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Default Mar 01, 2021 at 04:28 PM
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Hi everyone! I hope everyone is doing good today. My stupid therapist went and said she thinks I have CSA in my background. **** So totally screwed with my head. I have no memories of that whatsoever but now I can't stop thinking about it. Dang her. So mad!

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Default Mar 01, 2021 at 04:56 PM
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Just finished talking with my doctor. I told him that I can’t stand this anymore and basically begged him to do something else because the abilify isn’t helping.

So he’s starting me on a low dose of lithium until I can see the psychiatrist.

Thank god. I’m getting so tired and feeling this way. Hopefully this will help a lot.
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I get that I feel like I could not want to talk to my psych because she’ll say something and I’ll have to go through it and like I feel like talking talking talking I don’t want people to try to reason with me really I just want Meds to calm me down and

I hope you feel okay.
I'm ok I guess. I feel like he's prob disappointed that I canceled. Last week when we talked he said I was sick. Like , with psychosis. I hope he's not mad at me. But he knows sometimes I just don't want to talk.

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Just finished talking with my doctor. I told him that I can’t stand this anymore and basically begged him to do something else because the abilify isn’t helping.

So he’s starting me on a low dose of lithium until I can see the psychiatrist.

Thank god. I’m getting so tired and feeling this way. Hopefully this will help a lot.
Hope the med change helps

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Hi everyone! I hope everyone is doing good today. My stupid therapist went and said she thinks I have CSA in my background. **** So totally screwed with my head. I have no memories of that whatsoever but now I can't stop thinking about it. Dang her. So mad!
I've talked w my therapist at length about my csa . But it literally took 5 years of therapy with him for me to even kinda admit it. He said he always suspected but wanted me to come around in my own time. He never pushed it as a subject.

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Just finished talking with my doctor. I told him that I can’t stand this anymore and basically begged him to do something else because the abilify isn’t helping.

So he’s starting me on a low dose of lithium until I can see the psychiatrist.

Thank god. I’m getting so tired and feeling this way. Hopefully this will help a lot.
Make sure you drink a lot of fluids if you're gonna take lithium

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Make sure you drink a lot of fluids if you're gonna take lithium

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Default Mar 01, 2021 at 05:17 PM
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Yeah definitely be careful with lithium, and make sure to get your levels checked when you're supposed to. I got toxicity once that put me in the ICU for a week and caused my kidneys to fail. (not trying to scare you, I was on 1800 mg, which was a really high dose for my weight at the time)

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Default Mar 01, 2021 at 05:40 PM
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I've been struggling to shower recently too but I just finally took one!

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So my prescription probably won’t be ready until tomorrow so I’m trying to enjoy my energy and have a few drinks tonight before I stop alcohol for lithium.
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At the end of the documentary, he said "I didn't have a goal. I still don't have a goal. It's like a hallway filled with closed doors. You go through them and you find another hallway with closed doors. It's an absolutely marvellous continuous discovery".

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I've been sleeping 12 hours a night lately even with the Vyvanse.

**** I'm exhausted. Getting ready in the morning is the same **** every day. It's getting boring.

Zyprexa can cause that? I don't know, it's been causing that for me lately. I just say that cause sedation has been a major problem for me lately.

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Zyprexa can cause that? I don't know, it's been causing that for me lately. I just say that cause sedation has been a major problem for me lately.
I guess it can. But I really need the olanzepine. It's not an option to not take it. I haven't had any dissociation this year let alone a dissociative full blown panic attack.

I'm ok with sleeping a little more - But I must be given Dexedrines x.x
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Default Mar 01, 2021 at 07:04 PM
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I put in a hold request for two books from the library. They’re both Chicken Soup for the Soul books. One is Christmas themed. I figured I could use some uplifting stories

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Default Mar 01, 2021 at 07:16 PM
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I feel like I have a lot to say but I can’t get the words out.

My sister made spaghetti and meatballs. Yum.

Watching tv.

I wish I had my prescription already. I want to feel better. I hate feeling this way.

I know I know it’ll take time to work.

Ugh. So done.

I guess this isn’t full full mania because I’m still kind of sleeping and not completely out of touch of reality.

But still it sucks. If I wasn’t on meds it probably wouldn’t be pretty.
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I wish I had more fireball lmao.

Just want to listen to music and drink. Party time.
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I'm trying to be more positive and get over my negativity. It's hard. But I did it years ago when I was struggling with this then so there's no reason I can't do it again. I just have to keep trying.

I have to start using coping skills more.

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I'm trying to be more positive and get over my negativity. It's hard. But I did it years ago when I was struggling with this then so there's no reason I can't do it again. I just have to keep trying.

I have to start using coping skills more.

No reason to be negative! Everything is great!
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I guess it can. But I really need the olanzepine. It's not an option to not take it. I haven't had any dissociation this year let alone a dissociative full blown panic attack.

I'm ok with sleeping a little more - But I must be given Dexedrines x.x

Gotcha.

Today I had an appointment with a new psychiatrist who wants me on fewer meds and lower dosages. I am happy with that. I don't want to be on tons of meds at high dosages.

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Now I feel anxious about the whole thing. I don't know. Sucks to feel anxious about practically everything.

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