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The Dopamine Flux
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#781
I got on disability when I was 21. My outpatient clinic told me to get on. My dad signed me up and I had no idea, but it helped me a lot. I was too sick to even think about that tho. About doing something like signing up for that. I got it in 2 and a half months. I had been hospitalized maybe 15 times prior to getting on.
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#782
Thank's for your consul childof chaos
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#783
I didn't even think about the Medicaid I'd get. That's my biggest expense.
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Location: Hogwarts
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#784
So restless tonight
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#785
Sorry I've been non-existent lately. I've been pretty busy with school and stepping out of PHP into IOP and doc appointments and everything else going on.
School is really taking up a lot of my time. My speech class is online and it is a lot of work, but I think the workload would be the same in a classroom. I'm just getting overwhelmed with the level of work there. My other class is a lot of fun. It's Basic Illustration. We just turned in our first project yesterday. I got really good critiques from the other students (yes, we have to critique each other in class before turn in the project...) and I liked how mine turned out too. We were doing basic shapes and values (shading). The next project is single point perspective. We have to draw a city street basically, but we don't have to shade it in at all. Chaos __________________ Diagnoses: PTSD with Dissociative Symptoms, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain |
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Angelique67, Atypical_Disaster, Blue_Bird, Job 30 26, Sometimes psychotic
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Location: Chicago
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#786
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The Dopamine Flux
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#787
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#788
So I was reading the disability thing and sent to my sister, apparently there is a program just for stage four cancer and it only takes 30 days to be approved....some days I really appreciate the government.
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#789
I didn't get called back for applying to that job. I'll have to apply for more jobs. I can make an extra 1072 CAD a month on top of 1685 from disability. All expenses paid, I an make 1500 a month and save.
I want to go to school too but I'm afraid my cognition isn't good. I need to ease myself into it. I need more space like a room where I sleep and another room to do things. I'll be moving to B.C in 1-2 years and I want to go to school there too and hopefully I'll be more mentally well. I'd have to apply for disability again and I'm not sure how long that will take or if I'll even get accepted. I'd get 1200 CAD a month and can make an extra 1000 CAD by working. I'll have more living space probably. I should learn how to drive as soon as possible. There's just so many responsibilities that I have and so much that i need to do its overwhelming. |
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#790
Man having trouble sleeping again hopefully this clears up before I see the pdoc at the end of the month....
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#791
Was learning about investing and smoking some ganj.
I think I'm just gonna stick to learning how to invest for a while. It's quite fun.. I can use my feelings and mathematical brain.. I'm gonna go to sleep at 10PM though... Kinda addicted to the 0.5mg alprazolams but I'll figure a way out to stop once I control my addiction to sleep.. I have an addiction to sleep which is why I sleep 12 hours or more a day. Cuz I'm lazy idk.. I just want to sleep cuz being awake sucks.. I'm going for a walk with my moms friends in the morning. They're nice people.. I need to socialize and tell them what I'm doing.. |
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#792
I've been sitting here, waiting to fall asleep and I think to myself, I'm content. And I'm not even on phenibut (Just a maintainence dose). The weed is really helping and daily 5mg olanzepine to prevent psychosis. I havent had psychosis or stress in a few days. Everything is ok. I'm so happy.. now I sleep..
I'm doing all of the things I'm supposed to do to.. I can't or no one can expect anything less.. I meditated for a few minutes and with each new breath in and out, I was able to think about nothing.. There's nothing bothering me. I'm in touch with reality. Tomorrow I think will be a very good day. I'm excited for tomorrow. I'm gonna smoke a little weed every day now. |
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#793
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You and me both. I’m not bothered by anything in particular, just awake browsing the internet and thinking. Me thinking tends to deeply frighten people. Heh. |
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#794
Well.. I guess it's too early to sleep.. or could be phenibut withdrawal.
I guess I'll stay up until 3-4am and then try again. |
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#795
Grandiose delusions are one hell of a drug.
I found some of my old writings from a certain time period and WHEW. I have to laugh in a good way at the sheer level of outrageous egocentricity in all of that stuff I wrote. Apparently it’s possible for my ego to inflate even more than it already is normally. That’s saying something as I’m already rather highly impressed with myself! HAHAHAH |
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#796
I remember watching this when I was like 6 years old lol;
YouTube Everybody, Move your feet and feel united! Woooah!! |
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#797
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"A moment of silence for the poor souls who haven’t found this song yet." Took me a while to find this song. It was really hard to find it. All I heard when I was a kid was "I wanna beat that million dollars, woah" so imagine how hard to find that.. |
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#798
It’s occurred to me lately that I’m extremely secretive without consciously intending to be. It’s not that I’m paranoid, honestly. I don’t care about how much anyone knows about me and my life at all. It’s more that it’s just a weird tendency that I have; I just don’t share much about myself unless I’m asked highly specific questions. I wonder why that is? Hmm.
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#799
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