Roll call 171

I can't believe my pdoc is letting me go for this ketamine thing. lol I presented it to her like "what do you think?" and i basically made it sound like her idea in the end! lol So I'm going to take it once a week. I wonder how much it costs though... That makes me very nervous because im paying out of pocket, and now i wish i had health insurance because i need the shot every week.

Is there a way for me to get health insurance right now? I have schizophrenia, there must be a way for someone like me. The US health system is just awful. What a terrible idea to give a deadline for when yuou can sign up for healthcare. Thanks Obama.

There are exceptions to the fact that you have to get it by a certain time every year. I know it's different based on the state. But there are various exceptions to the rule that you have to get it before the year begins if you want coverage effective January 1st. Maybe you could look into your state's marketplace and see if you fall under one of those exceptions to the rule?

took my geodon and clozaril.

A little anxious today

Yeah i found a page with more options and that jumped out at me due to locations and age.....’fraid doc google beat you to it......

If you’re disabled you might qualify for Medicaid or if you have a job change like in the last 30 days like you lost your job possibly the ACA. I believe ketamine itself if cheap if you get it through alternate channels.....

I have so much going on. So many projects and different stuff. And seems like a few things are definitely coming to fruition, fast.

I couldn’t even begin to list everything I’m doing right now. Just a cascade of projects. Dozens of projects. Some I haven’t had time to start in between doing things in my personal life.

I’ve also got a backlog of books and games. So no more of those for me unless there’s a book I need for my writing career. I’m working on completing like 3 different major games right now too. Zelda, Pokémon expansion pass, and some other one. Oh dang, I can easily think of a few more. All RPGs.

And gotta figure out something to do about the house. I mean we kinda have it figure out but I need to work with this dealer on the final number and down payment if needed. Plus the loan type etc. We will see.

Fiancé opened up to me and said it would be good for us to be on my dads land. He said the way I worry about my dad, that since my mom is going to the other side of Texas next year, that I should be closer to my dad. Plus more opportunities for work for us, less spending on gas cuz we goto his moms which is over an hour away (currently) regularly. Plus other expenses saved and loads more opportunities in the area. Plus my dad is not getting younger and I will be inheriting that land. It all only makes sense. It’s just about finding the most cost effective housing solution, short and long term, to be there on his land.

I’m gonna be working on my book tomorrow and putting it up. It actually might not be for sale right tomorrow with all the channels I have to ping, aka go through, to put it up for sale.

My bills will also be paid tomorrow too. My unemployment has run out. Thank god if I can secure this job, this might’ve been where I need to be work wise. It seems to be working out so far. WorKing at home, plus probably would’ve overwhelmed me to write as a job as well as for my career. Technology is my other lover, so itll give me a break from writing. And I seem to be good at helping people tech-wise.

Yikes. I could go on. But I’ll spare current details until some of these projects go through. Which I haven’t even mentioned any of them here. Yep! I’m doing all of this, and that’s just the tip of the iceberg.

I’m keeping busy.

"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com

Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Check out some pics of this thing called idiopathic guttate hypomelanosis and see if it maybe fits.

I talked the community workers ear off for 90 minutes straight while on the hike. It helped.

I feel better when talking to people. Much better.

'Cause if you're not really here
Then the stars don't even matter
Now I'm filled to the top with fear
That it's all just a bunch of matter
'Cause if you're not really here
Then I don't wanna be either
I wanna be next to you
Black and gold, black and gold, black and gold

That’s fantastic!

I just applied, im not eligible. lol america is one of the worst places to live!

Ketamine is dirt cheap. I make about 40k a year so it's impossible for me to get medicare. In michigan i must make 17k or less.

Ketamine is a very forgiving dissociative and won't cause agitated hypermanic psychosis like PCP so no worries.

I can't imagine your philosophical thoughts that you'll have while being uplifted from this chemical. You should write about your experience.

- "It wasn’t like when you’re drunk when you feel really out of control. I felt like I could completely be ridiculous and that would be liberating.” He left the party and walked the entire 40 minutes back to his house, feeling calm, at peace, and happy to be alive. And he had totally forgotten about his crappy day at the office.

lol where did you get those last few sentences, man?

What Is It Like to Be on Ketamine?

The 16th I believe

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Hugs job........

court date for my friend about his kids.

trying to find homes for our two pitbulls before we get kicked out in two weeks.