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Metaphysic
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#181
They're printing money.
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#182
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#183
very tired
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#184
I hate that people who've done me wrong not get their upcomings.
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#185
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Yikes, I know. I just wish my psychiatrist was willing to be more part of the conversation. My therapist was telling me that I need to be more assertive with my psychiatrist and see if my psychiatrist can actually help with me not having any creativity, a lack of emotion, etc. Then, if he can't, I guess, then I will switch docs. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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#186
__________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#187
I'm seeing the grim reaper right now from the corner of my eye. I'm trying not to look straight at it but I hope it doesn't mean what I think it means.
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#188
So, absolutely forced myself out on the bike, 27 miles. Spectacular day, people all over the river, kayakers, skiers, swimmers, babies and toddlers and families on bikes and puppies and stuff. Life. If that can't help you feel better, I don't know what can.
I do feel better. So, that is nice. Gonna try to ride regularly again, I think it helps me, i guess. Sometimes was right about getting out there, as usual. Hugs!!!!!!!!! __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#189
took meds
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#190
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Hugs. __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#191
I'm on about 675 mg a day with Clozapine and 200 a day with lamictal. a beta blockers for tachycardia and anxiety. and I'm also on metformin to help keep me from eating myself to death
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Metaphysic
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#192
I tapered down to 550mg of phenibut and took 1.2g today to go on the hike because I was feeling a little apathetic.
I spent the evening sleeping and having sleep paralysis. I feel stupid right now. But yeah I don't think I'm moving out - My mom will eventually get a place on the Island where my family is. I can't just completely disconnect from my whole family and be alone. I'm a little dependent and won't survive on my own. If someone threw me out on the streets, I wouldn't be able to learn how to survive. I would die. |
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#193
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Metaphysic
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#194
I think I've almost withdrawn from the benzo a day habit. No panic attack since my last one ~5 nights ago. CBD, chamomile tea, magnesium and ashwagandha are really good. They're all natural.
I just want to relax my muscles and read etc.. But be awake too.. |
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#195
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Hugs. __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#196
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Hugs. __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#197
Please stay away from that weed...
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#198
ALbert woke me up at 0357. Not enough sleep, given this depression situation. Quite interestingly, my morning coffee, usually my happiest time and event of the day, tastes disgusting to me. It is excellent coffee. It actually does not taste disgusting. It tastes awesome, just not to me wihth my sick brain right now. When I am depressed, my sensory system is profoundly impacted and that includes taste. Food has been incredibly tasteless for a couple weeks. So interesting. This is why people who do not understand depression and think it just means you are sad so totally do not get how all-encompassing it can be for folks who have it super bad, like I have.
27 miles on the bike yest. Absolutely forced myself out there, but it did make me feel a tad better. Lovely day and lots of happy people out and seeing all that did remind me that there is happiness in this world, even if it is hard for me to find and see right now. Will just force myself to do it again today, even though I will not want to at all. Exercise has been crucial for me in surviving my depression over the decades. it is why I ran marathons and ultras in the old days. My president is going to drive this nation right into the ground in a giant, flaming wreckage, in typical sociopath fashion.If he cannot win, in his world, then everyone else has to suffer, too. Read Mary Trump's. book. Mind-blowing. He is a very, very sick man. Love and hugs. __________________ When I was a kid, my parents moved a lot, but I always found them--Rodney Dangerfield |
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#199
Morning.
I have postponed my book release. Because I have submitted it to some publishers. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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