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Blue_Bird · Feb 27, 2021 at 08:22 PM

I’m seeing my friend tomorrow that I haven’t seen in like 4 months.

Blue_Bird · Feb 27, 2021 at 08:24 PM

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I got diagnosed with schizoaffective depressed type when I was 17 and then got diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia when I was 21. Then back to schizoaffective at 24 but bipolar subtype.

That’s what I have too. Schizoaffective disorder bipolar type

Blue_Bird · Feb 27, 2021 at 08:52 PM

I have a good idea for St. Patrick’s day. I found a blender recipe on Pinterest for shamrock shakes that has baileys in it

cogladaid · Feb 27, 2021 at 08:59 PM

Had a couple drinks to relax. Thoughts slower.

Exam tomorrow afternoon. Nervous. But I think I’ll be okay. As long as I can focus.

Blue_Bird · Feb 27, 2021 at 09:20 PM

I’m bored

I have shows to watch but I don’t feel like watching them right now. I have games to play but I don’t feel like playing them right now.
I want to talk to someone. Idk what about. Just to talk about random things. I need to get thoughts out of my head. I’m stuck with my own thoughts 24/7

Blue_Bird · Feb 27, 2021 at 09:23 PM

I feel so restless

cogladaid · Feb 27, 2021 at 09:29 PM

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I feel so restless

I felt restless all day I get it.

If you wanted to talk you can vent on here. That’s what I’ve been doing lmao.

Blue_Bird · Feb 27, 2021 at 09:45 PM

It’s just, I have anxiety about stupid things. Like taking my meds (swallowing pills), eating food. And those are everyday things. So I have anxiety everyday, 2 times a day I have to take meds and swallow 5 or 6 pills each time. Then eating. That’s three or more times a day I have to deal with food and what I’m gonna eat. Whether I can eat it or not, if it’s not too high on my list of anxious inducing foods in regards to fear of choking. It’s like it just controls my life and I’m sick of it.

Blue_Bird · Feb 27, 2021 at 09:46 PM

Like is it possible to get over that? I never used to be like this. I only developed this type of phobic anxiety in the past year

cogladaid · Feb 27, 2021 at 09:48 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Like is it possible to get over that? I never used to be like this. I only developed this type of phobic anxiety in the past year

Im sorry you’re going through that. I think it’s possible to get over it. I believe in you.

I don’t have any advice but have you talked to your therapist about this? I’m sure they would have some advice.

Sometimes psychotic · Feb 27, 2021 at 09:50 PM

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Like is it possible to get over that? I never used to be like this. I only developed this type of phobic anxiety in the past year

Do you know why it’s happening? Like are you having negative thoughts? I thought you got a pill crusher?

I used to have bad driving anxiety in th city, turns out it was just the city and I’m fine in the burbs.

cogladaid · Feb 27, 2021 at 09:50 PM

I’ve developed anxiety over showering ever since I started working from home last year. I’ve talked to my psychologist about it and she gave me some advice but it’s hard to follow sometimes and I let slip.

I don’t know why it’s such a thing. It seems dumb to be anxious over showering.

Blue_Bird · Feb 27, 2021 at 09:51 PM

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Originally Posted by cogladaid

Im sorry you’re going through that. I think it’s possible to get over it. I believe in you.

I don’t have any advice but have you talked to your therapist about this? I’m sure they would have some advice.

Thank you

Yeah I’ve talked to my therapist about it, she mentioned trying relaxation techniques. I just have a hard time letting go of the mental anxiety around it. we didn’t discuss it the past two times we talked though because we were more focused on dealing with the mania/psychosis then depressive episode.

I’ll bring it up again to her and see what she says. I don’t know what happened that triggered it.

cogladaid · Feb 27, 2021 at 09:52 PM

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I used to have bad driving anxiety in th city, turns out it was just the city and I’m fine in the burbs.

I have anxiety driving out on the highway. I’m fine in the city. But I have anxiety parking. And test anxiety so I haven’t passed my drivers test yet.

Blue_Bird · Feb 27, 2021 at 09:57 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

Do you know why it’s happening? Like are you having negative thoughts? I thought you got a pill crusher?

