuff I wrote. Apparently it’s possible for my ego to inflate even more than it already is normally. That’s saying something as I’m already rather highly impressed with myself! HAHAHAH

Desoxyn · Feb 08, 2020 at 01:39 AM

I remember watching this when I was like 6 years old lol;

YouTube

Everybody, Move your feet and feel united! Woooah!!

Desoxyn · Feb 08, 2020 at 01:54 AM

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I remember watching this when I was like 6 years old lol;

YouTube

Everybody, Move your feet and feel united! Woooah!!

"This song gets randomly stuck in my head every couple of months for the last 10 years and I'm fine with it. Never gets old"

"A moment of silence for the poor souls who haven’t found this song yet."

Took me a while to find this song. It was really hard to find it. All I heard when I was a kid was "I wanna beat that million dollars, woah" so imagine how hard to find that..

Atypical_Disaster · Feb 08, 2020 at 10:58 AM

It’s occurred to me lately that I’m extremely secretive without consciously intending to be. It’s not that I’m paranoid, honestly. I don’t care about how much anyone knows about me and my life at all. It’s more that it’s just a weird tendency that I have; I just don’t share much about myself unless I’m asked highly specific questions. I wonder why that is? Hmm.

Sometimes psychotic · Feb 08, 2020 at 11:03 AM

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It’s occurred to me lately that I’m extremely secretive without consciously intending to be. It’s not that I’m paranoid, honestly. I don’t care about how much anyone knows about me and my life at all. It’s more that it’s just a weird tendency that I have; I just don’t share much about myself unless I’m asked highly specific questions. I wonder why that is? Hmm.

Do you have poverty of speech....like verbally?

Atypical_Disaster · Feb 08, 2020 at 11:06 AM

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Do you have poverty of speech....like verbally?

I don’t, actually. If anything, I tend to get the opposite complaint because of my ADHD at times because medications only do so much.

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Job 30 26 Grand Member Member Since Jan 2020 Location: Norway Posts: 897 4 1,251 hugs given	Feb 07, 2020 at 07:42 PM #782 Thank's for your consul childof chaos
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,745 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Feb 07, 2020 at 07:49 PM #784 So restless tonight __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Sometimes psychotic Legendary Wise Elder Member Since May 2013 Location: Chicago Posts: 26,409 (SuperPoster!) 10 22.8k hugs given	Feb 07, 2020 at 08:48 PM #788 So I was reading the disability thing and sent to my sister, apparently there is a program just for stage four cancer and it only takes 30 days to be approved....some days I really appreciate the government. __________________ Hugs!
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Sometimes psychotic Legendary Wise Elder Member Since May 2013 Location: Chicago Posts: 26,409 (SuperPoster!) 10 22.8k hugs given	Feb 07, 2020 at 10:52 PM #790 Man having trouble sleeping again hopefully this clears up before I see the pdoc at the end of the month.... __________________ Hugs!
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,988 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Feb 08, 2020 at 01:18 AM #794 Well.. I guess it's too early to sleep.. or could be phenibut withdrawal. I guess I'll stay up until 3-4am and then try again.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,988 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Feb 08, 2020 at 01:39 AM #796 I remember watching this when I was like 6 years old lol; YouTube Everybody, Move your feet and feel united! Woooah!!
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