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newtus · Feb 23, 2021 at 09:35 PM

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Yeah, I still have that. I have to start using positive affirmations. I keep saying things to myself like

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I want to die, I want to end my life, I hate myself, I'm ugly, my apartment is a mess, I'm never gonna get anywhere in life, etc

and that stuff is getting drilled into my subconscious over time and it's getting harder to believe/think anything else.

That’s one of the hardest things to stop and takes a lot of time to undo that immediate negative reaction towards yourself and implement positive self talk. I hope you can keep trying and know that none of that negative stuff is true. It’s lies your brain tells you. You’ve accomplished so much this past many months with your self care. Like with your routines and trying to stop or lower coffee intake. Most people wouldn’t even try to give up what they want because they don’t care to better themselves. I know this because I see this in my fiancé unfortunately with smoking and drinking. Nothing against him, but he’s not the type to better himself much.

Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2021 at 09:35 PM

It's a good think I have an appointment with my therapist tomorrow. One thing I have to stop doing is telling them I'm okay when I'm not. I have a bad habit of saying everything is fine always even though sometimes it's definitely not

newtus · Feb 23, 2021 at 09:37 PM

I was talking to SP about how I felt burnt out on the switch from lack of features other platforms have. Like chatting with friends in some way. It doesn’t have any of that built in. I hate that. The 3DS even had those features. I don’t understand Nintendo. And they just had a Direct and it was mostly all Mario stuff yet again. No offense but not a fan of Mario. I’ve tried so many times to be throughout the years.

Hoping for a real major Nintendo update.

But on a side note, I want the new pokemon snap game.

Blue_Bird · Feb 23, 2021 at 09:38 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

That’s one of the hardest things to stop and takes a lot of time to undo that immediate negative reaction towards yourself and implement positive self talk. I hope you can keep trying and know that none of that negative stuff is true. It’s lies your brain tells you. You’ve accomplished so much this past many months with your self care. Like with your routines and trying to stop or lower coffee intake. Most people wouldn’t even try to give up what they want because they don’t care to better themselves. I know this because I see this in my fiancé unfortunately with smoking and drinking. Nothing against him, but he’s not the type to better himself much.

Thank you newtus! I am going to keep working at it. I was at a point in my life before where positive self talk was easy, I will get there again. I am continually trying to improve in different areas of my life as far as like diet, routine, etc go I don't always succeed but I'll keep trying

newtus · Feb 23, 2021 at 09:38 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Thank you newtus! I am going to keep working at it. I was at a point in my life before where positive self talk was easy, I will get there again. I am continually trying to improve in different areas of my life as far as like diet, routine, etc go I don't always succeed but I'll keep trying

The fact that you keep trying is success in itself

cogladaid · Feb 23, 2021 at 09:42 PM

I didn’t listen to the thoughts and took my Latuda. Not that it really seems to be helping but whatever.

cogladaid · Feb 23, 2021 at 09:44 PM

I feel like everyone hates me that I’m annoying everyone.

newtus · Feb 23, 2021 at 09:45 PM

If any one wants these for their switch or I guess they might fit other console controllers idk, let me know. I’ll send em. Don’t want em.

Dog is not for sale*

cogladaid · Feb 23, 2021 at 09:57 PM

That Fear of Rain movie is new so it’s not free. I don’t want to spend $6.99 to rent it so I’ll have to try to wait I guess. But thanks newtus for the info on it.

cogladaid · Feb 23, 2021 at 09:59 PM

I just hear the doctor in my head. When I talked to him yesterday I said to him at one point ‘good thing I didn’t think you were in on it because I might have stopped taking my meds!’ And he said ‘oh no please don’t stop your meds’ and it’s sticking with me him saying that.

He’s not part of it. I trust him. He’s not trying to steal my thoughts he wants what’s best for me.

cogladaid · Feb 23, 2021 at 10:05 PM

I don’t know if I can sleep now.

WastingAsparagus · Feb 23, 2021 at 10:13 PM

I usually exercise at night but I am taking tonight off. Gonna just chill instead.

newtus · Feb 23, 2021 at 10:38 PM

I honestly need to get back writing

WastingAsparagus · Feb 23, 2021 at 10:43 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

I honestly need to get back writing

Me too. I sometimes don't know what to write about. I write a journal daily though.

newtus · Feb 23, 2021 at 10:45 PM

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Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

Me too. I sometimes don't know what to write about. I write a journal daily though.

It’s important to just continually practice. Write anything. Short story, poem, journal entry, maybe even a quote or few. Anything to get it going again.

newtus · Feb 23, 2021 at 10:46 PM

I didn’t tell y’all but I signed up to speak at a Stanford University medical conference in California about my mental health. Idk if I’ll get chosen but we will see.

Desoxyn · Feb 23, 2021 at 10:56 PM

Oh God!

I'm tired AF!!

Sl e.e p

Desoxyn · Feb 23, 2021 at 11:24 PM

Consumed sugar not tired anymore

Desoxyn · Feb 24, 2021 at 01:14 AM

Spent time talking to psychonauts. They are very chill people. Made my night.

Angelique67 · Feb 24, 2021 at 01:48 AM

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Oh I posted above. Basically I think someone at work tried to screw me over.

Oh, yes. I'm sorry that happened to you. Makes work around whoever it was really awkward/unpleasant.

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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Feb 23, 2021 at 09:42 PM #186 I didn’t listen to the thoughts and took my Latuda. Not that it really seems to be helping but whatever.
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Feb 23, 2021 at 09:44 PM #187 I feel like everyone hates me that I’m annoying everyone.
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Feb 23, 2021 at 09:45 PM #188 If any one wants these for their switch or I guess they might fit other console controllers idk, let me know. I’ll send em. Don’t want em. Dog is not for sale* __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Feb 23, 2021 at 09:57 PM #189 That Fear of Rain movie is new so it’s not free. I don’t want to spend $6.99 to rent it so I’ll have to try to wait I guess. But thanks newtus for the info on it.
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Feb 23, 2021 at 10:05 PM #191 I don’t know if I can sleep now.
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WastingAsparagus Student of Life Member Since Mar 2014 Location: South America Posts: 4,658 10 2,911 hugs given	Feb 23, 2021 at 10:13 PM #192 I usually exercise at night but I am taking tonight off. Gonna just chill instead. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”
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newtus The Dopamine Flux Member Since Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 43,644 (SuperPoster!) 13 867 hugs given	Feb 23, 2021 at 10:38 PM #193 I honestly need to get back writing __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,988 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Feb 23, 2021 at 10:56 PM #197 Oh God! I'm tired AF!! Sl e.e p
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,988 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Feb 23, 2021 at 11:24 PM #198 Consumed sugar not tired anymore
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,988 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Feb 24, 2021 at 01:14 AM #199 Spent time talking to psychonauts. They are very chill people. Made my night.
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