I used to have bad driving anxiety in th city, turns out it was just the city and I’m fine in the burbs.

Possible trigger:

I think honestly it stems from a fear of dying. I just have this vision of myself choking alone in my apartment, dying and nobody knowing I’m dead for like days or a week.

Yes I got a pill crusher, I’ll have to call and clarify how I’m supposed to do that with the pharmacist. Like am I supposed to take it in food or something. Like in yogurt? Like does it have to be specifically In food. Or with food. I don’t know why I haven’t been using it I honestly forgot about it. That could take away at least some of my anxiety. Not all my pills can be crushed but the big ones can.

Sometimes psychotic · Feb 27, 2021 at 10:14 PM

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Originally Posted by cogladaid

I have anxiety driving out on the highway. I’m fine in the city. But I have anxiety parking. And test anxiety so I haven’t passed my drivers test yet.

Here in th city th drivers are super aggressive and the lanes are narrow......

Sometimes psychotic · Feb 27, 2021 at 10:19 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Possible trigger:

I think honestly it stems from a fear of dying. I just have this vision of myself choking alone in my apartment, dying and nobody knowing I’m dead for like days or a week.

Yes I got a pill crusher, I’ll have to call and clarify how I’m supposed to do that with the pharmacist. Like am I supposed to take it in food or something. Like in yogurt? Like does it have to be specifically In food. Or with food. I don’t know why I haven’t been using it I honestly forgot about it. That could take away at least some of my anxiety. Not all my pills can be crushed but the big ones can.

I see. My gag reflex is super strong, I’d probably puke rather than choke. I would talk to the T specifically about those thoughts and why they may or may not be realistic?

Definitely ask the pharmacist about th pill crusher. I’ve never used one. I used to take pills by chewing up 2-3 m and ms and putting the pill into the mix and swallowing.

Blue_Bird · Feb 27, 2021 at 10:26 PM

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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic

I see. My gag reflex is super strong, I’d probably puke rather than choke. I would talk to the T specifically about those thoughts and why they may or may not be realistic?

Definitely ask the pharmacist about th pill crusher. I’ve never used one. I used to take pills by chewing up 2-3 m and ms and putting the pill into the mix and swallowing.

Thanks I'll call the pharmacist on Monday and see what they say and I'll talk to my T about the thoughts. I never thought about bringing those thoughts specifically up to her before so thank you I guess I never really verbalized them before I posted them here tonight because I felt if I did so it would make them more real and I guess I didn't want to acknowledge them for some reason

Sometimes psychotic · Feb 27, 2021 at 10:30 PM

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Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Thanks I'll call the pharmacist on Monday and see what they say and I'll talk to my T about the thoughts. I never thought about bringing those thoughts specifically up to her before so thank you I guess I never really verbalized them before I posted them here tonight because I felt if I did so it would make them more real and I guess I didn't want to acknowledge them for some reason

One thing that sometimes helps me is telling myself, “this is going to be easy” before I start something anxiety provoking.

Angelique67 · Feb 27, 2021 at 11:13 PM

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Maybe you guys aren't real and I"m just talking to myself here.

I'm real, but I don't have anything to write about.

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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,722 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Feb 27, 2021 at 08:22 PM #381 I’m seeing my friend tomorrow that I haven’t seen in like 4 months. __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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cogladaid Elder Member Since Jul 2015 Location: Nowhere Posts: 5,565 8	Feb 27, 2021 at 08:59 PM #384 Had a couple drinks to relax. Thoughts slower. Exam tomorrow afternoon. Nervous. But I think I’ll be okay. As long as I can focus.
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,722 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Feb 27, 2021 at 09:23 PM #386 I feel so restless __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Blue_Bird Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jun 2013 Location: Hogwarts Posts: 36,722 (SuperPoster!) 10 14.3k hugs given	Feb 27, 2021 at 09:46 PM #389 Like is it possible to get over that? I never used to be like this. I only developed this type of phobic anxiety in the past year __________________ My Blog: https://livingwithachaoticmind.wordpress.com/ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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