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Metaphysic
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#501
I walked outside for a walk around the block before sleep. Saw the moon, it's getting warmer + the music.. Makes me feel sad.
What has become of this incarnation of reality that I'm in? I need good friends and excitement etc.. I can't just sit alone all day and be left to my own devices.. I can't find any true meaning. Last spring/summer was good. I stayed up all night some nights. I can't remember where the time went. I'm at a point where my meds and mental health is good - So now life has opened up it's doors and imma walk through.. But I don't know where to go after that. I'm just becoming very grateful and such without even trying to be. |
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Elder
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#502
I barely slept. I know I fell asleep at some point because I had a dream, but I spent a lot of the night staring at the wall.
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#503
A big part of me yesterday wanted to go buy some sour THC gummies and try them. To have fun a party. But I didn’t.
I’m just not thinking right. |
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Elder
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#504
I haven’t drank halzenut coffee forever and it’s bringing back old feelings. Like certain perfumes bring back old feelings too.
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#505
I feel all this unfocused energy I want to read all these books I have and write code and learn the mysteries of the universe and math and dance and drink.
Everything except work. |
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#506
My RL friends don’t want to talk to me I think I’ve annoyed them too much while they’re trying to work. Everyone so busy no one has time to talk.
I just wanna talk talk talk I don’t know about what just random stuff. Mental illness and how it messes with people. I just want something to keep me busy and focused I can’t focus on work right now I’m a bad employee. |
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The Dopamine Flux
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#507
I drank decaf coffee and I feel nauseous
Maybe it’s coffee in general idk Cuz I can drink Red Bull and have no effect. But coffee makes me nauseous. __________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#508
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The Dopamine Flux
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#509
__________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#510
Yay I bought a cleansing brush it looks awesome.
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#511
I just want to be functional again. I have been semi- or non-functional for a while now. I am just so tired in the mornings. I used to have energy.
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#512
I talk to my doctor this afternoon can’t come soon enough it’s frustrating waiting for things and I can’t focus I just want to doooooo things just not work I’m trying to work I got some done but I have a loooot to do and I can’t focus damn brain just going going gonnneeee.
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#513
I want my cleansing brush so I can deep clean my face. Gonna have the cleanest ****ing face.
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#514
__________________ "We're all born to broken people on their most honest day of living"
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#515
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I have so much energy right now but I don’t feel functional at all I’m sitting in front of my computer but I can’t focus on any one thing for too long. |
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#516
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#517
they really don't know what to do about me, they can't even agree on any diagnosis consistently (other than NPD and ASPD, but even non professionals know this so they're not exactly telling me anything i don't already know. PAH!)
i'm getting evaluated for ECT though because regardless of what you call my problems i'm pretty ****ed up right now tbh.; |
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#518
I’ve been limiting myself to one cup of coffee a day and then the rest of the day tea mostly herbal tea.
I don’t need extra energy unless I’m studying I’m full of energy I don’t need it I am pure energy I will overthrow god. |
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#519
I need something to calm me down. They took away my seroquel and I’m almost out of abilify im trying to follow my doctor’s instructions but nothing is helping I’m full of energy but my sanity is exhausted.
Maybe I’ll just yell at my doctor to sedate me that worked before lmao. |
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