advertisement
Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
Blue_Bird
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Blue_Bird's Avatar
Blue_Bird is ready for recovery!
 
Member Since: Jun 2013
Location: Hogwarts
Posts: 36,660 (SuperPoster!)
10 yr Member
14.3k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 01, 2021 at 08:48 PM
  #561
Possible trigger:

__________________


R.I.P mom 8/6/55-1/15/16

“All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” -St. Francis of Assisi
Blue_Bird is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Desoxyn, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, cogladaid, junkDNA

advertisement
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,961 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 01, 2021 at 08:51 PM
  #562
I'm positive and hopeful about the potential of humanity but firstly pessimistic about the world. I'm both. It doesn't have to be one way or the other. There's many dimensions of thought and emotion.
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,961 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 01, 2021 at 09:11 PM
  #563
But I do feel scared and a little paranoid..

I can't keep up with the nonsense and propaganda.

I'm might as well stay ignorant - But I'm too curious. I'm going skiing tomorrow though and the next day ^-;

I'll spend the remaining days with my family (You people are my family too..) and work part time, do my things and pretend as if nothing bad will happen to me - But I'm prepared..

Cuz I don't have as much will to live as the average person - Especially entrepreneurs and such.. That like to sell items on Amazon..
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
junkDNA
Comfy Sedation
 
junkDNA's Avatar
junkDNA endless ocean landing on an endless desert
 
Member Since: Sep 2012
Location: the woods
Posts: 19,301 (SuperPoster!)
10 yr Member
8,149 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 01, 2021 at 09:53 PM
  #564
Quote:
Originally Posted by Blue_Bird View Post
Possible trigger:
My pms used to really mess me up. The mental and emotional aspects, like anger and rage a Sui depression . I think some of these ap medications affect our hormones . I mean some of them cause women to lactate (happened to me)

__________________
junkDNA is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Blue_Bird, SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, Blue_Bird, cogladaid, Desoxyn
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,961 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 01, 2021 at 10:05 PM
  #565
Productive day..

Need 2 meditate and such.. So much mental pain. I'm glad that I have olanzepine cuz I'd otherwise be dissociating.
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, Blue_Bird, WastingAsparagus
cogladaid
Elder
 
cogladaid's Avatar
cogladaid is feeling more stable
 
Member Since: Jul 2015
Location: Nowhere
Posts: 5,559
8 yr Member PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 01, 2021 at 10:08 PM
  #566
Took my first dose of lithium. My pharmacy didn’t have exactly what the doctor requested so I had to have it transferred over to another pharmacy because I wanted it ASAP so after like an hour wait I got it and now I’m going to try to sleep.

I’m not very sleepy though. Alcohol out of my system I think. Just will stare at a wall until I fall asleep again I guess.
cogladaid is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Blue_Bird, Desoxyn, SlumberKitty, Sometimes psychotic
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, Blue_Bird, WastingAsparagus
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,961 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 01, 2021 at 10:18 PM
  #567
Quote:
Originally Posted by cogladaid View Post
Took my first dose of lithium. My pharmacy didn’t have exactly what the doctor requested so I had to have it transferred over to another pharmacy because I wanted it ASAP so after like an hour wait I got it and now I’m going to try to sleep.

I’m not very sleepy though. Alcohol out of my system I think. Just will stare at a wall until I fall asleep again I guess.
I remember my mom had a tenant that used to live with me and he stopped his lithium and started drinking. Did a cop chase, recked two cop cars and is now in jail.

Not to scare you!

But yeah anyways am feeling so tired.. I try.. I'm trying.. But so tired. Billions of Vyvanses can't help me..
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
cogladaid
WastingAsparagus
Student of Life
 
WastingAsparagus's Avatar
WastingAsparagus is trying to enjoy life.
 
Member Since: Mar 2014
Location: South America
Posts: 4,641
10 yr Member
2,909 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 01, 2021 at 10:18 PM
  #568
Just drinking some black coffee tonight. Not sure why I gravitate towards coffee at night instead of alcohol. Probably because I've had a bad time with alcohol in the past.

__________________
"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it.
Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”

WastingAsparagus is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, Blue_Bird, cogladaid, Desoxyn
Angelique67
Legendary Wise Elder
 
Angelique67's Avatar
Angelique67 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Oct 2014
Location: USA
Posts: 22,110 (SuperPoster!)
8 yr Member PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 02, 2021 at 12:42 AM
  #569
I'm dying for alcohol. A bottle of Rhine wine would be amazing. My mother had an alcoholic drink at the home she's in, so who knows, maybe if you're discreet about it and don't get noisy/loud they let you have some.

I'm tired but I don't know if I want to sleep. I'm sleeping all day lately because I stay up into the wee hours watching Pluto TV. I thought they had the free channels but now it looks like they don't.
Angelique67 is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Desoxyn
Desoxyn
Metaphysic
 
Desoxyn's Avatar
Desoxyn We are one mind
 
Member Since: Aug 2016
Location: The Netherlands
Posts: 12,961 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
4,902 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 02, 2021 at 12:48 AM
  #570
So the 2-3 hours before I go to sleep are usually low energy.. like I'm done for the day.

I notice that when my dad comes to visit, he would say that he's going to sleep but would actually be watching movies in the dark until 3am. My mom does this too but texts and goes on FB.

So what I'm going to do from now on is to stop trying to know everything about investing, crypto and learning in general and just play podcasts for an hour or more and lie in bed..

I used to do this with a radio when I was a kid. I can't believe I stopped doing this. It pleases my mild autism ^-;
Desoxyn is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67
cogladaid
Elder
 
cogladaid's Avatar
cogladaid is feeling more stable
 
Member Since: Jul 2015
Location: Nowhere
Posts: 5,559
8 yr Member PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 02, 2021 at 09:03 AM
  #571
Took me a little bit to fall asleep but I slept pretty well last night so that’s good.

