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I was diagnosed with "Psychosis NOS" about 5 years ago. To be honest, I don't really fit into any category very well. I truly believe that unidentified people have been monitoring me for a long time. In my mind, I have a lot of circumstantial evidence (no smoking gun). The rest of the details don't matter too much, but honestly the entire "delusion" is plausible (but highly unlikely). Its not impossible, and they are interpretations of factual events. I have no other symptoms of schizophrenia.
I'm so traumatized by people telling me that I'm "misinterpreting" situations. Its been the focus on my therapy for 8 years. And its what (very well-intentioned) friends have been telling me forever. I no longer trust my own thoughts and opinions. And I don't feel comfortable asking for help anymore... people are just going to judge me and make me feel responsible for things that are outside of my control. Its traumatizing to be repeatedly told that your own opinions and intuition and knowledge are a bunch of "thought distortions". I get that everyone is trying to help. I don't blame anyone. But, here I am, feeling completely trapped, and I don't know what to do. I was seeing a therapist. I told her upfront that I needed someone to accept my experience as "Reality". I guess she thought that she could change my mind. Finally, she told me that we couldn't talk about my experiences anymore. So, I had to quit. I'm not a fragile person. I wasn't overly attached to her. I'll find another therapist. But its so frustrating. This is exactly how my family handled the situation. We just couldn't talk about it. And my sister said she needed boundaries. But my experience is a huge part of my life. So what do I talk about with them? Does anyone have any recommendations for finding a therapist that is experienced with people diagnosed with delusions? How about therapists who specialize in people feeling "gaslit" by the mental health profession, as well as friends and family. Is it frustrating to anyone else that no one trusts our opinions and experiences? Do you feel belittled and judged? Any suggestions? I've thought about this for a long time, and I don't see a way to get around this feeling. It's become another "fact" in my experience. Any feedback is appreciated. Thank you! |
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The first thing I would ask is: who diagnosed you with Psychosis NOS? A therapist? The same therapist as you had been seeing who refused to keep seeing you?
Oftentimes therapists will do things like that. In my experience, I've had several therapists just say, "Enough is enough," and that they can't deal with me anymore. It is a road block but it is not something that worries me that much anymore. Let me explain: I mean, I don't go out seeking for therapists that will end up quitting on me. Rather, I think that some therapists get me and some do not. Of course, it's more nuanced than that. But what I mean is, there are some people out there that are going to act like they cannot deal with your delusions (you do say they are delusions, right?) and some who actually can help you deal with those feelings. It's your task to find the person (or people) who will help you deal with those. Also, it would help to know if that therapist you were seeing is the one who diagnosed you with Psychosis NOS, because that would be helpful to know, as if she did diagnose you with that, and then proceeded to not help you with it, then you should not be that worried about the whole situation. You should just seek out someone who does understand what you're going through. I know it's easier said than done, but that is how I would proceed in your shoes. |
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Therapy doesn’t work too well for delusions have you ever tried an antipsychotic just to see if your perception changed? If they truly aren’t delusions you need to goto the police not a therapist.
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Here is a link to a Wikipedia page you might what to check out. Don't know if it will help or not but here it is any how.
Byron Katie - Wikipedia |
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Dear Blue Cat 214. I'm so sorry your family doesn't show much support. And on top of that they won't hear you out. It has to be frustrating. Sounds like they are like many people who stigmatize mental illness and practice avoidance. Of course you need to talk about your illness with them. So, so sorry. I haven't been seeing a therapist. I guess I don't trust them? Anyway, I have turned to prayer. The Lord always has time to listen. The trust I have in Him has calmed me and given me support when earthly support wasn't there.
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I suggest you keep a journal, possibly online at journalate. That way you can keep track of what happens to you. Might work as therapy for you too.
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Hi There, in short your the same as me! I will post a few useful links below, take care.
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You would need to hire a Private eye with Bug Sweeping Gang Stalking knowledge !
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Do u believe u r psychotic?
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Hi, You can be gaslit,communally mobbed and psychotic at the same time!
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