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#561
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__________________ R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16 “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
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Desoxyn
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#562
I'm positive and hopeful about the potential of humanity but firstly pessimistic about the world. I'm both. It doesn't have to be one way or the other. There's many dimensions of thought and emotion.
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Desoxyn
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#563
But I do feel scared and a little paranoid..
I can't keep up with the nonsense and propaganda. I'm might as well stay ignorant - But I'm too curious. I'm going skiing tomorrow though and the next day ^-; I'll spend the remaining days with my family (You people are my family too..) and work part time, do my things and pretend as if nothing bad will happen to me - But I'm prepared.. Cuz I don't have as much will to live as the average person - Especially entrepreneurs and such.. That like to sell items on Amazon.. |
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#564
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Desoxyn
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#565
Productive day..
Need 2 meditate and such.. So much mental pain. I'm glad that I have olanzepine cuz I'd otherwise be dissociating. |
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cogladaid
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#566
Took my first dose of lithium. My pharmacy didn’t have exactly what the doctor requested so I had to have it transferred over to another pharmacy because I wanted it ASAP so after like an hour wait I got it and now I’m going to try to sleep.
I’m not very sleepy though. Alcohol out of my system I think. Just will stare at a wall until I fall asleep again I guess. |
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Desoxyn
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#567
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Not to scare you! But yeah anyways am feeling so tired.. I try.. I'm trying.. But so tired. Billions of Vyvanses can't help me.. |
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WastingAsparagus
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#568
Just drinking some black coffee tonight. Not sure why I gravitate towards coffee at night instead of alcohol. Probably because I've had a bad time with alcohol in the past.
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#569
I'm dying for alcohol. A bottle of Rhine wine would be amazing. My mother had an alcoholic drink at the home she's in, so who knows, maybe if you're discreet about it and don't get noisy/loud they let you have some.
I'm tired but I don't know if I want to sleep. I'm sleeping all day lately because I stay up into the wee hours watching Pluto TV. I thought they had the free channels but now it looks like they don't. |
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#570
So the 2-3 hours before I go to sleep are usually low energy.. like I'm done for the day.
I notice that when my dad comes to visit, he would say that he's going to sleep but would actually be watching movies in the dark until 3am. My mom does this too but texts and goes on FB. So what I'm going to do from now on is to stop trying to know everything about investing, crypto and learning in general and just play podcasts for an hour or more and lie in bed.. I used to do this with a radio when I was a kid. I can't believe I stopped doing this. It pleases my mild autism ^-; |
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cogladaid
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#571
Took me a little bit to fall asleep but I slept pretty well last night so that’s good.
I still feel restless this morning. Trying to listen to calm music to feel calm. |
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WastingAsparagus
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#572
Good this morning - just listening to good music - writing in my journal. Hope everyone is doing well.
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Legendary Wise Elder
SlumberKitty
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#573
Hi everyone. Just chilling at work today. had this ridiculously hard survey to do for the government. Got it done though. They wanted to know **** like how many Kw of Electricity did we buy last year. WTFK?
Still pissed at my T. Not furious. Just pissed. In a bad mood I guess. Totally should have called out today and went and did something fun. Oh yeah, can't. everything is closed down due to COVID! __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA |
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cogladaid
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#574
I had a video call with my boss this morning and I was very hyper and chatty. Idk if she noticed.
Someone at work wanted an update on something I should have done yesterday. I wanted to write back ‘Sorry I didn’t get this done yesterday because I’m in the middle of a manic episode and was busy plotting to overthrow God.’ Instead simply ‘Sorry for the delay, Monday got away from me.’ Gotta go for blood tests after work. |
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#575
getting discharged from partial hospital next friday
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Legendary Wise Elder
SlumberKitty
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#576
I'm wearing the exact same thing to work today that I wore yesterday. Same jeans. Same socks. Same sweatshirt. Same shoes. I hope no one notices but I kind of don't care. It's a plain black sweatshirt. I could have 10 of them. I didn't feel up to getting dressed today and I slept in the sweatshirt so I just pulled on the jeans from yesterday.
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cogladaid
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#577
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Sometimes I sleep in my clothes and just change my shirt the next day. |
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SlumberKitty
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#578
I do regret neglecting to put on deodorant though. I'm not sweaty exactly and I don't think I smell, just I notice it. And it's bothering me.
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SlumberKitty
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#579
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WastingAsparagus
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#580
Do you guys ever get it where you feel like you're doing well so you feel like you need zero support?
I feel like I'm to that point (which is not a bad place to be). I am just scared I will want to ditch the support system I have and then I'll end up feeling bad again. __________________ "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!” |
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