I still feel restless this morning. Trying to listen to calm music to feel calm.
cogladaid is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Desoxyn, newtus, WastingAsparagus
WastingAsparagus
Student of Life
 
WastingAsparagus's Avatar
WastingAsparagus is trying to enjoy life.
 
Member Since: Mar 2014
Location: South America
Posts: 4,641
10 yr Member
2,909 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 02, 2021 at 11:07 AM
  #572
Good this morning - just listening to good music - writing in my journal. Hope everyone is doing well.

__________________
"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it.
Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”

WastingAsparagus is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, Blue_Bird, Desoxyn
SlumberKitty
Legendary Wise Elder
 
SlumberKitty's Avatar
SlumberKitty is staying stable.
 
Member Since: Jul 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
117.7k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 02, 2021 at 01:22 PM
  #573
Hi everyone. Just chilling at work today. had this ridiculously hard survey to do for the government. Got it done though. They wanted to know **** like how many Kw of Electricity did we buy last year. WTFK?


Still pissed at my T. Not furious. Just pissed. In a bad mood I guess. Totally should have called out today and went and did something fun. Oh yeah, can't. everything is closed down due to COVID!

__________________
Dum Spiro Spero
IC XC NIKA
SlumberKitty is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, cogladaid, Desoxyn, WastingAsparagus
cogladaid
Elder
 
cogladaid's Avatar
cogladaid is feeling more stable
 
Member Since: Jul 2015
Location: Nowhere
Posts: 5,559
8 yr Member PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 02, 2021 at 01:51 PM
  #574
I had a video call with my boss this morning and I was very hyper and chatty. Idk if she noticed.

Someone at work wanted an update on something I should have done yesterday. I wanted to write back ‘Sorry I didn’t get this done yesterday because I’m in the middle of a manic episode and was busy plotting to overthrow God.’

Instead simply ‘Sorry for the delay, Monday got away from me.’

Gotta go for blood tests after work.
cogladaid is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty, WastingAsparagus
falcon09
Grand Magnate
 
falcon09's Avatar
falcon09 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Feb 2015
Location: United States
Posts: 3,017
8 yr Member
1,863 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 02, 2021 at 01:51 PM
  #575
getting discharged from partial hospital next friday

__________________
falcon09 is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, cogladaid, Desoxyn, newtus, unsure123, WastingAsparagus
SlumberKitty
Legendary Wise Elder
 
SlumberKitty's Avatar
SlumberKitty is staying stable.
 
Member Since: Jul 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
117.7k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 02, 2021 at 02:02 PM
  #576
I'm wearing the exact same thing to work today that I wore yesterday. Same jeans. Same socks. Same sweatshirt. Same shoes. I hope no one notices but I kind of don't care. It's a plain black sweatshirt. I could have 10 of them. I didn't feel up to getting dressed today and I slept in the sweatshirt so I just pulled on the jeans from yesterday.

__________________
Dum Spiro Spero
IC XC NIKA
SlumberKitty is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Thanks for this!
cogladaid
cogladaid
Elder
 
cogladaid's Avatar
cogladaid is feeling more stable
 
Member Since: Jul 2015
Location: Nowhere
Posts: 5,559
8 yr Member PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 02, 2021 at 02:03 PM
  #577
Quote:
Originally Posted by SlumberKitty View Post
I'm wearing the exact same thing to work today that I wore yesterday. Same jeans. Same socks. Same sweatshirt. Same shoes. I hope no one notices but I kind of don't care. It's a plain black sweatshirt. I could have 10 of them. I didn't feel up to getting dressed today and I slept in the sweatshirt so I just pulled on the jeans from yesterday.

Sometimes I sleep in my clothes and just change my shirt the next day.
cogladaid is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, SlumberKitty
SlumberKitty
Legendary Wise Elder
 
SlumberKitty's Avatar
SlumberKitty is staying stable.
 
Member Since: Jul 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
117.7k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 02, 2021 at 02:03 PM
  #578
I do regret neglecting to put on deodorant though. I'm not sweaty exactly and I don't think I smell, just I notice it. And it's bothering me.

__________________
Dum Spiro Spero
IC XC NIKA
SlumberKitty is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Thanks for this!
Angelique67, cogladaid
SlumberKitty
Legendary Wise Elder
 
SlumberKitty's Avatar
SlumberKitty is staying stable.
 
Member Since: Jul 2018
Location: CA
Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!)
5 yr Member
117.7k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 02, 2021 at 02:04 PM
  #579
Quote:
Originally Posted by cogladaid View Post
Sometimes I sleep in my clothes and just change my shirt the next day.
Yeah. Me too. Today I didn't bother changing the shirt though.

__________________
Dum Spiro Spero
IC XC NIKA
SlumberKitty is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Thanks for this!
cogladaid
WastingAsparagus
Student of Life
 
WastingAsparagus's Avatar
WastingAsparagus is trying to enjoy life.
 
Member Since: Mar 2014
Location: South America
Posts: 4,641
10 yr Member
2,909 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Mar 02, 2021 at 02:58 PM
  #580
Do you guys ever get it where you feel like you're doing well so you feel like you need zero support?

I feel like I'm to that point (which is not a bad place to be).


I am just scared I will want to ditch the support system I have and then I'll end up feeling bad again.

__________________
"Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it.
Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it!”

WastingAsparagus is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
SlumberKitty
 
Thanks for this!
cogladaid
All times are GMT -5. The time now is 08:35 AM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2024, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.



 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.