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Blue_Bird · Feb 25, 2021 at 12:21 PM

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Yeah best wait to later in the day.

I’m probably not the best person to give advice on it though but wait!

Yeah that’s true. And I might actually wait a couple more days to have it. I’m trying to not have it too frequently because I could see myself getting somewhat dependent on it if I have it too much. Try to make it a more occasional thing/treat.

cogladaid · Feb 25, 2021 at 12:22 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Yeah that’s true. And I might actually wait a couple more days to have it. I’m trying to not have it too frequently because I could see myself getting somewhat dependent on it if I have it too much. Try to make it a more occasional thing/treat.

Yeah be careful. When I feel up I feel like LETS PARTY and want to drink a lot. Best not to get hooked.

WastingAsparagus · Feb 25, 2021 at 12:24 PM

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What language are you learning? I learned some Python and am currently working on a C++ course. Next up is a Java course. I also need to learn SQL at some point.

Python for now, ha. Since it's like sort of a beginner language. C++ I've heard is harder.

cogladaid · Feb 25, 2021 at 12:26 PM

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Python for now, ha. Since it's like sort of a beginner language. C++ I've heard is harder.

Yeah Python is so much easier than C++ hahaha. I hope Java is pretty easy compared to it.

Blue_Bird · Feb 25, 2021 at 12:35 PM

Wow. With sunlight coming in through my windows since I’ve opened the blinds today really makes me feel like I’ve been living in a dungeon the past year. I just would always feel paranoid about keeping my blinds open like thinking people could see inside and would watch me so I always kept them shut. Even though I’m on the 3rd floor and most likely nobody could see me. It was just paranoia.

cogladaid · Feb 25, 2021 at 12:54 PM

I’m dumb but I’m fine don’t worry about me.

Possible trigger:

I feel like I’m being poisoned. I can’t shake it. I drank a squirt of hand sanitizer to clean myself. Tasted so nasty.

I realize that it was dumb and I shouldn’t have done it. I wasn’t thinking right. The doctor is going to love this isn’t he. Lmao.

Blue_Bird · Feb 25, 2021 at 01:12 PM

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Originally Posted by cogladaid

I’m dumb but I’m fine don’t worry about me.

Possible trigger:

I feel like I’m being poisoned. I can’t shake it. I drank a squirt of hand sanitizer to clean myself. Tasted so nasty.

I realize that it was dumb and I shouldn’t have done it. I wasn’t thinking right. The doctor is going to love this isn’t he. Lmao.

When do you talk to your doctor? Do you think maybe going inpatient may keep you safe? Sorry you’re struggling

cogladaid · Feb 25, 2021 at 01:14 PM

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When do you talk to your doctor? Do you think maybe going inpatient may keep you safe? Sorry you’re struggling

Nah I don’t need inpatient. I’ll be fine just need to not be impulsive is all.

I talk to my doctor on Monday.

Desoxyn · Feb 25, 2021 at 02:08 PM

Didn't want to get out of bed this morning because it felt like I was on heroin or something.

I see my doctor in an hour for refills. I don't feel like talking. Too tired..

I don't feel like doing anything either. Maybe the NAC was helping.

cogladaid · Feb 25, 2021 at 02:54 PM

I had a talk with my mom. Not about mood or anything but about planning to pay off debt and getting a mortgage on a nice house.

It actually made me feel better. It made me excited about paying off my bills and looking forward to the future.

Erti · Feb 25, 2021 at 03:04 PM

no more edibles for me. The one I had two nights ago lasted over 24 hours. wtf

SlumberKitty · Feb 25, 2021 at 04:04 PM

I feel less paranoid than yesterday.

Blue_Bird · Feb 25, 2021 at 04:21 PM

Sometimes I wish I lived with someone. Especially during this whole covid thing. I'm so isolated living alone. It's really lonely. I'm a major introvert but even I get lonely sometimes

SlumberKitty · Feb 25, 2021 at 04:23 PM

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Sometimes I wish I lived with someone. Especially during this whole covid thing. I'm so isolated living alone. It's really lonely. I'm a major introvert but even I get lonely sometimes

Can your sister come over this weekend?

Blue_Bird · Feb 25, 2021 at 04:24 PM

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Can your sister come over this weekend?

I don't think she can this weekend, but we are going to get our nails done next weekend then have lunch

SlumberKitty · Feb 25, 2021 at 04:28 PM

I should let my T know that I was paranoid. I'll probably have to start the conversation with, "I was paranoid this week." Or something. IDK yet how to say it. She'll either think I'm nuts or she'll say, have you talked to Pdoc? Nope, not at $200 a pop.

SlumberKitty · Feb 25, 2021 at 04:29 PM

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I don't think she can this weekend, but we are going to get our nails done next weekend then have lunch

Oh that sounds nice! At least you have something to look forward to! I wish my sister lived closer!

So sorry you are feeling alone today. Know you are loved here!

Desoxyn · Feb 25, 2021 at 05:44 PM

Idk if smoking weed is good or bad for me. It just relaxes me before I watch videos and such but possibly causes mild cognitive impairment. It doesn't get me high anymore. It just relaxes.

Blue_Bird · Feb 25, 2021 at 07:50 PM

I think I can do my 40 days without caffeine now so I'm gonna start tonight and go until April 7th. Since I messed up the first part of lent

Blue_Bird · Feb 25, 2021 at 09:03 PM

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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Feb 25, 2021 at 12:54 PM #266 I’m dumb but I’m fine don’t worry about me. Possible trigger: I feel like I’m being poisoned. I can’t shake it. I drank a squirt of hand sanitizer to clean myself. Tasted so nasty. I realize that it was dumb and I shouldn’t have done it. I wasn’t thinking right. The doctor is going to love this isn’t he. Lmao.
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,985 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Feb 25, 2021 at 02:08 PM #269 Didn't want to get out of bed this morning because it felt like I was on heroin or something. I see my doctor in an hour for refills. I don't feel like talking. Too tired.. I don't feel like doing anything either. Maybe the NAC was helping.
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Feb 25, 2021 at 02:54 PM #270 I had a talk with my mom. Not about mood or anything but about planning to pay off debt and getting a mortgage on a nice house. It actually made me feel better. It made me excited about paying off my bills and looking forward to the future.
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Erti Princess Tutu Member Since Jun 2011 Location: Nowhere Posts: 7,912 12 2,894 hugs given	Feb 25, 2021 at 03:04 PM #271 no more edibles for me. The one I had two nights ago lasted over 24 hours. wtf
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Feb 25, 2021 at 04:04 PM #272 I feel less paranoid than yesterday. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Feb 25, 2021 at 04:28 PM #276 I should let my T know that I was paranoid. I'll probably have to start the conversation with, "I was paranoid this week." Or something. IDK yet how to say it. She'll either think I'm nuts or she'll say, have you talked to Pdoc? Nope, not at $200 a pop. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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Desoxyn Metaphysic Member Since Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 12,985 (SuperPoster!) 7 4,912 hugs given	Feb 25, 2021 at 05:44 PM #278 Idk if smoking weed is good or bad for me. It just relaxes me before I watch videos and such but possibly causes mild cognitive impairment. It doesn't get me high anymore. It just relaxes.
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,740 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Feb 25, 2021 at 07:50 PM #279 I think I can do my 40 days without caffeine now so I'm gonna start tonight and go until April 7th. Since I messed up the first part of lent __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,740 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Feb 25, 2021 at 09:03 PM #280 20 practical things I do to get out of a slump — FloraMind - Cultivating Minds 20 practical things to do to get out of a slump __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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