Roll Call 180

Desoxyn · 02-23-2021, 06:56 PM

Imma find a YouTube video about what is inside a computer..

Don't mind me..

Need to clip nails.. So I'll do that first..

Mind over matter..

cogladaid · 02-23-2021, 08:02 PM

I'm trying to focus on studying for my ethics course. Thinking about ethics and philosophy brings forward those thoughts I've been having. I need to study my math and I want to know now I have to get the equation to answer the question of God once and for all I will change the world with this answer I just need to get my skills up in math to do it. Ugh why does everything take so long to do I need to focus.

It's hard to focus. My mind goes too fast and I can't always hear what it's saying. Other thoughts I feel are being stolen.

Logically I know it's not real... right? It's not real I'm just manic. Huh, manic. Really the thought of having the label of bipolar 1 instead of 2 doesn't really change anything about who I am, but it just feels different. Like my identity has changed but I know I'm still me.

I just need to focus. Focus on studying tonight. Working tomorrow. Studying after work. I need to pass all my courses so I can change the world.

WastingAsparagus · 02-23-2021, 08:27 PM

Set up an intake appt with an IOP tomorrow. We'll see how it goes / if I can get some financial help.

newtus · 02-23-2021, 08:50 PM

Just to let y’all know.

There’s a new movie release out about a girl with schizophrenia. It’s called Fear of Rain. I haven’t watched it yet but rented it for tomorrow in my Xbox. I’m sure u can rent it anywhere if it’s not Netflix or something.

cogladaid · 02-23-2021, 08:52 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Just to let y’all know.

There’s a new movie release out about a girl with schizophrenia. It’s called Fear of Rain. I haven’t watched it yet but rented it for tomorrow in my Xbox. I’m sure u can rent it anywhere if it’s not Netflix or something.

I’ll look to see if I can find it on my TV for free.

Thanks for the tip!

cogladaid · 02-23-2021, 09:16 PM

Thoughts going through my head that I should stop these pills they’re just interfering with my destiny. My thinking is skewed because of them stopping my thoughts and letting people steal others.

childofchaos831 · 02-23-2021, 09:24 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

Just to let y’all know.

There’s a new movie release out about a girl with schizophrenia. It’s called Fear of Rain. I haven’t watched it yet but rented it for tomorrow in my Xbox. I’m sure u can rent it anywhere if it’s not Netflix or something.

Purchased on my ps4.

Blue_Bird · 02-23-2021, 09:26 PM

On the verge of having a panic attack and having negative thought spiral

newtus · 02-23-2021, 09:28 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

On the verge of having a panic attack and having negative thought spiral

You gonna be ok? What about your self care box?

Blue_Bird · 02-23-2021, 09:30 PM

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Originally Posted by newtus

You gonna be ok? What about your self care box?

Yeah, I still have that. I have to start using positive affirmations. I keep saying things to myself like

Possible trigger:

I want to die, I want to end my life, I hate myself, I'm ugly, my apartment is a mess, I'm never gonna get anywhere in life, etc

and that stuff is getting drilled into my subconscious over time and it's getting harder to believe/think anything else.

02-23-2021, 06:56 PM	#171
Desoxyn Creator of Stars Desoxyn is doing very good Member Since: Aug 2016 Location: The Netherlands Posts: 9,134 (SuperPoster!) 2,524 hugs given	Re: Roll Call 180 Imma find a YouTube video about what is inside a computer.. Don't mind me.. Need to clip nails.. So I'll do that first.. Mind over matter..
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02-23-2021, 08:02 PM	#172
cogladaid Grand Magnate cogladaid is probably manic. Member Since: Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 4,122 (SuperPoster!)	Re: Roll Call 180 I'm trying to focus on studying for my ethics course. Thinking about ethics and philosophy brings forward those thoughts I've been having. I need to study my math and I want to know now I have to get the equation to answer the question of God once and for all I will change the world with this answer I just need to get my skills up in math to do it. Ugh why does everything take so long to do I need to focus. It's hard to focus. My mind goes too fast and I can't always hear what it's saying. Other thoughts I feel are being stolen. Logically I know it's not real... right? It's not real I'm just manic. Huh, manic. Really the thought of having the label of bipolar 1 instead of 2 doesn't really change anything about who I am, but it just feels different. Like my identity has changed but I know I'm still me. I just need to focus. Focus on studying tonight. Working tomorrow. Studying after work. I need to pass all my courses so I can change the world.
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02-23-2021, 08:27 PM	#173
WastingAsparagus Magnate WastingAsparagus is trying to enjoy life. Member Since: Mar 2014 Location: Nada Posts: 2,290 1,159 hugs given	Re: Roll Call 180 Set up an intake appt with an IOP tomorrow. We'll see how it goes / if I can get some financial help. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”
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02-23-2021, 08:50 PM	#174
newtus The Dopamine Flux newtus has no updates. Member Since: Jun 2010 Location: Ardenweald Posts: 42,608 (SuperPoster!) 877 hugs given	Re: Roll Call 180 Just to let y’all know. There’s a new movie release out about a girl with schizophrenia. It’s called Fear of Rain. I haven’t watched it yet but rented it for tomorrow in my Xbox. I’m sure u can rent it anywhere if it’s not Netflix or something. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living" The Dopamine Flux www.thedopamineflux.com Youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/user/MozePrayIII
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cogladaid Grand Magnate cogladaid is probably manic. Member Since: Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 4,122 (SuperPoster!)	Re: Roll Call 180 Thoughts going through my head that I should stop these pills they’re just interfering with my destiny. My thinking is skewed because of them stopping my thoughts and letting people steal others.
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