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The Dopamine Flux
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#1
Let’s talk!
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Thanks, Newtus!
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The Dopamine Flux
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The Dopamine Flux
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#4
I didn’t get the LWA btw... not sure how we will pay our bills.
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Metaphysic
Member Since Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
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I'm dealing with trauma induced psychosis and panic attacks. When I told my mom about OCD thoughts, she understood what I was saying and the depersonalization/derealization went away with 10mg of olanzepine (The dose that my psychiatrist put me on before I wanted to go off of it). It's really complicated solipsism and I think I'm being targeted by a group of gangstalkers that got the wrong person because I typed identities of the old man that sexually harassed me in the psych ward... I'm not sure what is real and I'll have to write it all out.. But what was said is so bizarre and complex, about time machines and travelling faster than the speed of light and
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My mom said that anyone would turn crazy by this. I don't even care enough to type it all out but I have to otherwise my OCD will keep repeating horrible intrusive thoughts that aren't even real. Being in the psych ward damaged me more now than when I came in there the first place. I feel like I'm being monitored or something. But I have good enough insight although it doesn't magically make me express everything clearly - Just that why I suppose it's disorganized schizophrenia. |
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Metaphysic
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I already told my therapist about the OCD and trauma so I'm gonna make an appointment over the phone to speak with her about it.
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Metaphysic
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Alex Jones and interdimensional
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I'm too tired to write. But I feel better writing this. It's just weird solipsism. And Trump is supposed to save us from evils of the world? It's like comedy writers wrote my life all i hear is "trump trump trump" and it's all nonsense. Idk if the world is run by
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That's all I see on social media. The whole pandemic and people going crazy makes me crazy. I agree that it isn't a sexuality because I have a really confusing sexuality but I'm not attracted to children. I care too much about what people think and my OCD is like "What if they think that even after you tell them" well, I'm gonna tell the truth and beat OCD - But it controls me. It makes me say it because it makes me obsess over things like killing a family member or harming myself, etc it goes on and on |
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Location: Portland
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Location: Portland
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Albert bawling and woke me up again.
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The Dopamine Flux
Member Since Jun 2010
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#10
Didnt sleep at all
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Member Since May 2013
Location: Chicago
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I don’t remember if I mentioned this yesterday but we are partially locking down again....th indoor part of bars and restaurants will be closed.....it’s just one zone outside the city....not the whole state....
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The Dopamine Flux
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Member Since Oct 2014
Location: USA
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Thanks for the new roll call. I can't connect to posts 1 thru 10 for some reason.
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Member Since Jul 2018
Location: CA
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Thanks for the new roll call!
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#16
Looks like our health insurance might be changing again. Ugh. We had really good health insurance, no deductibles, reasonable out of pocket maximums etc. The new plan that they are looking at is not as good. They have deductibles and they have higher out of pocket maximums. Not good.
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Metaphysic
Member Since Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
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#17
I wake up and the OCD hell continues but in the morning this time instead of the evening.
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Metaphysic
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Location: The Netherlands
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#18
"Most people with OCD are ashamed of our thoughts. Once you are able to open up about them to your therapist, they slowly lose power over you as you begin to realize that they are just that - thoughts. Hope you find healing!"
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Metaphysic
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#19
Here's what I wrote on a FB OCD forum (Beware it's quite messed up);
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It helped to write that out. I'm at the doctors office waiting to talk to my doctor and get refills. Everything will be ok.. idk what I'm gon a do after bit I'll try and find something productive and relax, breathe. |
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Location: United States
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#20
woke up super late
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