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#301
I stayed awake for 36 hours and by that time, my sister and I met my mom at a restaurant. She asked me "Are you OK?" and I told her that I was going to sleep in the morning but took the stimulant and decided to stay awake.
I felt paranoid, couldn't recall any of my memory, didn't understand social cues, couldn't read the menu and couldn't pay attention to conversations. Never again will I do this! Lack of sleep is horrible for me. I'm more aware now so I notice how sketched out I was. I slept for 14 hours but my cognition is still not that good so maybe I'll feel better in 1-2 days. I'm gonna make sure to sleep well every night from now on. I'm able to focus much better with good sleep. |
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#302
My sister is going to give me a bunch of chicken cutlets and a nice piece of beef. That will help me out a lot because money is kind of tight for the rest of the month after buying Christmas presents, the tree, and all the decorations
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#303
I've been having a panic attack for the past hour and a half and it's my own fault because I drank coffee all day. I feel stressed out about the inspection on Monday too
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#304
I'm cutting out caffeine until I can moderate my intake better, I'll just get a bag of really strong coffee, death wish, and have a cup or 2 of that once in awhile. But I'm taking a break from it totally for a few months
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#305
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#306
Well I made some tea, now am gonna play some Animal Crossing since it's relaxing
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#307
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#308
Thinking of doing a pot roast for Xmas....it would be good. Possibly Olive Garden for the eve. Bf and I decided we’d split dinner as our gift to one another because we both have everything we need.
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#309
Is it my fault that I am the way I am?
Maybe it's paranoia but I don't think anyone here really likes me at all because I'm either too out of control or self critical. What are things that I can change about myself? Be honest. |
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Metaphysic
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#311
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The olanzepine too. I'm not very cognitively there right now so I can't really type. But if I'm not on much antipsychotic, I feel like how I was yesterday with lack of sleep and I never want to go to that place again. But thanks <3 I'm really in a realm where it feels like I could go in any direction. I've wasted a week or two being unproductive, talking with online friends, music. I'm in a lot of pain. I don't know what happened - I was so unaware of myself and the world and I feel like I want to slip back into that place. Growth hurts. |
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#312
I'm just so damn tired that I feel like I can't keep up with my expectations. I said I would do 2 things a day but even that is overwhelming because I want to do more.
I'm going to sleep.. It feels like my reality and mind are melting. |
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The Dopamine Flux
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#313
Kind of lonely today
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#314
I'm trying to come up with a good morning routine and stick to it.
Ideally I'd like to be up at 5:30 am -Drink water first thing Then -Meditate for 30 minutes -take a shower, brush teeth, etc -Do some morning yoga -Eat breakfast -Take meds -Make my bed -Take a walk -Come home and read for 30 minutes at least __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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#317
Finished decorating the Christmas tree 🎄
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#318
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#319
![]() Me too! __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#320
I like your tree Newtus, and your sign above your couch, your apartment looks very nice.
I have an apartment inspection tomorrow. I just have to remind myself that I've had these plenty of times before and there's never an issue. I just get very stressed out about them for some reason. I think it has to do with fear of getting kicked out which isn't gonna happen, but it's a fear related to growing up homeless often with my mom __________________ “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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