Roll Call 178

Art supplies for this month have arrived

Cool @12AM

I ordered a set of 8 pound weights for exercising with

I give up on my sister.

I’ve been trying to rekindle our relationship for 5 years. I call or text and she says one or two things then says “I’m busy I’ll text u later”. Never hear back. I’ve sent letters to her. Even to my nephew. I don’t even know if they’ve received any of them. I don’t get a call or text about anything I’ve sent. Including gifts for my nephew for holidays.

She’s just like my mom. Even my mom isn’t fully like that tho. Sad.

I have friends that treat me better than most of my family.

I told my mom I was done trying to have a relationship with my sister. I’ve been on about it for the past year. Even tho it’s been happening for 5 years. I’m someone who feels like if someone can’t give u 20 min of their time to even talk, for five years? Forget it then. I see where Im prioritized. At the very bottom. I love her but it’s time to stop trying. I just look like a fool now.

"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

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I say I’m bored these days but these days it’s rare I’m bored. Once a month maybe. Now it’s just this boredom is me being restless from the thoughts in my mind that won’t go away. Like depressive thoughts. I just want to get away from them and do something. Not be withheld by them.

I honest have so much to do. So I’m not truly bored that much these days. I do get quite lonely tho when fiancé is not home.

"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com

Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

Y’all I’m so so in love with gouache! Oh my god! It has a perfect characteristic for me personally. So gouache is similar to watercolor in that it can be thinned with water and can be rewetted and similar to acrylic when it comes to its layering and opaqueness. It’s like a bipolar paint. I fell in love 😍

Got some curry powder and ground turmeric. There were only a few spices I've been missing from my spice cabinet and those were 2 of them. Turmeric is supposed to be really good for you.

I took the next two days off of work. I just feel so unwell, emotionally. I had to let the General Manager know what was going on. He was good about it. He said he would keep it to himself and he said if I needed more time off to just let him know. That was kind.

Awe. The owner of my company sent me a text back to my text explaining why I suddenly need to take two vacation days. She said Feel Better Kit, we need you and we love you. I work for great people.

Very interesting listening to and reading about a guy talking about how Bitcoin relates to mycelium and psychedelics.

The fungi.. They collect sugar from the tree.. The tree uses it's solar panel leaves to get photons with CO2 to send to the mycelium..

Bacteria try to attack but the fungi creates enzymes to protect itself - All throughout the world is a layer of soil.. It started in the ocean 500m years ago - They can penetrate through rock and grow - The seeds lighter than air going through outer space.

Bitcoin is a combination of 5 or so ideas together - Uses 1% of the worlds electricity supply to mine.. It grows more and more, the programmers defend against attackers, all agree upon value, government can't stop it - It takes away the third party holders..

Migrant workers in Mexico make their money in the US and pay a 20% fee to send the money to their family... People in India get money from loan sharks and have to pay interest. Crypto eliminates all of that. It is an attack - Defending the world.. Imagine having to work 20% more (1 out of 5 days more) to send money to your family? That's theft of TIME.

And the coal is too apart of the planet.. I haven't looked far into what happens if there's a solar flare.. But there will be crypto satellites - Like StarLink etc.. To transfer the commodity which could be worth more than gold across the planet instantly..

The neurons in your brain, ecosystem and environment of the planet, dark matter, the stars, fungi, bitcoin.. All a form of connections...

So yeah Idk what rabbit hole I'm going down but I like it..

Did U invest in GameStop?

"We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"

The Dopamine Flux
www.thedopamineflux.com

Youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII

No I heard it mentioned a few days ago and I laughed cuz I was like "What? That's the company that died when I was a kid". Now I see it went up 1700% lol

I gotta go on twitter more and pay attention to Elon Musks' Tweets lol

Edit: I need that social media skill that you have xd

This stuff is ridiculously hilarious

I spent all night painting. Just did laundry and the dishes. I feel good and happy again Bare with me when I feel off once in a month due to period

To stop trying sometime means we finally win

I have no idea at all about investment. Funny because I used to work in an insurance company for a year. My brain explodes when it comes to finance.

Omg Newtus r/Wallstreetbets, twitter, discord "Reddit posters made millions and wall street loses billions on gamestops wild stock ride"

This stuff is crazy xd

BlackBerry and AMC now.. People thought it was banned 2 hours ago and now it's back.

I almost can't keep up with this stuff mentally